The Love Competition

45 . Can't accept destiny yet

It's been three days since Jidan's funeral, the mansion seems deserted . Everyone dissolves in their own suffering .

Mrs Irma spent more time in room & room, as did Dila .

Ms. Nisa stayed in the house for a while to take care of all the household necessities . While Mr. Aditya is still busy coordinating the search for Andrew and his comrades .

That afternoon Dila was sitting on the balcony of her room . The girl's view was empty . Time and again he seemed to take a long breath and then exhale strong strong . Occasionally he bites his lower lip while watching the eyes .

Said Jidan as they argued a few days ago again ringing in Dila's mind .

"I will assume that there is nothing unfinished between us until you give the answer . That you're willing to be my traveling companion that won't be easy, or you want to find the other happiness you crave "

Dila took a deep breath . He did not expect what Jidan said to be true to happen . There is unfinished between them .

" Lord..Why make him come into my life in such a short time ? , why make me love him ? , If in the end it will be like this "murm Dila in the heart .

A thousand regrets will not change anything, he alone creates distance in the hearts of those who have been adrift . Make their story imperfect . Makes things unfinished between him and Jidan, until the end of the man's life .

" I should have said it then, ' I should have said that I love him, even though I am afraid, at least he knows that even though I try not to love him my heart still says he is my love . He's someone who makes me happy, and although he's often disappointed that there's more time to wait than to see him, being with him even if it's just a minute is enough for me to be happy " Dila took a deep breath while saying inwardly .

" Sorry... I'm sorry..." Mumbled Dila while hugging her knees .

Clear crystals flowing from her beautiful eyelids . There was a sense of tightness pressing on his chest until he felt so tight . There was pain that made him feel so miserable . There was such an empty space in his heart that everything he saw now felt colorless .

The girl lowered her face in . If he could turn back time, that last moment he wanted to say to the man .

" I love you, come home safe" but it's a pity it's never gonna happen .

This is the meaning of his feelings when he saw Jidan last time . That they will never meet again .

Without Dila realizing Madam Nisa had long stood at the door of her room made of glass, looking at the girl sadly .

Mr. Gunawan has recounted Dila's relationship with Jidan, and he asks mistress Nisa to comfort the girl . Madam Nisa did not think that Dila had a lover, she had hoped that Dila would fall for her son . As he is convinced, Jordi begins to like Dila . In this situation it will be difficult for his son to win the girl's heart .

" Silver...." Call lady Nisa soft .

Dila raised her face, she immediately wiped her tears and smiled forcefully When she realized madam Nisa had been nearby .

" Aunty..." Sapa Dila while forcing her lips to smile .

" what are you thinking ? " Task the gentle mistress Nisa .

The woman who was almost fifty years old yet still looked beautiful was walking closer to Dila .

" No...just want to enjoy the twilight breeze" replied Dila as she shifted her seat so that madam Nisa could sit next to her .

" You okay ? " Ask madam Nisa after sitting next to Dila .

" Yes..." Dila replied briefly, he turned his gaze far away to other places so that madam Nisa could not read the sadness of her heart .

" Aunty heard about your relationship and Jidan" said the gentle mistress Nisa .

" It's okay to cry, when you feel so sad you can cry . It will not change anything, but it will at least reduce the tightness in your heart, continued Madam Nisa while looking gently at Dila's face .

Dila was speechless as she looked at the gentle face beside her . The woman reminded him of the mother who had died almost seven years ago.No tears began to flow .

" Why do all those who love Dila keep leaving Dila ? " Say Dila with pilu .

Madam Nisa was speechless as she looked at Dila with pity . His heart was filled to hear the words of the girl .

" You can't think so, there are many more who love you and still live healthy lives . Mak Asih, Lilis, Gunawan's grandfather and we all also love you "mrs Nisa said affectionately .

" But still...why ? ," Dila was sobbing .

" This is not true Auntie.. ,. Why did Adi have to go that way? ? , There is something I want to tell her "Dila muttered while sobbing .

" I should have said that I still love her, ''as hard as I try not to love her ' I still love her . It's okay, even if he's a soldier . It's okay, even though I have to live with worry. I want to say that to her, I should have told her that, at least she would know what I want "Dila said while looking at Madame Nisa's face . Her tears were flowing non-stop .

" Aunty thinks she knows, she already knows Dila" said lady Nisa softly . The woman hugged Dila, trying to give her a little strength with a hug of affection .

" He was calm there . You must be sincere so that he can rest in peace " whispered madam Nisa .

" he promised he'd come back..., he'd go home, right ? . He never broke a promise . Tell grandfather to look for him again, isn't grandfather very rich ? . No matter if it's just one foot, I want him back . Please ..." Say Dila memelas .

Madam Nisa gasps at Dila's words .

