The Love Competition

75 . I am not myself .

The crowing sound of the rooster is earthy sahutan makes Lilis awake from the sound . with a giant step he went to the bathroom, clean himself and take ablution water . He came out of the bathroom with a fresh face that morning .

After the morning prayers, he began his morning activities by doing a morning run, although the cold atmosphere still enveloped nature in the early morning , he eagerly went out of the house wearing a jacket and sports pants.The activity he used to do with Dila and Eyang three times a week , but since Eyang died and Dila left he just ran a small run around the House, somehow today he really wanted to run out .

the fog is still very thick, the atmosphere is also still dim because the sun is still embarrassed to show his face in the eastern horizon . Lilis ran a small run while occasionally inhaling the morning air inside. she continued to run until she arrived at a crossroads & inexplicably chose the path that led to the rice fields .

Stunned Lilis stared at the area of rice fields that were wildly dry and filled with green grass spread out near a small, clear-flowing river ,

" why am I here ? " lilis murmured as her eyes caught two wooden buildings several tens of meters away from where she was standing. She wanted to immediately turn her steps, but the body was not in line with the heart . his feet were walking towards the building .

Lilis feet were glued On the spot when she saw the figure of Anto lying on top of the bamboo Dipan in the corner of the cottage yard .with a slow step she approached the figure curled up on it .

the figure looked so calm and peaceful, curled up comfortably like he was asleep on a soft mattress . The cold of the morning as if not being a bully sleep . lilis can only be stunned to see a face that he can enjoy for the first time without fear of being discovered .

His eyebrows are thick and neat, his nose is pointed, and his lips are red even though he is a man, eyes that are usually as sharp as the eyes of the Eagle is now being closed tightly , his thick eyelashes also look pliable for the size of a man's lashes, ach .

" Hem....." sound*******the owner of the face made Lilis surprised .

" mas ...mas Anto...? " call the slow lilis, but the ones called seem undisturbed .

" Well...Oh..!!! " Lilis cried out in surprise when Anto suddenly grabbed her hand, making a sudden gesture until she was under the man's piercing, slamming hard on the ground .

" Ah.. sorry "Anto said in a brick after the two looked at each other in shock . The man immediately rose from above the body of Lilis who was still shocked .

" are you okay ?" anto asked worriedly while extending his sturdy hand .

while grimacing with the pain Lilis grabbed his hand, his body felt a pain slammed hard, profit to the ground, if to the asphalt of course his bones had been broken .

" I'm sorry .." said Anto while staring at Lilis who seemed to be holding back pain .

" Mas like soldiers can attack suddenly while sleeping" said Lilis while annoyed .

Anto just laughed lightly , ach.the laughter instantly irritated the lilis heart melted away to disappear somewhere .

" why sleep outside ? " Tanya Lilis after the two sat side by side on the grass that was still wet by the morning dew .

" it looks like I overslept "Anto replied after rubbing her face with both palms .

" what morning is here ? " ask Anto wonder .

" ah.anu happened to want to run in the morning while wanting to see the stables " replied Lilis while wailing .

" oh...please see look....I want to go to the bathroom, you really are okay ? " ask Anto to make sure .

Lilis simply shook her head in embarrassment, while enduring the grin on her waist .

" i live first yes "Anto replied as she stepped into the cottage .

" auw...." Lilis muttered softly while holding her waist after Anto's figure disappeared behind the cottage door .

the cottage was in the form of a waist-high stage building where Anto lived prepared by Dila .

the girl stood up slowly, trying to relax the muscles that suddenly felt all the pain .the girl stepped slowly approaching the cage that had been completed in the wake which was approximately twenty meters from its place .

Lilis was amazed by the design of the Cage which was very similar to the photo of the stables that Dila asked for . according to Dila the stables were in lembang , when he was a child he often went there with his Eyang .the stables belonged to a friend of Eyang who worked as a dairy farmer and had several horses .

Lilis gazed into the courtyard of the cottage, where she saw Anto coming out of the cottage while carrying two cups that were reflecting smoke indicating hot water .she saw Anto brandishing a tall cup towards her .

' Sorry Don't have coffee "Say anto while handing over a cup of tea that is still puffing smoke . Both are now sitting side by side on a bamboo dipan in the corner of the cottage yard .

" it's okay mas. thank you " replied Lilis with a smile .

the sun has been shining brightly, driving away the fog that enveloped the village since last night .the warm light makes the atmosphere so peaceful .

" The hut is nice, and the hut looks beautiful "Lilis said softly .

