The Sun Becomes a Star
Do you care about me May?
“Ehm ..” I have to fast – quickly make a reasonable excuse …. “Aaron tuh guy how well ..” how can I make excuses. Just met me a few times khan …?
“Actually, Aarion is a good guy. But well that, as you told Tri, she had a huge trauma losing both her parents. And all I know is that every anger has to be let go. For example, if we, the girls mean, there are those who if again sprained and eat until the stomach wants to explode. Aaron is also.”
“Tempramental so ?” sergeant Trisakti.
“You could say so. But actually he's a gentle guy really ..”
“Soft and saucy. Although I am not blind when I see him, but it feels like he has the talent – criminal talent deh May ..” Jell said to me really – really. Either he wants to remind or what …
“Yeah anyway ati – or aja May ..” somehow Trisakti only talk a little.
“But by the way – by the way .. this afternoon I will start the first tutoring with him. please only all good – fine ..”
“You're not afraid of being kissed again ?” Trisakti.
“Gak. I mean, I hope not. We talked a lot the other day. He said he did it all just so Kevin was confused and so he could let go of his anger. We talked to each other afterwards.”
We just kept talking to the girls until they came home and I had to go to Aaron's house. I realized that choosing comfortable clothes is not easy. Especially if you're going to meet someone who catches your attention. And as always, I gave up until I decided to be myself. Being someone else was harder than being myself. And so I chose to be a newscaster like Papa instead of being a model or a movie star.
That afternoon I wore mountain sandals and blue jeans that I had been wearing for – years. This is one of the advantages of maintaining weight. You will not buy clothes too often. Not to forget I wear my knitted sweater which model is overstretched, making my body seem taller and thinner. I put my gun sandals on and I'm leaving. Carrying a bag hanging on my shoulder. Contains books – books I used, cassettes and CDs. The sky started to dark because the clock was already past the number five. I hope it doesn't rain today.
“You're ready Aaron ?” I asked like a child.
“Don't treat me like a bego !” maybe Aaron is sensitive today.
“OK. Ii'm sorry. You want us to learn what ?”
“What you have. You're my teacher May. You decide.”
“Good.” I have to be patient. I don't know what happened to Aaron today. He's changing so quickly. Maybe his mood is not good.
“I have a movie, we can see the same – ..” I put a CD on the player. CD for learning English.
“You want me to watch this moving doll – doll ? You think I'm little May ?” I don't understand him at all today. “You have nothing else left ..”
“Good. We'll see what I have.” I'm getting angry with him.
“I have a book here. We can same – same read it. How ?”
“There are more interesting ? Item – your goods are more suitable you give to children – children than you give me ..”
I took a deep breath.
“OK Aaron. You are angry today. I think this is not the time to learn.” I don't want to continue today because I can – I can explode and become unprofessional. I cleaned up all my stuff and I walked away. If only he had said rudely to me once more, I would not have been able to hold myself back anymore …
“True – is really useless ..” he said slowly. It was barely audible so I needed to convince myself again to hear it.
“Sorry Aaron. Did you say just now ?”
“Your ear disease hasn't healed yet. I repeat once again May, you are right – absolutely useless !” His face was red while looking into my eyes very sharp. If I hadn't been offended, I would have been scared. But the thing is, I'm not someone who can be stepped on – step by step.
“Better you get out of here May. You just messed up my life.”
“What do you mean. You're the one who ruined my life. I don't know you at all. Why should I be hard – hard to think of you ?” my question didn't need an answer because I thought about Aaron without him asking.
“Just leave May ..” the sentence that came out of her mouth is getting smoother.
“You why the hell Aaron ?” I'm tanya.
“Just go ..” he tried to lift something that was in his grasp with trembling hands. “Please you go. I don't want you to see me like this ..fast !” the last word he said louder.
“You understand no May ?! Go and close the door !?”
I don't want to be brave by staying there. But I don't want to leave him. I wonder what exactly happened to him. I'm afraid that my guess is right.
“What do you hold Aaron ?” I went forward approaching him and he walked backwards “Why don't you just go?”
“You're right – really hurt Aaron. You need help ..”
“Don't be a whiz May,” her voice vibrates, like holding something in her stomach, “What do you want ? Why don't you just go …. Is it too difficult to do that .. please ..”
“Not before you show me what you hold Aaron ..” and I see him grasping getting stronger. But I guess, with her circumstances like that, I can force her. Hopefully …
“Aaron ... please show me ...” I said more gently. My heart is pounding, but I try to regulate every breath that comes in and out of my nose …. I don't know …. It is no longer important to determine my breath out through the nose or mouth …
“Aaron ... please ...” Boost.
“Don't May,” her face clear. The clearest face I've ever seen in person, not from TV, in my life. I managed to touch his hand, my cleavage tried to open his – fingers while I heard him continuously saying, “Don't May ..”
And I'm not surprised anymore when I get some yellow tablets, which I don't know for sure, but at least I can guess what it is.
“Aaron, maybe you should talk to Kevin about this…. Or let me do the talking ..” He shook his head still with a pale face and trembling body.
“The load will increase May ..”
“Then you will keep making the load keep increasing this way ..”
“She will be engaged next month May…. I don't want him to know ..”
And I was crying too. “At least do this for me,” I clasped his hand grasping the yellow pill –.
“You care about me May ?” i'm nodding. “Don't let me die then ..don't let me suffer May. Please May ..” I relax my hand slowly as if I am not willing. I can't think of anything else but that. Fast – fast he put in his mouth and I see he feels calmer. I wasn't. Even now, I am more afraid than ever, and not calm ….
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