The pura AMNESIA

CALCULATED AMNESIA

Alya. Ayu-faced girl, beautiful and smart. Unfortunately, even though Alya reached the age of 31 years, the soul mate seemed reluctant to meet him.

What's wrong with Alya? Everyone is happy to whisper and question. Many say Alya is a spinster and she is exposed to witchcraft, because several times in a relationship, always fails.

Once three times, he was predicted to get married, but again everything never happened, everything again hurt Alya and the family of the future husband suddenly broke ties for various reasons.

Be ill. Alya returned to being single and her family was tired, the girl was traumatized. Thousands of attempts have been made, ranging from going to the paranormal to the ruqyah. Honey, nothing's coming to fruition.

Until now, Alya began to realize that his loneliness caused problems for many people. His two sisters who grew up and entered the age of maturity to marry felt hindered by his virginity.

Restless and restless. That is what Alya felt. In fact, the level of education and wealth Alya has everything.

Physically speaking? She's beautiful and perfect.

Financially? Alya is a successful career woman with a printing business that she is currently in.

Honey, the only one she doesn't have is a husband.

It turns out that her successful career could not close all eyes or mouths in order to stop questioning about Alya's marriage. Until Alya chose to silence and refit his own heart.

Until one day, because I was tired. The girl decided to pour out her heart that was upset because she never met the tether of heart.

He surrendered to God and submitted his marriage proposal to a friend who had many matchmakers. Alya really explained his condition seriously, so that he would like to find a mate and understand the condition of Alya.

"Mbak Pit, Alya was confused about how, repeatedly Alya was in a relationship, the man left for reasons that Alya did not understand. Even though Mom is no longer young while my sister is getting married, she insists on not stepping over Alya, how should I, huh Ma'am?" alya asked with tears. He remembered Fira and Anti, both of whom had already chosen lovers and were willing to propose to them if Alya was married.

Pipit who served as an intermediary sighed mafhum. The middle-aged woman in the dark blue veil simply stroked Alya's pretty face with a sense of motherhood. As a person who was asked for advice, he certainly felt sorry for Alya, especially Alya had just emigrated and deepened religious knowledge.

"Yes, Alya do not give in to the mercy of Allah, do you? I used to be in Alya's position. I also have a hard time getting a soul mate until ...." Pipit paused his remark, "I'm saving my past, Yes, you might as well have to do it," continued Pipit to the point.

The woman no longer hesitated to give her advice, because she already considered Alya like her own sister, so she thought there was nothing to cover from Alya.

"What's Pipit Ma'am mean?" The girl blinked and her eyes began to get interested. He felt that this might be the answer to all his questions.

Pipit looked around the mosque as if to confirm something, then he asked Alya to come closer to him. The girl was hesitant at first, but no doubt she was advancing her body. Fortunately, only the two of them were sitting on the terrace of the mosque that evening.

"Well, remember if there was a man or a friend you hurt? Or do you remember any sins that you have not yet known?" whispered Pipit very carefully. Of course he does not want to be a judge for his own best friend, no matter how they are ordinary humans who are often alpha.

"sin? Many of them must be Ma'am, but which one is ...?" alya muttered as if talking to himself.

"Well, if you don't know yet, come back here tomorrow, try writing down 100 lists of your sins and lists of people you've hurt" Pinta Pipit said.

"And one more thing, I say gini, because I was also given this advice as my master saw, without realizing our sin is the barrier of soul and sustenance that comes. So, Alya got it, didn't he mean Ma'am?" pipit said again before the girl thought anything.

Alya wiped her tears, then nodded in understanding.

"Good Ma'am, God willing. Thank you Ma'am for the advice," Alya replied a little relieved.

(***)

After his meeting with Pipit, Alya was really upset, the shadow over sin so the barrier had filled the chest cavity causing a sense of unease. Therefore, after work, Alya who usually went to the dinner table, that night did something different.

With a dazed face Alya went straight into his room, shutting himself up. Several times her mother and sisters called for dinner, Alya refused subtly. He chose to work with a laptop.

It did not feel nearly two hours he was lost in his thoughts and typing which contained a list of his mistakes from sins in parents to friends.

The outcome? He had only 95 sins, while his brain felt very dead. Five more, but his mind seemed tired of playing memory files that felt jostling to make mumets.

Aghs. He scratched his heavy head. The time he had to settle this was only tonight, he should have remembered anything because humans were the wrong place.

Moreover, should his sin be more than 100, seegois that himself to forget to record self-impact? However, admittedly or not, it is not that easy to remember, maybe that's why humans need others as alternative reminders.

In the midst of her despair, Alya decided to look at the ceiling and circulate the gaze to remember but suddenly her gaze stopped at one point. The look of the dimpled girl was attracted to a box she had never opened before.

The box has been on the top of the closet since she was Junior High. That means it's been eleven years. How could he forget there was a box?

As if there were a magnet and a whisper pulling her to pick up the dusty box, the round-eyed girl stepped slowly closer to the closet. Then, his hand flailed upward until the box shifted and fell.

Rushing Alya crouched down and took the box wrapped in the gift. His hand actively opened the gift with the onslaught of chest raging, then how shocked he was after all the boxes were opened.

Alya finds an orange handkerchief and a letter that says 'message to Alya'.

"Alya, you did reject me this afternoon but just look you'll be my wife." (By Abyan)

Shaking, Alya's body after reading the message. He remembered Alya had rejected Abyan and laughed at Abyan who was stuttering and fat. As the head cheerleaders, Alya teenagers think it would be humiliated to date a cute guy and not really like Abyan.