" the taste of the owner is very unique and beautiful "Anto answered casually .

" frankly I immediately fell in love as soon as I saw the picture of him from mang kardi " continued Anto after sipping a few sips of tea from his glass .

" means ? " ask Lilis wonder .

" falling in love with the building model sent by the Eneng "answer Anto Briefly .

" Yes ..., Dila's taste seems to be almost the same as Anto's mas" replied Lilis while blowing her drink .

" neng Dila what's that guy like ? " ask Anto arrived .

" beautiful, and very adventurous" replied Lilis Enthusiastic .

" Hmm...." Anto nodded his head .

" maybe next week will go home , you can get acquainted with "lilis continue her story about Dila while occasionally staring at Anto who still looks handsome despite just waking up .

The two were silent to each other for a long time , then Lilis immediately pamiit And left that place as the day got more and more noon . The girl was running around small down the path .

Lilis swore in her heart, how could she come to a man in the morning blind like this, Ach .

his wide and fast steps made him arrive faster than norm time, and he arrived home half an hour later

Mang Karman who was sitting on the back porch while enjoying a cup of coffee stared at Lilis who was out of breath while walking gontai .

" Tumben ran out lis "he said unable to hide his sense of hers .

" Again just want to " replied Lilis as she stepped into the kitchen .

" Mak Ros where's mang ? " Tanya Lilis while pouring a glass of water from the water dispenser in the kitchen .

" So he said he wanted to find salted fish to the stall, oh yes.today I want to go to Bandung, maybe going home tomorrow , you have a deposit for neng Dila..? " Task mang Karman .

" Don't you want some business ? " Answer Dila half yelled from inside the kitchen .

" That's his business in Bandung "mang Karman chuckles .

" Why go there ? " Tanya Lilis while standing at the door .

" There are new rice buyers, this time the quota is more " replied mang Karman with a happy face .

Lilis walked leisurely and sat down next to the mang Karman while holding a glass filled with drinking water .

" Lis kangen same mother..." He said slowly, suddenly his face was sad.

Actually that's not the reason to feel sad, but somehow since his meeting with Anto this morning he felt lonely all the way home .

" Want to come with mamang to Bandung ? " Task mang Karman .

" No Ach mang .

" Lis.mamang heard you were close to the new boy..Saha ....? Si Anto The Javanese ? " Tanya mang Karman arrived .

" Where else is that ?" Lilis breathed .

" Yes..birds news....., Really ? " This time Mang Karman's face is serious .

" Do not know mang.., I think he is a good person " replied Lilis while bowed .

" Well, he has not been in our village for a month, he must first investigate his family . When did you first talk to him ...., you want to enter the lion's den again ? " Say mang Karman while looking at him .

" Lilis was sure he was a good man..." Reply to Lilis as she passes .

" Okay... actually what the hell kind of boy..everyone on the smitten "sis mang Karman while inhaling his coffee .

Lilis simply fell silent as she walked towards her room . I don't know.his eyes are so attached to the figure he just met several times, although he himself felt the man did not seem interested in him .

But because of that, he was amazed . So far many have been attracted to him . Lilis is a young widow with a well-established life, especially now she is a confidant of Dila . Of course being her husband would make one have a better life .

But Anto's usual attitude towards him, makes him believe Anto is a figure who is not interested in taking advantage of his position and his current state .

Lilis always remembered Saka's eyed message while still alive "look for the man who can protect you . Respect and love you, and most importantly the person who is not after something you have . Do not want to be looked down on.., the status of a widow sometimes makes someone think you are an easy person to get " .the man whom he had already considered his own real Eye was always a figure who judged the people who approached him .

Ach... had the eyang still been there, he would not have felt the loss of life Backrest . Being a young widow, although everyone always smiled and bowed his face to her he realized, the way of mind of some people still consider a widow .

Lilis closed the meeting room door , then immediately cleaned herself into the bathroom . Pain in his hips made him remember the event earlier when he fell and was crushed Anto athletic body . his face was blushing imagining how the body was so attached to his body .

Lilis slapped her own face thinking about vulgar things . He immediately finished his activities, then went out of the bathroom with a body that felt fresher . Immediately get ready to start today with a new spirit .

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Anto was stunned while looking at the clear flowing river water before him . His mind recalled the events just now when he almost slammed Lilis, his reflexes made him seem to return to an incident, a fight .

Is he really a person who lives in violence ? . Is he really a fugitive ? The question filled his head again .

