The Year That Has Passed
remorse
suddenly my face was a little pale in my heart I was already a very dirty woman and sold my soul, as I was daydreaming lughas said
"om take it easy I'll take good care of Natasha"
I was very relieved after Lughas said those words, and I immediately added some spice
"yes father I always hearted father rest easy father need not worry and father just need to believe in me"
"yes, of course, I really believe in my daughter, how if we eat first I will cook food for you"
"alright"
lughas and I were sitting in the living room while dad was cooking in the kitchen lughas came up to me and kissed me my face was hot and I immediately pushed him and said
"what you're doing we've come to an agreement, not if we're not gonna do anything here like anything if my dad sees"
"all right, I'm gonna go take a shower I feel so hot"
"okay you go take a shower I'll prepare some food"
lughas went to take a shower and I prepared food to help my father while I was in the kitchen my father asked me
"natasha how do I change money son lughas daddy very confused"
"dad calm down lest I find a way to replace it, I'll work hard"
"but I don't want you to be too tired, as good as you take care of your health and diligently learn about making money is father's business"
my eyes were red when I heard my father say that and I answered
"it's okay my father is still studying hard why my father is calm I'm also not too tired and always take care of my health, let's eat"
I bring all the food to the dinner table when it's ready I call lughas to eat look like a wife , the three of us ate and chatted warmly my father took the fish for lughas and lughas ate it happily, I went home to my father and I went home with lughas
while on the way, Lughas looks moody and I ask him
"what are you thinking is lughas"
"can we visit your father often"
"why, of course I can"
"i have never had a harmonious family, I have had everything but not with care and affection"
lughas face was instantly gloomy as he said that and I immediately comforted him
"of course we'll visit dad a lot, and again I'll always cook for you instead of that"
lughas immediately smiled and kissed my forehead
"thank you natasha"
I smiled gently when I got home I was planning to go shopping to the mall to buy some clothes and some makeup while I was walking in the mall I saw a radit and a woman and then radit greet me
"hey natasha"
"hi"
then Radit gave me his engagement invitation to the woman next to him and he said
"natasha I'm getting engaged You come yes, because I can't chase you I have to do this engagement,"
my eyes were very hot as if there was going to be water coming out but I pretended to be firm and said to radit
"well, I'll come"
"thank you"
then the woman smiled proudly at me and left in radit's hand as the radit left I cried so painful tears in my heart to hear the person I've loved so far live with another woman when I came out of the mall lughas called me and said
"natasha was so brave you met radit at the mall and cried for him"
"i didn't make an appointment with her I just happened to pass by and meet her, did you send eyes to follow me lughas"
we kept replying and yelling when I was about to say again there was a very loud impact sound I was stunned for a moment and I just realized that lughas had been into an accident I immediately ran like a person crazy towards the hospital and I found lughas in the doctor's office saying his injuries were so severe if lughas couldn't get through tonight he'd die I was waiting outside the operating room when I was waiting for the arrival of her mother lughas to come and directly slapped me so hard that I fell to the floor I could only cry and cry mother lughas said
"it's all because you're my only child who's been in a fucking accident, you know you have to stay away from me for what you're still in a relationship if until what happens with lughas I won't let you go,"
in my heart I was so saddened by the words that made my heart ache so much that I ran down the corridor and I cried so hard I begged God to don't take lughas's life I'd if I were ,
if I hadn't met radit
I wish I hadn't cried for radit
if I hadn't fought with lughas
all this will not happen This is all my fault I'm guilty mother lughas has said true se should I die lughas se shouldnya I have no relationship with lughas I lied to God to give up my soul in exchange for the life of lughas I was willing to sacrifice half my worthless life for lughas I begged that lughas could live in peace,
I kept quiet always see lughas when there was no mother I invite her to chat and when the hand lughas move I immediately call the doctor when the mother lughas also arrived she immediately dragged me come out and drive me out but I keep waiting for the good news about lughas, when I hear the doctor speak
"it looks like the young master lost his memory he can't remember anything"
my heart suddenly felt so broken I thought how if lughas did not remember me what if lughas forgot me and yes when I met him he asked me
"whoareyou?what's in my room, want to tease me don't dream, hurry up and go"
I cried and immediately went running around like crazy,when I went to college a lot of people who have been gossiping about lughas who dumped me because of his loss of memory I was very sad and so the material teasing others again but I now have to hold all of her back I don't want to make trouble.