" Dear...you must not be like this, Dila let Jidan calm there, do not let sadness make you a weak person " Madam Nisa gently rubbed Dila's face while hugging the girl .

Dila sobbing sedu in the arms of mistress Nisa . The regret in his chest made him want to turn the clock around and hope there was nothing unclear between him and Jidan .

Elsewhere Jordi who heard their conversation from the balcony of the room next to her could only fall silent . Her heart felt also pained hearing the cry of the girl . How much is Dila's love for her cousin ? .

*****

" So what do you think ? " Mister Gunawan asked with a serious face to the lady Nisa who was sitting opposite him .

They were both talking about Dila . Both were worried that the girl would be depressed, and in almost the same period of time the girl had to lose two people she loved .

" What if Dila lives with us pa...?" Saying Miss Nisa .

" Now the most important thing is for him to accept this fact, I think the regret he felt was greater than the sadness he felt for Jidan's departure .

" It would be better if Dila could be close to someone , that way she could slowly forget about Jidan" said Ms. Nisa .

" You mean ? " Task Mr. Gunawan while looking at the face of Nisa's mistress .

" Didn't you previously intend to match Jordi with Dila, maybe this is the way" replied Mrs Nisa .

" Nisa knows .. The will is just papa's excuse .

" No..no , that was the request of the late eyang Dila . Let Dila determine her soul mate " replied Mr. Gunawan .

" But papa..,. What is papa serious about stock ownership ? " Task Miss Nisa .

" Why? , you think I'm just playing ? " Mister Gunawan looked at the face of Nisa's mistress .

" It's not so, Nisa thinks it's dad's way of getting them to try to accept Dila" replied Nisa's mistress .

" It's true, but I didn't play when I said I would give the rest of my shares to others if none of them married Dila" said Mr. Gunawan .

" Nisa flavor ...Jordi began to like Dila "said madam Nisa while looking at the in-laws .

" Are you? , how do you know that ? " Ask mister Gunawan.

" I'm pa's mother.... Nisa could see the love in Jordi's eyes while together with Dila "mrs Nisa replied with a smile .

" That's why .. let them know each other, said the unknown then do not love "mrs Nisa said softly .

" Let time heal Dila and let destiny answer everything . Now papa himself is not sure , whether there is one of them who can be the best for Dila "mister Gunawan take a deep breath .

" Maybe..destined papa, papa just wants the best for Dila . Whoever the man of his choice will be papa make sure he gets the man "he continued as he stepped away leaving the son-in-law .

" Papa.I won't let my son be heartbroken, and I know..Jordi has fought a lot for the company . Dila and company, both are things he wants . I will also make sure my son gets happiness "murmed madam Nisa while looking at the departure of Mr. Gunawan .

*****

Tok tok...

The sound of knocking on the door of the room made Dila who was sitting in front of her dressing table move .

" What's up ? " Task Dila to a servant standing in front of her room .

" Emh.there are people who are looking for non Dila "Answer the waiter .

Dila scrunched her forehead , no one knows she lives in this house except her best friend who is one house and family in the village .

" What's his name ? " Task Dila .

" Emh..Bima non.." replied the waiter politely .

Da was silent for a moment , then he told the waiter to ask Bima to wait . after changing clothes he immediately went down .

" Hi.kak.." said Dila with a smile to see Bima who he had not seen for a long time .

Bima smiled back at Dila's greeting . The two sat facing each other in the living room .

" Did Adi tell her everything to sister ? " Task Dila after they were silent for a moment .

" No.you know he's a man who doesn't talk much "Answer Bima .

" I came to hand this over" Bima said as she handed me an envelope .

" What is this ? " Task Dila .

" Eight Months ago Jidan received a dangerous assignment, before leaving he left this to me and asked that I give it to you if something bad happened to him " replied Bima flat .

Da tersih . She did not expect to receive such a love letter before she became a wife .

" Silver...." Call Bima slowly .

" Yes..." Reply Dila while looking at Bima .

" I wish you could be as strong as he expected" Bima said with a serious face .

" I go first, I still have a duty, take care of health and tabahlan" said Bima as she got up from her seat .

Dila drove Bima's departure to the front door of the house . After the man left he immediately went back to his room .

Lama Dila stared at the light blue enveloped letter he had placed on the table . In a doldrums the girl finally grabbed the letter .

Maybe it is time he accepted destiny , the thing that he had always feared would happen to him actually happened earlier . A love letter from a person who has left must be received as a special last letter . He did not expect the scene of the mother he had witnessed now repeated to him .

However he cannot change the Creator's decision, he must accept fate in order to continue to move forward in his life .

The girl was glued, stuffing the last letter into the drawer without reading it . He planned to read the letter when he felt he was ready to release Jidan from his heart .he is currently unable to accept fate .