The pura AMNESIA

TRAUMATISED

POV

When embarrassed half-dead like this, my brain can not be invited to think fast. There's only one way to escape...

I turned around, opened the lock, then got out and walked quickly to the room I slept in last night.

Arriving in the room, I looked at myself in the mirror. I'm beautiful, sexy, it's impossible Blue won't be tempted by me. Better, now that I'm sleeping, let the night flirt may start teasing Blue.

I lay down on the bed thinking about what action I will launch later that night until it does not feel if it has reached the dream.

Tok tok tok tok

"Cal.wake up. Callista, wake up."

Hearing Blue's voice and knocking on the door I hurried to get up. I saw the wall clock, it was 8 p.m. What, I slept for a long time, that feeling, about 2 pm.

"Cal...are you awake?"

"I, yes Blue, I'm awake." My heart from within. Immediately I tidied up the flower design negligee that I bought this morning. Then, straighten the hair and then come out.

Chequelek

I put on a smile as wide as possible for Blue. But strangely, he looked like he was holding back a laugh. Don't.don't tell me if something's wrong.

"A, what's wrong?" I'm starting to panic.

"Nothing's wrong." He answered while holding back laughter. If it's like this, I don't trust him. I went back into the room and reflected.

Oh.no. I closed my gaping mouth with my palm while staring at the reflection of my face in the mirror. Blue just laughed. My face looks like a clown. My eyes are black because of messy eyeliner and mascara. Fate, this is how if you wear cheap makeup. Besides, I didn't clean my face before I went to bed. In addition to no micelar water, I was also lazy to go to the bathroom.

After my face was clean, I went back out to see Blue.

"What do you want to eat first, take a shower?" Ask.

The aroma of freshly heated fish gulai really invites taste. Makes me want to do nothing but eat.

"What's the first thing?" I bid while holding my stomach to look like a starving man.

"Would you eat first?"

I immediately nodded quickly.

"We'll eat first."

We both headed to the kitchen. Arriving there, I saw Lisa was cool eating a fish placed on a plate in particular. Again, the cat was one step ahead of me. I'm still hungry, uh.he's good to eat.

Don't want a bad mood because of Lisa, I immediately pulled a chair and sat down. In front of me, it has rice plus fish gulai.

Suddenly came the idea to serve Blue. Yeah, right, I should be the wife who can impress Blue.

"I take it?" I said as I reached for the plate in front of Blue and wanted to fill it with rice complete with side dishes. But just as I was holding the rice barrel, she had already held my hand.

"No need to bother. Our marriage is just a formality. Just to give me some shade. So you don't have to serve me like a husband."

Instantly I was weak to hear it. Does this mean I have no hope? No, you can't give up before a war.

"I don't feel bothered at all." I continued to get him rice and side dishes and handed it to Blue.

"We have five months, so let me do what I can for five months." Continue while taking rice and side dishes for myself.

"Alright if that's what you want. Oh yeah, even if our marriage is just a formality, you don't have to worry, I'll still support you."

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I immediately choked on hearing he was going to support me. Blue immediately took the water and gave it to me.

"Ja, don't misunderstand me. Welfare I mean, only a living is born. So you don't have to worry about me doing anything."

Whaaat! only birth, only. Then the inner wiving?? Can I not protest? It's a shame not if I say I'm willing if he's willing to give an inner lust.

"Fuck, um...." Blue hesitated to speak. What the hell is he really talking about? Don't ask me if I'm willing to be inner or not? Come on Blue by the way.don't hesitate, I'm willing.

"Yes, by the way." I began to get impatient.

"Tomorrow at night, I have to go back to sea. You don't think I live alone?"

Glodak. So this is what he wants to talk about. Cyrene...

"Calista that way. Be brave." I said sok an.

"Good then." He looks relieved.

"Emang nyari fish should be night huh? can't it be morning or noon?" My toot.

"Weather is good. At times like this, finding midnight fish will be more of a catch."

"Oh.." Suddenly an idea came to his head.

"Can I come?" My toot.

Blue frowned while looking at me.

"Can't you?"

"No, it's not that problem."

"Then?"

"Aren't you traumatized by the sea?"

Trauma, is that possible? I feel like I'm normal. But if you remember that, it was horrible.

"What if tomorrow morning I take you to the beach. I hope you are not traumatized by the sea. You see, Gani until now did not dare to swim in the sea because he once drowned when he was a child."

I'm nodding. This time it feels normal, hopefully I really did not experience trauma.

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This morning, Blue took me to the beach. It was very close to the Blue House. During the night, the sound of the waves was heard until the house.

Beautiful view of the sunrise seen from above. Yes, we are still quite far from the beach.

Honey I'm not holding a camera or a cell phone, so I can't take a selfie to be displayed on social media. So you're with a flat object called a smart phone. I guess, when can I hold it again?

"Are you okay?" Blue asked who was standing next to me.

"Yes, I'm fine." I answered while continuing to watch the sun move up.

"In that case, we go ahead yuk."

I nodded then walked in tandem with Blue approaching the beach.

But when my bare feet touched the wet sand, I started to tremble a little. What is this feeling? The beach is the place I like the most, there's no way I'm afraid of the beach.

"Cal, are you okay?" Blue looks worried.

I nodded despite a little fear.

Blue suddenly clasped my fingers. At that moment, the fear slowly disappeared. After I was no longer trembling, Blue took me forward.

But when my foot was hit by the sweep of the waves, that terrifying shadow came back. The shadow of when I was about to die from drowning. My legs felt limp, I squeezed Blue's hands very firmly while closing my eyes. I had a tremor, and just then, Blue grabbed my shoulder and took me in her arms.

"I'm afraid of Blue, I'm afraid." My great-grandson with a trembling voice and eyes that remained closed.

"There's nothing what Cal. Everything's fine. You're safe, you're safe."

I suddenly felt tight. I kind of went back to that event. My body feels weaker. I had trouble breathing, his body was empty. And when I was about to fall, Blue swiftly lifted my body and carried me up and away from the shore.

"Cal, are you okay?" Blue asked after lowering my body on a wooden bench that was quite far from the beach. "Your face is pale Cal."

"What's wrong?" Ask someone. I recognize that voice. Safa, why is he here?

"Safa, it's lucky you're here. Can you take care of Calista for a second, I'll find her a drink?" Ask Blue.

"of course. Go, let me take care of him." Answer Safa gently. Cih, it's completely different from the way he spoke to me yesterday.

After Blue left, Safa grinned at me.

"So you're afraid of the sea?" The question is still with a grin that never goes away. How'd he know? Don't don't let him look at me and Blue from now on.

"Be aware of miss amnesia. You are not worthy of Blue. Blue is a fisherman whose daily life is always at sea. He needs a wife who can support him, not a weak wife who will tremble when her feet are swept away by the waves."