every night I go to the bar and always drink with a lot I always cry and roar like a madman who does not want to continue my own life I did not expect to lose lughas will make the heart as painful as this I was like being stabbed by thousands of knives right in my heart I was always in the shadow of her who always took care of me and protected me now all will not be the same again like before, I thought back to the words he said in front of everyone that I was his fiancee and I was his future wife now even he did not remember me in the slightest,I thought even though he lost his memory at least he remembered me even though only a little oh god why you always play my life like this, like this, I'm thinking more and more about whether I'm not important enough in my heart until she forgets me, and, uh,,, I always remember the words of Lughas who didn't know me and said rudely to me I don't think I can breathe anymore my life is ruined I lost my love, my chest was so tight that I felt a slash in my heart I cried while saying please I beg you to come back lughas I am back lughas is mine , I've traded it for half my life why you still take it from me is this fair to me god ,,,when I was drunk in the rain there was a man who hugged me from behind I used half my consciousness to take off his hands but he would not let go of me and tell me
"you can't be like this natasha, I know you're a good man, I used to always hear to the hustle about you , but when I saw you give an umbrella to Grandma who was almost raining that I thought that maybe the rumor that circulated that you are a cruel and dirty person is not true, he said, because you have a good side"
when I heard his words I was a little moved and said
"i'm a dirty man who sold my soul for money"
I kept roaring and crying so hysterically she hugged me so tightly and she said to me
"from now on begin your beautiful and good new life with me, I can't give you the luxury I gave you but so I'm your back, make me the most important person in your life, please accept that I'm Natasha accept me to take care of you"
I looked up at her face as I stared at her she was tall and also handsome I had seen her at a glance but I did not know her name
"what's your name"
"lupy, natasha from now on remember that I always I was my lupy before she never dated anyone I just loved you a natasha"
when I heard her I approached her and kissed her I couldn't believe I could even get a guy who had never had a relationship with anyone before her, we went to the hotel and had sex, after that we officially together after dating her I started my life like never had money do not want to sell myself anymore and I live my life with my girlfriend calmly working lupy part time to support me , at the beginning I did not want to bother her I know her family did not have much money if in addition to me one more then it will make her difficult and parents lupy also do not approve our relationship because they know I sold my body but this stupid lupy guy willingly went from his parents and went with me, we lived together in my contract, he said, after Lughas lost his memory of never coming to campus maybe this was on his mother's orders to never see me again, after 3 months I and Lupy were in a relationship I always waited for her in the school cafeteria because she worked there, at that time I saw a woman who was close to Lupy I was very jealous and I immediately approached her
"lupy.."
"natasha you've come"
"yes." yeah."
"wait a minute, okay, I'll be done soon"
I waited for her and saw the woman's motion she was like her lupy liking she was clinging to her cat's body me lupy direction while lupy taught her what work she should do. I was a woman of never-mistake female instinct, I kicked the table and was about to leave but Lupy immediately chased after me and said
"natasha what's wrong with you"
"what's wrong with me you don't know"
"she is riri, riri's classmate with me and she already has my best friend's boyfriend, you don't misunderstand her"
lupy persuaded me and I couldn't get mad last long at him either
"alright"
lupy held my hand and we were out of college for these three months I lived very quietly and peacefully no more people insulting me to outrageousness ,
the next day I had an exam on campus I was still a smart student like before when there was an exam like this there would definitely be someone who would ask for cheat on me really just I just spoke in his heart already has people
"natasha I'm gonna cheat on you, okay"
"sorry I don't cheat"
if in the past I was still very innocent someone approached me I thought they wanted to be friends with me I did not think just wanted to benefit me, huh I would not let it
"yes, I'm so arrogant look out for you"
he left angrily and while pounding the table when the supervisor came and we were all handed out test sheets when I was done and wanted to collect someone who spoke behind me that was nida
"natasha's mom is cheating"
I astonishedly stared at him and I actually found the paper under me the supervising teacher immediately took my repetition and said a word to me
"natasha you should be reported for cheating"
"on what basis my mother accuses me of cheating my mother see if the writing on the paper is the same as the one on my paper"
the supervising teacher looked carefully and very carefully he said
"it's not the same sorry mom, you've all the repeat students have finished let's gather all"
at that moment Nida walked over from beside me and said
"you see how you have dared to fight me I will avenge you"
"oh so you set me up You just wait for my revenge"
I went to the cafeteria waiting for lupy but I met boni she greeted me as usual
"sister-in-law"
"hey boni hasn't seen each other in a long time, you don't have to call me that anymore because I'm not with lughas anymore"
"oh very sorry, oh yeah boni can I ask you for help"
"please let brother-in-law tell me if I can I'll definitely help you"
"i have a problem in class"
I told all about nida to boni and boni understood directly said to me
"tomorrow morning will be finished sister-in-law calm down"
I gave the boni a little money and the boni refused it and I said
"nothing to accept boni even if only a little"
"it's okay brother-in-law your condition is like this where I might take money from you, already I'll go my girlfriend will be angry if the food is cold"
"well thank you"
boni smiled at me and said goodbye, Lupy came home and greeted me
"nathasha"
"lupy.."