The man grabbed his pants pocket , paying attention to the heart-shaped pendant that since last night always attached to his body . Slowly Anto re-opened the pendant , looking at the photos of the two women inside . Perhaps the woman in the photo could make him unravel the fog of mystery in his life .

Slowly Anto got up from her seat, stepped footily towards the hut . Moments later he has come back out wearing shabby jeans and loose t-shirts.Today the factory is on holiday and the estate is also no activity , he chose to go help om Wira who would harvest Nila fish in his pond .

When he arrived at the pool near his house, Om Wira with his wife was enjoying breakfast by the pool along with Cecep . Mrs Ratih, wife om Wira immediately take a plate for her ,. They enjoy a simple breakfast together before harvesting fish .

Finished breakfast they began to dry the water that the pool only measures 3x2 meters . After the water began to recede and only as high as the calf saw fish begin to swim to and fro among the mud at the bottom of the pond . Cecep immediately went into the pond and started catching fish with a shovel .

They laughed together to see the behavior of the teenage boy . Anto went into the pond and began to harvest large fish, while Om Wira and Bu Ratih became the gatherers of their crops and put them in a large bucket containing water . they enjoy the activity while joking and laughing together .

" To..had it been exhausted "excited wife om Wira while smiling to see the appearance of two men of different ages in a pool full of mud .

" Say keneh Wak.( There is still Auntie ) "excited Cecep with spirit .

" Heehs ..Keun bae' (yes in the harvest of the heula' (yes let it not need to be harvested) " replied Mrs Ratih .

" Already Cep.ayo ride "take Anto while going up to the edge of the pool, but because of not heart he just slipped mud and slipped into the pool .

" He.he.ha.ha..." Cecep laughed as he pointed towards Anto whose body was now filled with mud .

" Strade....!!" Umbat Anto while rising from the fall and walking towards the fountain located not far from there .

Om Wira just smiled while relaxing on the edge of the pool to see the incident .

The man was about forty-five years old, smoking a cigarette while looking at Cecep who was still playing in the pool .

" Cep.., quick up..! " This time Mrs Ratih shouted in a loud voice .

the woman was cleaning some fish not far from the shower . Cecep who still feels at home playing water in the pool .

" Yes Wak..." Answer Cecep and immediately climb out of the pool

Anto took off his wet clothes, the young man was bare-chested and only wore his wet jeans after cleaning himself in the shower . Anto sat on a wooden piece made by a chair near om Wira .

Om Wira stared at Anto's body which contained many scars, among them the scar was on the waist .

" That was yesterday's accident ? " Tanya om Wira while pointing at the scar on Anto's Stomach .

" Yes, yes, um..." Anto answered with a smile, he poured a glass of sweet tea prepared by Ms. Wira .

" Ma.give me my clothes to replace Anto.." cried om Wira to the wife .

The wife just smiled and stepped towards the house a few meters from the pond while carrying the fish she had cleaned .

" Something is different from your body.?? , but what is it..." Om Wira muttered while watching Anto's body .

" What the hell is om..." Murmured Anto who felt uneasy .

" Cigarettes..." Om Wira thrust a pack of cigarettes at him, but the man shook his head briefly .

" Have you really quit smoking ? " Om Wira reassuring .

Anto nodded for sure, he looked at the face of om Wira who looked like he was thinking hard .

" Why om...? " Ask again .

" There's something strange about your body.but what is it...." Mumbled while exhaling cigarette smoke slowly .

" Pa here is his shirt" said the wife who arrived to appear .

Om Wira received the shirt and handed it to Anto , while Mrs Ratih re-entered the house through the back door and was busy in the kitchen .

" Wear this , want to show off your nice body" he said while throwing the shirt at Anto .

" Not in use is also okay To.., Let aunt can wash her eyes" said Bu Wira while laughing from inside the kitchen .

" But Anto's body is full of all signs.yes, there are innate born ? " Mum Wira asked , this time in tandem with a clamorous voice that collided with the sign that Bu Ratih was making spices .

"Oh....!!! , Yes birthmark..I remember you have a birthmark on your left shoulder, why is it not there now ? " Can it be eliminated ? " Tanya om Wira while looking at the confused face of Anto .

" What is my birthmark..? " Task Anto while frowning .

" Here in childhood there was black black, quite large almost this wide..," om Wira made a circle in her palm .

Deg! , Anto was stunned to hear the words of om Wira .

" you or who yes.at that time we bathe in the river rame rame..." Mumam om Wira .