Agh, is this the answer? Is this one of his soul mate barriers? Is there no word for karma in this world? Or does it exist? Where should he look for Abyan? Because since rejected Abyan like lost without a trace.

The girl is getting a bad feeling now. I don't know what he should do.

(***)

A few days after Alya opened the box of Abyan's past, the girl busied herself to consult a friend and Pipit about the unpleasant premonition that had plagued her. Many suggest, if Alya should apologize but many also say not to pester him. 

How is it the past, because of that he became difficult to get married? Impossible.  As they say.

At first Alya felt, it could be true that it was indeed impossible and just his feelings alone, where might his past sins on Abyan keep his soul mate blocked? Mustahal bin Impossible.

Last night, the girl had a bad dream. He saw the fat-bodied Abyan looking at him sadly, as if to charge something Alya took. Though Alya did not feel taking anything, the peak of the girl was awakened with a body full of sweat and a heart that throbbed pain as if to feel what Abyan felt during Junior High.

Based on the incident, Alya immediately decided to contact some of his Junior High School friends to find Abyan's whereabouts. Perhaps by apologizing, the nightmare will be broken and his soul mate will come soon. Alya's hope, on the verge of despair because Fira asked her to get married before the middle of this year. 

Isn't there no harm in apologizing? Moreover, accidentally it could be that we have made mistakes that hurt humans whether consciously or not. So thought Alya.

After almost seven days he searched because the matter of Abyan seemed to disappear, Alya finally found a bright spot. The veiled girl got word that Abyan now works in one of the multinational offices in her city. 

Alhamdullilah after long leaving the city of Bandung finally Abyan returned and immediately became an important person. At least that's what Hamdan, Abyan's close friend, said.

Without lingering Alya also cancel the meeting schedule at the printing press and go directly to the office in question.

"Sir, sorry is it true that there is an Abyan here? Uh, I mean Mr Abyan?" alya asked with a face made as usual as possible. Though his heart, already felt unsettled because suddenly his heart was beating very fast. 

The receptionist looked at Alya from head to toe, as if looking around and judging Alya's appearance. The girl of course felt iris, especially it seemed that the Mama looked younger.

"Have you made an appointment?" ask the receptionist in a jutek tone. 

"Yet. But, please tell me Alya his friend when Junior High, I only need to see him now and will not be long," replied Alya. He knows, he is not someone worth remembering but hoping in a desperate condition there is no harm. 

The narrow-eyed girl paused for a moment, then her hand held the phone handle like contacting someone. Alya waited anxiously in front of the Ma'am, until finally the receptionist stopped talking and refocused on Alya. 

"Sir Abyan just left, maybe Mbak bis-"

"So you looking for me Mel?" breaking off a bass voice that seemed to be coming from behind Alya. 

Hearing that, Alya's body suddenly stiffened, she twisted her legs slowly between sure and unsure. 

"Sir Abyan, afternoon sir? Sorry, sir, this is someone looking for Mr. Abyan, his name ...," Mbak said as he recalled. Meanwhile, the name-owning girl was still fascinated. 

Yes, Alya did not seem to expect that the once fat and black-faced Abyan was now turning 180 degrees, the man before him was very handsome and athletic. The veiled girl was not sure, if in front of her was the same man she had despised. 

"I-I'm Alya, Byan, do you remember me? We're Junior High's friends, Byan ...," stuttered the girl spoke. Alya rushes to tidy up her clothes and hijab, feeling too messy to meet Abyan whose appearance is much more parente than her expectations. 

Iris widened Abyan's eyes as if surprised to see Alya but before long his eyes returned cold. For a long time indeed they did not meet, Alya also understood if Abyan did not immediately recognize him, as well as Alya, if only Abyan's voice did not interrupt first could be he would miss it.  

The two of them stared in silence until Abyan revealed his faint smile, more likely to be cynical. That was what Alya caught in their first meeting after such a long time. 

"Sorry, I don't know you. If you have any need, you can contact my scheduler, excuse me!" abyan said, abandoning all hope of Alya. The man was like no matter how Alya felt, he turned his back to Alya. 

"I'm Alya Farhana, Byan. Do you remember the box you gave me? I'm still holding it, but I forgot to bring it, how about tomorrow if I'm-"

"That's it, maybe you got the wrong guy!" 

"Who are people? No way! I know you Byan, I'm sorry, I'm here to say that" Alya said. 

She insists the man in front of her is the man she was looking for, as it is clear their full name is the same and Alya still knows the nose bangir Abyan who has a scar on the end. The injuries caused by Alya used to be unintentional. If the man is pretending to be amnesiac. 

"Nothing to forgive, go! Because I don't know you, '" Abyan replied coldly.  

Alya was on the spot, when Abyan just passed by leaving Alya without her having time to talk further. 

He asked himself. Is this the end of his journey? What if the man doesn't forgive him? Because he apologized to everyone, except Abyan. 

However, before the apology was said, ill, Abyan had already closed it. 

The girl shrank the tears that flowed down her cheeks, not expecting that her apology to the man would be so difficult even she had sudden amnesia. Alya decided to turn her feet towards the exit. 

Go home. 

(***)

Abyan entered his car in annoyance. He did not expect, after years of struggle to forget. Alya, the girl who almost made her life dying had to come back. 

He hates it but it still exists. A slow taste made Abyan want to break off her engagement and chase Alya. Honey, she's late because Abyan's been pretending to be amnesiac.