The Sun Becomes a Star
Aunt Nina
Go home with a million loads that make my back feel crouched. Asked – ask me all the way if my decision was right by not talking about Aaron to Kevin. In many ways I know that I don't have the right to enter Aaron's private domain. If only I could tell Papa about this. But if you know this is the truth, Papa won't let me see Aaron or Kevin. This is what makes me feel heavy.
If only Kevin hadn't called me back then, if only I hadn't fought with Aaron back then and beyond. This weird thing won't bother me. I want to still have HP because it has a lot of HP to facilitate my life.
About half-eight nights I got to the front of the house. Even though the air was cold, I decided to take off my knitted sweater. I see Papa's motorcycle is up ahead. Papa's gone home. One thing that struck me was when I saw Papa not alone in the living room who did not receive the stranger very often. Papa was sitting sweet, bright-faced with red cheeks, with a woman of Papa's age. Her body is slim but not as tall as mine. Short hair and clean face. Wear jeans complete with glasses minus.
“We've been waiting for you May,” Papa said. He called ‘kami’. Why should ‘kami’ be waiting for me. I don't feel like I have any business with that woman.
“What's Pa ?” my face is not friendly. I guess – can feel something between the two of them.
“Not important,” Papa wants to introduce his girlfriend and say not important ? “Papa wants to introduce you to Papa's friend,” and I see the woman smiling at me. Should I smile too ? To maintain Papa's feelings and meet all ethical standards of manners for example ?
“Papa hope you can get to know him better,” Papa join – jointan smile completely does not heed my feelings.
“Halo May. Call me Aunt Nina,”
“Tante Nina Papa May office friend. We've known each other for a long time. In fact, we leave the same – the same time to Jakarta yesterday,” as if – will Papa repeat his beautiful memory when on duty. It turns out that in addition to chasing the news, Papa is also dating.
“Your father very often told me about you May,” I was silent, do not have the word – words.
“Mas, will be eight o'clock. I have to go home now. Good night May ..” with a smile she went to drive Papa to the big road. He called Papa Mas. Not with the standard tone .. but more familiar. I sat in the living room with a face and a hot feeling.
“In fact we hope you come home early so that Nina has more time to chat with you,” Papa threw his body beside me.
“You are good – is fine today May ?” There are no – words coming out of my mouth and it looks like Papa can read my mind.
“Tell Papa, what do you think of Nina ?” he said while looking at my face.
“Papa dating with her ?”
“You could say so ..”
“Why Papa just introduced it now ?”
“Because Papa must be sure first with the feelings of dear Papa. You know khan ... it is not easy for a person of Papa's age to be right – sure of something. Moreover, Papa must also think about your feelings May. Papa does not want the decision that Papa made impressed play – main ..”
“So, May was born first because of the decision to play – main that Papa made, so ?” I said annoyed to Papa. Papa is the kind of self-sufficient person who doesn't need anyone to cook and make coffee. Now why should Papa have a girlfriend ?
“Your heart is not good May. Papa guess now is not a good time to talk ..”
“Why Papa .. Why should Papa have a girlfriend ?” I said strong girlfriend – strong. So Papa can understand that I don't like it. Papa looked at me as if – would be weighing something.
“You want Papa right – correctly answered him May ?”
“Of course Papa. I won't ask if I'm not sure ..” my face feels hot.
“And Papa regrets doing that ? Why didn't May just drop her off at the orphanage at the time ? That way Papa will be a free man, thinking to himself Papa.”
“Close your mouth Sun and go to your room. We'll talk. But not now .. after your mood is good. Papa doesn't know what happened to you today. You better rest ..”
“Papa ... Our life during this good – is fine. We're both happy. May is happy even though May doesn't have a mother. And now Papa wants to bring a stranger into this house,” I catch my breath and swallow.
“Papa, receiving Grandma is not an easy thing for May. But, at least Grandma had a blood relationship with May. But Aunt Nina Papa .. she is not who – ready May !”
“May .. as you get older, you will understand what Papa is feeling. Papa needs someone to share his life and feelings ..” Papa's tone of voice loosens, but his face still remains wrinkled – wrinkle.
“Then Papa thought this May what ?”
“Very different May. There's a lot you'll never share with Papa. Just as there are so many things that Papa cannot share with you,” Papa sits folding his hands on his chest. Look out the window.
I started crying. My days are going very badly. First with Aaron. Now with Papa. I can't take one bad thing once a day, maybe if I accept this tomorrow, my feelings won't be this big.
“Now May, we rarely meet. You are no longer a little girl. You are now sixteen years old. You will be busy with – activities of your own until finally you will not be in this house anymore. Papa also has many friends May, but they also have their own business. Papa needs someone who is right – is right next to Papa. That Papa and Papa will be busy for him. Kids and friends won't be able to do that May.”
If Papa was me, Papa would have cried. And I was still sitting next to Papa while trying to hold back my tears from coming out any more.
“May don't know Papa. May's day is not going the way May wanted it to be..”.
“Tell Papa dear ..”
“Can't Papa. Papa says there are many things we can't share with each other, right?” Papa did not answer. Taking a deep breath while still folding her hands on her chest and looking out. I also did the same.
“Papa, don't force May to accept Aunt Nina now. Everything is heavy for May..”.
“Papa knows May. Papa had actually expected to receive this kind of reaction from you. Papa won't force you now. But Papa wants you to promise May.at least you don't be so selfish thinking about yourself. Think of Papa too, dear. Give Papa a chance to enjoy time – personal time Papa...”.
“Papa won't love May again ?”
“How can it be ?”
I went to the bathroom and then to my room. There is no passion to touch the food that Papa has prepared at the dining table. I'd rather lock myself in my room all night thinking about everything I've been through all day. I never imagined having a mother before. Especially if it is a true person – is completely foreign to me. My cooking should be living at home with someone I don't know ? Sitting at the same dining table, pura – pura throws a smile and poses I am the happiest person in the whole world ?
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