Anto just fell silent while wearing clothes owned by om Wira . He was silent and kept thinking in his heart .

" Could it be.he self is not his now, that is why his heart seems to be unable to accept all the reality that people say about his past "he murmured inwardly .

" Om sure...? " Anto asked seriously .

" It seems..but I'm not sure.... Why ? " Task me Wira .

" If your birthmark must know, right..? " Many .

" Yes, you asked your father ...." Answer the Wira.

" It's lunch let's eat first " shouted Mrs Ratih from the kitchen terrace . The woman was busy going in and out & serving her creations .

" I'm still full of Wak..." Answer Cecep who is standing on the edge of a bucket containing fish crops .

" Yes it's up to you, go home and take a shower, your body smells fishy " replied Mrs Ratih .

" Take fish for mamas at home" he continued, handing plastic bags to the teenager .

" Yes Wak. thanks "the boy replied while taking some fish from the bucket .

" I picked up this soon Wak., thank you "he said as he passed by carrying a plastic bag of fish .

" wait a minute.this is for lunch "Mum Ratih reappeared from the kitchen with a box made of woven bamboo .

" what is Wak "ask Cecep .

" pepes fish" said Mrs Ratih as she handed the parcel to Cecep .

" thank you.., Cecep came home .." said Cecep as he ran to his house located not far from the house Om Wira .

The three of them stared at Cecep's departure with a smile .

" Yuk..We eat ,.." Invite om Wira while getting up from her relaxing seat .

Anto followed the invitation of Om Wira , but his mind kept thinking about the word om Wira .

" Is my identity fake? , Am I not myself ? " The question kept turning in his head .

" To... daydreaming ? " Task om Wira after they sit on the Bamboo cot on the kitchen terrace . Mrs Ratih has served food in that place .

" h. no.." answered Anto calmly.

" To..Is it true that gossip is circulating? , You are dating Lilis ? " Tanya Bu Ratih while presenting 2 fried fish on the couch .

" What news is that ? " Anto answered while frowning .

" It has been To.if it is indeed made it . Let the widow she is young, beautiful, continues to be well established . " More Train .

" Mama this .. why interfere in other people's affairs "om Wira looked at the wife .

" Rather than confused pa.., Anto always be the gossip material " replied Mrs Ratih .

" Wong he's here just wander.., In our village he must have had a lover ,. Aren't they To....? " Mr. Wira looked at Anto's face which was only silent from earlier .

" Ach..yes." Anto answered in his confusion .

" Oh..which lucky girl is that ? " Tanya Bu Ratih curious .

" Okay.mama has already.., let's eat the cold food hunt " Mr. Wira immediately ended their conversation .

Mrs Ratih just smiled at her husband's words, the middle-aged woman stepped inside the house .

" Beware To..., if you hear the problems you face do not get close to the family, they are military families . Eyang Saka was a big influence, many people here who escaped police school or became ABRI because of his help " said Om Wira lirih .

" I mean.ya get away professionally .. never use money, he was very reluctant " continued om Wira because Anto looked at him while frowning .

" Live in peace..." Om Wira scoops the pulse from the basket, then starts enjoying the wife's cooking after offering food to Anto .

They enjoy lunch without a sound , Nila goreng , warm kale and sambal terasi which is served by Bu Ratih makes them only able to eat food without speaking .

Fifteen minutes later they had finished eating, Anto grabbed a glass of cold water from the jug .

" Mum Ratih's cuisine is always good..." Said Anto praising after drinking out a glass of water ..

" You later if you find a wife must also be good at cooking " replied Mr. Wira .

" Your stomach will be like mine" she continued, laughing .

" Emh..om..I seem to have to go nih...is ready all will stay waiting for the besieger to come ? " Ask Anto .

" Lha.if you want to rest sleep here "answer om Wira .

" I have to change these pants..." Anto answered while pointing at her wet jeans .

" Oh.yes already...makasih ya To..bring fish yes make side dishes at the cottage, ma...Anto wants to go home .." cried om Wira to the wife who was busy in the kitchen .

Before long the wife came carrying a package .

" Come home now? , this aunt brought Nila pepes and sambal for dinner .

" Well, thank you very much "answer Anto happy .

" bring the raw To.make the stock side dish " sir Wira got up from his seat .

" no need om.this is enough, I say first om..mari Bu Assalamualaikum.." said Anto while walking away .

" Walaikumsalam.." replied Mr. Wira and Mr. Ratih simultaneously .

Anto quickly left the house, he wanted to ask the new thing he knew about himself to the father .