There's Only Us

For Nevan

POV Nara's

Tonight, the first night we returned home after three weeks in the hospital. I can finally go back to sleep in a soft mattress.

The first sight I saw when I just entered was a pretty messy house. I could only sigh in resignation, the last time I came back here was a week ago, it was worth it the house was dusty and a lot of leaves were falling in the yard.

After being driven home by Aunt Helen this afternoon, she actually wanted to stop by but I held her back. Not do not want aunt Helen to play at home, but the current condition of the house is not possible to receive guests.

Maybe tomorrow I'll just clean up, for now it's better to sweep it. Although I did not do much work, but the body also felt tired. Even just to go to the supermarket to buy food ingredients it feels lazy.

But if it doesn't go, what will the kids eat?

“Mother, the porridge is out,” said Nessa who is currently sitting in the chair, I gasped, only to realize that since then it has continued to daydream.

Looking at the porridge I was cooking, I immediately turned off the stove, which is my mercy, I could not have realized this. Fortunately, Nessa was reminded.

“Emm ... Nessa wants to eat here what's with Nevan in the room?” I asked Nessa, porridge is the last dish. For Nessa I prepared early, and the special meal for Nevan is now porridge.

After the doctor again checked Nevan's condition, he also told what foods Nevan can eat, or foods that should not be eaten.

The doctor also said that once a week there will be a nurse who checks Nevan's condition for the next three months. I just understand, as long as Nevan gets well then I'll do anything.

Even when I told Gavin about Nevan I felt like I wasn't ready. Nevan's pain is too sudden, I haven't thought about what's going to happen in the future.

The pain that I felt five years ago still lingers, just by looking at Gavin's face it feels like old wounds are back open. But I try to be ordinary in front of him. How else would you like? I need him to heal Nevan.

After the surgery was over, I saw his face every day. It felt bad, especially when Gavin knew that he had a child from the results of his depraved behavior, but he did not apologize to me at all.

There was no guilt when he saw me. I just wish he was sorry, that's all. But Gavin remained silent, even his attitude was ordinary.

It made me realize, as people say, that the rich man would never apologize, or admit his mistakes. Not even regretting his actions, maybe Gavin is one of them.

I didn't hate him when I found out he was good enough. Even with his behavior that I think is funny sometimes make me a little entertained.

Only for Nevan's sake would I survive and live in one room with Gavin for a week or so. Rest assured, I am not too strong to hold tightness in the chest because I see Gavin's face every day.

And after waiting for quite a while, I was finally able to go home and no longer see that annoying face but was very meritorious for helping Nevan.

“Eat it in the room only yes, Bun,” I nodded, then started taking rice and vegetables for Nessa. One bowl of porridge for Nevan, not forgetting water and a glass of milk.

Nessa walked first, I followed her from behind. Carrying a fairly large tray. Actually I'm still confused as to how our lives will be.

The kids know who their real father is. I know for a fact that if the kids are very happy, they'll want to stay with Gavin. But that desire still looks gray to grant.

Right now, I can only live it like running water. I have no plans for the future. Let fate bring me to the real purpose of life.

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“Abang, meal time,” put the tray on the nightstand, Nara took a bowl of porridge. Then sit on the bedside.

“Still full, Mother,” Nevan held Nara's hand that had already thrust a spoonful of porridge. He turned his face away, a sign of not wanting to eat.

“Eh, how come? although still full but 'the brother must keep eating. What did the doctor say?” Nevan nodded her head.

“Well, if you want to get well, you have to eat a lot. Let the stomach is filled, not empty, if empty a little more sick, would you like to go to the hospital again?” Nevan shook her head quickly, nearly a month in the hospital left her a little traumatized.

The stinging smell of drugs really disturbs his sense of smell. Nevan did not want to go back to the hospital, neither did she. One of his hands that was infused was still painful until now, even the needle that had pierced his skin to the flesh was more than one.

The first time you want to be infused already get three injections because the position is not right. Then two days later I got another shot, and the last one was the surgery. I don't know how many times the doctor injected her, Nevan can't count it.

For sure he felt full with the taste of injections. Quite traumatized as well, next time he doesn't want to be injected again. It was quite painful and a little painful, Nevan had grimaced at that time but did not cry.

Lazily Nevan opened her mouth, letting Nara feed herself. A faint smile rose on Nara's face, the threat turned out to be quite useful. As the saying goes, just as cleverly as a squirrel jumping once fell too, like that Nevan is now.

If you are a child, remain a child. It can be deceived too. Especially those who are not even five years old, easily deceived.