The Sun Becomes a Star

Debates

The next Wednesday I was home again. Last night Papa came straight to Grandma's house and took me home. I felt the most comfortable place in the world. Comfortable because I can sleep without worrying if – if there is a stray missile to my room. Comfortable because I also don't have to worry about having to sleep flat on the ground due to the whirring of bullets over my head. Comfortable because I have a Papa who loves me and is comfortable because we have a very comfortable home.

But I imagined. In the midst of my comfort, in the other hemisphere, in a land separated by a vast sea, there is a girl of my age who can not calmly learn because of the explosion around her. Or children – boys who can not freely cycle there – to come because around them many embedded mines are still active. Also millions of – million other teenagers of my age who do not feel the comfort I feel. Often if it is so, I will feel useless – just have a smartphone.

Toh .. when I was laughing – ketiwi when called Jell for example, in other parts of the world there are many women who cry and hungry. What's the point of me having the latest HP models even if it turns out around me poranda – poranda. – People are busy thinking about life and affection rather than thinking about what clothes Kim Kadarshian will wear..

“Ga too much effort – no deh May. Life you should enjoy. After all ... what can you do with all your excessive guilt ?” sergeant Jell when I talk about this. Jell is right. With my guilt I could do absolutely nothing.

“Continue, I have to do dong ?”

“Think of yourself. Do you want to live – lunta because you constantly think of others ? No khan….?! By beginning to think of yourself the Sun, you will reduce one person suffering on this earth ...” Jell's words so smoothly pierced my heart. But I know that speech is true.

“Maybe you watch too much Discovery Channel deh May ..” Trisakti said. “You should see more local impressions,”.

“Ih but local show well it's – that's it. I once watched a soap opera while eating at the restaurant padang. Cook people fall off the bike made really pretty. Keep on staging from all kinds of angles. Not very. Doesn't make sense. Besides I watch the discovery channel khan want all of you to learn English”

“What then do you understand more about another country than your own?” True – really deserves Trisakti to be Miss Universe. If only he were fifteen centi meters higher ….

“Yah is not Tri ..”

“How is it ? You better know African elephants are almost extinct or two-horned rhinos in Rwanda who live only a few tails without wanting to understand how the fate of Way Kambas for example ..” Trisakti looking at me sharply. He's more idealistic than I am. And frankly, I'm embarrassed.

“You can stop talking about rare animals and various kinds of suffering in this world, right ? Cooking wants to enjoy life is hard?” Jell said annoyed. We are currently in my house. Enjoy the most comfortable place in the world while accompanied by Imelda.

“Boro – boro you guys think of another country. Our country often gets bombs. Think of yourself. Will you guys be calm thinking about the future if the situation like this continues?”

Trisakti and I remained silent. Confused thinking about what to get out of our mouths each –. My mind drifted to Grandma's house. The living grandmother witnessed the war and its ferocity. Grandma who did look strong, once hung out with blood and faced the lack of medicine – drugs. Each – person strives for his own happiness. I am too. By saving to buy a mobile phone for example.

“You know not ? Because – because many people are too willing to think of others like you who do not have the job, many people fight. Just try it, if everyone wants to take care of himself better and not gatel take care of others …. Your safe and peaceful world will happen ...”

Again – again I don't know what to say in front of Jell. Jell turned out to be wiser than I thought. It's not wrong that we're friends with each other now.

“Sorry deh,” Trisakti opens his mouth. He is my best friend, but if the business of apologizing and I was asked first .. I think it was a little difficult even though it was worth trying …

“I asked for sorry Tri ..” because Trisakti has started first.

We fell silent again. Each – refused to open his mouth.

I blinked – rubbed my eyes trying to think of Aaron. “Ehm …. How is ya ? I think he has a crush on me ..”

Both of my friends straightened their eyes. “Come story ... story ..” we slept in my room with the angina fan on.

“He likes to confide – confide in me. Though I did not ask. That's a sign of a guy having a crush or is a girl who keGRan?”

“No doubt. He must have a crush,” Jell said.  

“But you have a crush on him not ?” Trisakti started to make her voice. As usual, his voice sounded gentle and wise.

“It looks like it did. You think, what does it mean that guys have started venting – venting personal problems to you guys continue to like WA night-night?”

“Awwwwwwwwww. She must have a crush on you.”

“Heart of heart. Don't be so sure yet. Remember how you felt when you first met Kevin May. It's different now ?”

“Sister Kevin you mean Jell?”

“Ho oh,” Jell nodded.

I weigh – hesitantly. First time hearing Brother Kevin's voice, I was right – completely blown away. His voice is heavy but impressed agile, energetic and have a prestige. So did the impression I received when I first met him. The more complete my reasons for having a crush on him. It is very different with Aaron. My first impression was very ordinary. Maybe Aaron is really charming too. But at that time, his charm was already covered by Kak Kevin's charm and his behavior was like garbage.

Moreover, my meeting with him the first time did not go well. I started to learn to be fascinated with him when he apologized. Maybe it's a bit unfair with Aaron because as if – will I use him as an impingement only. Not his brother, his sister be.

“Yah .. many the difference .. I like Aaron more because I have a reason ..” indeed the feeling of liking needs a reason. Like I love Papa. But for what reason ? I don't need a reason to love Papa. I love him because I love him, despite everything he's done to make me live well.

“Reason how do you mean ?” Trisakti does not understand. The cuisine of the Miss Universe candidate does not understand ? I also do not understand. Should be fast – quickly make excuses so as not to look stupid. Even with close friends, who wants to look stupid ?

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