"let's go home"
the next day I took a copy of the exam that was very similar to the writing nida I laughed very happily, I said thanks to boni and boni replied
"don't hesitate brother-in-law if you need my help you can call me anytime"
I said goodbye and went to the exam, when the exam was over I told the supervising teacher
"sir nida cheated"
nida's gecko-like face was ugly and ugly, as the teacher approached nida and picked up the cheat paper and said
"nida you cheat, you will I report"
at that time Nida confidently said the same words as me yesterday
"on what basis you accuse me of cheating just look at the writing on the paper as well as on my paper"
nida said it with a proud face I smiled with a sly supervising teacher instantly enraged and said
"anywhere is not your writing, you see for yourself"
nida was shocked to see the writing and glared at me I just smiled so beautifully like a blooming flower no one could hurt me I had sworn to myself where might I have someone else oppress me again, after finishing the test I came out and found that nida was waiting for me she approached me and said
"how dare you slander me for cheating a fucking woman"
"indeed you cheat I just tell the supervisor in a different way and yes I remember to you that no one should oppress me especially you, especially you, you remember the word basic huh"
I went to the cafeteria when I arrived I saw a very familiar lupy with riri I felt my heart would explode in a moment when it was lupy looking at me and saying to me
"natasha wait a minute I'm going to the locker to pick up stuff"
"alright"
back then I approached riri she was like an innocent girl but who would have thought as I approached her she showed off a mocking smile at me and said
"lupy will be mine he doesn't deserve a dirty woman like you"
"dream it over there"
when that lupy came and he dropped himself and I will be his doer when lupy saw his fall he immediately helped him and without caring I passed me just like that I felt so hurt that he said to me
"natasha what are you doing already I said riri is just my friend no more why are you hurting her"
I smiled snidely and said
"you trust him more than I do, you take care of him"
I left without caring anything else and at that time I thought that feeling of lupy like it was lacking in me even he was ignoring me for the sake of another woman, I came home sad when I was thinking my mistake maybe I was the one who thought too much after a few days lupy never contacted me when I was on the bus I kept calling but he didn't pick up at that time I was so upset and angry that I fell asleep when I woke up there was a jacket covering my body I thought this jacket was given by Lupy so I throw and then I came out raining very heavy when there was a shadow on me he was radit pujaan my heart I looked at him he was staring at me with a very very complicated view at that time he ber ask me
"where are you going to let me take you"
"just take me to the nearest hotel"
"why did you sleep in the hotel, oh yes you were sleeping on the perpus"
"so it was your jacket, I'm sorry, I threw it away I thought it belonged to my girlfriend"
her face was a little complicated and sad
"if you don't mind one night you just stay in my apartment how"
"can't it trouble you"
"of course not"
"alright"
I was riding in a radit car and all the way I thought I was a very stupid person I thought it was Lupy who came and gave me the jacket, this time my heart has decided to die to this verdict will no longer be able to be challenged again , when I got to the apartment radit I looked around very neat I was told to sleep on the mattress and he would sleep on the sofa and I asked him
"do you live alone"
"yes I live alone what's wrong"
"there's nothing, did you take care of all this"
"of course, who else is the goods can walk alone"
he smiled very kindly and sweetly as I drowned in his handsome and charming face but I realized immediately myself I immediately patted my face and said
"you'll rest well I'll go to sleep"
"okay"
the next day Radit had prepared breakfast for me and told me to have breakfast, I did not refuse him and sat at the same table,
"do you cook"
"yes, I cook what you don't like"
"of course I like it"
after I finished eating I said thank you very much and left but radit stopped me and said
"i'll drive you"
"no need to be radit I don't want to bother you a lot please don't force me later I'll feel bad for you"
"alright"
I got out the door and took a taxi to the campus as I got off the taxi there was already a lupy waiting for me and dragged me to a quiet place
"wherever you were last night"
I didn't answer her question and she got angrier saying
"oh, you've been sleeping with that radit"
I didn't take it with his words and slapped his face so hard, I didn't think he could say such a word to me, I immediately said a word
"we broke up I don't want to have any relationship with you"
at that time Lupy realized his guilt and immediately begged me to forgive him but all this was too slow I was already very hurt to face this man, I immediately threw out his hand and went out from before him
at that time I locked myself in my contract but Lupy was still waiting for me until night and until the next day his lupy still did not go I went straight outside and gave him the last word
"lupy let go of me, we're no match, I say a lot of thanks to you but I can't continue this relationship"
"natasha please beg you not to die, I'm wrong and I'm stupid I won't let you down again"
"but sorry lupy we're over good-bye"
at that time Lupy left emotionally and I went back to campus when there were many rumors circulating that lupy killed myself I was very shocked and when I was about to find out there was someone who scorned me
"huh filthy woman like you is a good man willing to die"
but I ignored him and suddenly my phone rang this I raised it
"hello natasha, can you come to the hospital xxx now lupy is already dying he will die"
I was very surprised and without answering I immediately ran for a taxi to the hospital , when I arrived at the hospital I was immediately approached by the doctor and the doctor said he needed 40 million for surgery said doctor Lupy ate a lot of sleeping pills he wanted to kill himself in such a way as at that time, I immediately signed the approval letter of the operation and I told the doctor
"doctor wait for me, I'll pay this off soon"
I ran to the exside club a long time ago I never went to this place and I visited my mom,
"mommy"
mami immediately answered me unhappily, I begged my mother to give me a job that could make 40 million money at once
"all right I'll be nice to you this time, you don't forget about getting better at my natasha"
"it's good mi"
"you went to room 015"
there's a big boss waiting for you , I immediately rushed over and went to that room when I entered that room I saw the figure of a tall man with a dashing daze I felt a little familiar with this figure I silently silently observed him and as he turning back I felt very shocked and my heart almost jumped from its place.
