The Warm Your Heart

Chapter 22

Geck...Geck...

"Can I go in?" Nani smiles at the door of Ami's room.

Ami who was busy reading Aneka magazine raised her face. "Eh Nani's... Get in here." Ami got up and patted the side next to her empty bed.

"Read not while sleeping Neng. Could have damaged your eyes." Nani was sitting where Ami was patting just now.

"Yes, Master." Ami folded her magazine and put it origin on the bed.

"Tumben sunday night you're not going the same way with your handsome boyfriend. Bagas, if his name is not wrong." Ami did cross paths several times on the road with Nani when she was about to go accompany Bagas deketin Melisa.

"Not that girlfriend is just a friend. I broke my relationship with him. It's Sunday night I'm at home not going anywhere. Let's sing and play guitar, okay?" Ami picked up her guitar which was placed next to the closet.

Nani is singing and Ami is playing her guitar. Not bad also time spent overnight week without a guy.

"Ni, after graduating from college how are you?" ask Ami after they finished playing one song.

"Where's what? Yes, find work. Who will pay for me to go to college. I know my parents' financial condition. If you're good, you'll go to college."

Ami looked at Nani with a blank look. The lecture? Himself? What allowable?

"Gue's not ready for work yet. My mentality is not ready. I still want to learn, but you know for yourself Bokap I will not charge me. There is Akbar who is their priority. What am I...."

"Don't that Mi. You haven't tried asking your parents. I'm sure they want to pay for college. Your intention is to learn. Just try to talk well with Bokap lo."

Ami continued to ponder Nani's words which he thought had a point as well. All this time he thought that it would not be possible for Mr. Budi to finance his lecture, because he had not tried to ask. Yes, Ami will work first, who knows Pak Budi wants to pay for his school.

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Pak Budi was busy enjoying his morning breakfast, namely cork salted fish and fried tempeh. The chills little by little salted fish as Ami remembered have been 3 days but still not exhausted as well.

"Not overtime sir?" Ami joined in enjoying a glass of chocolate milk belonging to Mother Budi who without sin He inhaled. Ibu Budi just belik see the behavior of his youngest child. Finally he made another chocolate milk.

"Again no overtime. Tumben you wake up in the morning Mi. Usually also adzan dzuhur just woke up." said Pak Budi. This girl is indeed a hobby of waking up during the day when school holidays.

"Why? Want some pocket money? Ask your mom there." Mr. Budi knows where Ami talks.

"Don't ask for pocket money, sir. Ami's..... Ami wants to go to college, sir. Can you?" ask Ami timidly.

Actually Mr. Budi is not as scary as the fathers of killer in general. Ami was never beaten by his father. Just by glaring at Mr. Budi, Ami was afraid and immediately complied. But this time Ami had to do it. He has to talk now if it's not too late.

Pak Budi sipped a warm sweet tea that I Budi prepared. Budi's mother just silently pretended to be sweeping the living room even though she secretly eavesdropped on the conversation of Ami and her husband.

"What are you doing at college? You are a girl. What about high school? You will end up being a housewife like your sister. If you want more pocket money later, I love you. Don't go to college." Budi continued eating. He quietly noticed the change in the look of Ami's face which became moody.

Ami lowered her face. His tears could not stand. She's sad. Why is it just because she's a girl that she doesn't need to go to college? What is wrong with women moving forward? What is wrong if women also want a career and make their own money? Is the course based on gender?

"Ami can't go to college, sir? Ami wants to go to college like other girls." said Ami in a voice that shook with her sadness.

"Ah at most you only want to go to college because the campus deket same Mall right? Can I take a walk to the Mall? Kan Bapak said if you want to snack to make it to the Mall later the money Mr. Love. It's up to you what the fuck you want. No need to go to college." Pak Budi did not not not understand the wishes of Ami, just according to the thought of Mr. Budi, Ami did not need to bother with college, he would finance his allowance.

But Ami's thinking was different. He wants to be independent. Ami felt that the knowledge that Ami gained in school was lacking. Although Ami is smart, Ami is still thirsty for science.

"Ami wants to go to college. Point!" Ami left the dining table and entered his room by slamming the door. He locked the door and cried inside.

Ami did not leave the room all day. He just went out to pee and drink water. Anyway, he must file a protest with Mr. Budi.

All this time Ami thought that Pak Budi was different from Mother Budi. Ibu Budi does not need to cover up if He is indeed favoritism to Akbar. Ami thinks Mr. Budi is not like that. But turns? Budi also treated Ami the same.

What is wrong with Ami being born a woman? Did Ami want it? It wasn't his fault until he was born a woman. But why in the eyes of both parents born as women can be treated unfairly?

Is it not enough to distinguish the treatment between himself and Akbar? Ami used to not be envious of everything Akbar had, because what? Because Ami does not want his heart to become clouded with envy and spite that will only make him hurt.

Just once.... Just once... Let Ami fulfill her wish. He wants to be able to work in one of the multi-storey buildings in the Sudirman area of Jakarta. Work by wearing a skirt and blazer in one of the big companies. With his SMK diploma most He can only be a cashier or admin in a small company, it was only as an outsourced employee. If he goes to college and becomes a scholar, he can realize his dream. Not wrong, right?

Ami wiped away her tears that had not stopped flowing. His stomach is getting nauseous. He immediately ran to the bathroom and vomited all of his stomach. Yes, Ami will vomit if she cries over time.

The voice of Ami who was vomiting was heard by Mr. Budi who was reading the newspaper Poskota in front of the TV Toshiba the convex screen which still had konde do behind him. Mr. Budi is no longer focused on reading the newspaper. His mind now branched out, deciding whether to allow Ami to go to college or not.