Tone & Sound

#03 [Bab. grey night]

"Yes..." Bara had wanted to interrupt the questions, but stopped after Ms. Ann threw her index finger at him.

"Jawab Mama, Tone... Answer Mama." Ms. Ann asked for an answer, but Nada remained silent.

"The Orange Tone of Salamah! Answer my mother's question!" Ms. Ann's voice was getting higher.

"Yes, Ma! Aye! Music again! Tone of learning Jazz music again..." Nada finally answered all those questions. Replying to all the anger directed at him since then with sobs and tears that were getting louder.

The crying could not be hidden anymore. All those dams are down. Tone, shattered. Ms. Ann turned her face for a while then looked at Nada again.

"Until now I don't know the obvious reason why I can't play music, Ma." Tone shook slowly, "When Mama knows, if you first-"

"Enough!" Miss Ann stopped Nada's sentence.

"Ma..." Nada says shrewdly. Staring at the face of Bu Ann who now looked disappointed.

"Have Papa slap you. You're the-"

"What is it, Ma? Indeed what?!" Tone returned the gaze of his mother. Clearly the tears were visible in both of Nada's globes of poignant eyes.

"It deserves to be slapped just because I did what I liked? Yes, Ma? It's worth treating me like this with him?!" Tone pointed at Mr. Tio. "Or do you deserve not to be told the love of Mama who is more choose her new husband than her own biological child?!"

"So that's your mouth! He's your Papa!!" Now Bu Ann's anger looks the same as Mr. Tio's anger. The difference is, now Mr. Tio is just silent. Not saying a word.

"Papa? My parents? He's not my parent, Ma! He's not my Papa!!"

"Enough, Tone!"

Plaques

Ms. Ann floated her right hand right on Nada's left cheek. Making Nada get a second slap, a second storm blow on a grey night of the weekend.

"Ma!" Bara yells. But still nothing can be.

"The man who went out of this house without ever Mama explained to me or Mas Bara what was the reason, Ma? Da? You mean Mama, Papa?"

"He's not your Papa anymore!"

"He's my Papa, Ma... He's my real parent! He's my Papa, Ma..." Tone crying reached its peak. The eyeballs of Tone were filled with deep crystalline globules of darkness.

"He left us, Nada! And it was your Papa who saved our lives!" Ms. Ann, who had been emitting anger from her face, was now visibly crushed with tears coming out drop by drop.

"There's no word of congratulations on someone's departure, Ma. Papa doesn't leave me or Mas Bara. But Papa left, Mama!" The tone raised his voice.

Plaques

The third slap landed smoothly. Broke up this gray night. Described like a red color shrouded in gray, the canvas of life Tone shattered into pieces. Screaming, falling, drowning in the bleakest sea of pain.

"Udah, enough! Enough's enough! Mama shouldn't be like Nada, Ma! Enough's enough!" For the umpteenth time, Bara tried to break up the dispute. Stop the noise that is getting broken, even more indented into the bitterness hole.

Seeing the broken atmosphere that occurred, Mr. Tio just kept silent. Either hold back emotions or think about something else. But in the two main characters of the gray night show, it is clear that Miss Ann has entered into the same feeling as the feeling that is being felt by Nada. Weeping with each other. Sounds very shrewd. Alternately.

"You don't know anything about that! You don't know anything, Nada... Mama lived a tormented dozen years, do you know that?! Do you know Mama's struggle for you is the same? You never know Mama slam bones for both of you're living, alone, because that man left us!!" Sank already Miss Ann in her pain. Everything sank in a puddle of tears.

"Yes..." Tear dams that had been held by Bara so as not to spill, eventually spilled as well. Bara entered into the pain of a gray night after seeing Miss Ann reach the peak of her tears.

Nothing can change the mood of this gray night. Even to understand it is difficult. No one can tuck happiness into a speck. Miss Ann withered in Mr. Tio's arms. While Nada, still held tightly by Bara. Looks withered too. Everything that happened passed very quickly.

Shortly after, Nada tried to stop her sobs, wiped her tears and sighed, and looked at Ms. Ann for a bit. Then he turned his face away, stepped away from the living room, with the sadness he felt earlier, with tears still pouring down his cheeks.

"Tone... Tones..." Bara tried to stop Nada who stepped away leaving the living room. Go finish the gray night. But, Bara's shout did not stop Nada's footsteps at all.

Finally the gray night is over. Everything really went by very quickly. Nada had gone far away leaving her darkness. Leaving the sturdy Bu Ann at the top of her cries that night. Leaving memories that may never be forgotten, and moving from a point of grief. Although there are still many unanswered questions, although many things in life must pass without an answer.

At some point in life, we never know what will happen. When we are happy, or crying out loud. Because we never know how the universe works. We can only accept it. Even if it is heavy, it is heavy. That's what makes Nada think that everything is enough. A few days after the incident that night, Nada decided to leave. No one can change the decision. His three best friends, Naira, Jeje, and Una who knew about the incident, and Nada's decision to leave had repeatedly reminded Nada to think again. But Nada did not listen to them at all for this. Even Nada deliberately did not tell Bara about the decision he had made. After all, Nada had already built a bridge to cross. In any case, he should keep his feet on it. At that time, Nada chose Paris as her new home. Tone wants to forget everything. He wanted to leave the darkness of that gray night behind. I wish everything would be foreign to him. The flowers sleep, but this one is different. He called it a nightmare.