The Love Competition

72 . This is what it feels like

Dila was still awake even though he would usually fall asleep immediately after taking the medicine.His conversation with Bima made him never fall asleep .he recalled their conversation clearly .

" i heard everything ... I know that Adit's investigating Jidan's case back . What's the matter ?" ask Bima .

" i met someone very similar to him " answered Dila briefly, but made Bima gape wide .

Bima was fixated while staring at Dila who was telling a long story . the girl told the incident that happened to her while in malang .

" what if he forgot all about you because of an incident? , or he's no longer what he used to be ? " Bima said after a moment of silence .

" for me he came back safely it was enough, the problem he forgot me, or could not remember me it was a different thing "Dila replied while taking a deep breath .

" what are you going to do now ? " tanya Bima later .

" i don't know, my mind is completely dead-end . we even lost track of him " replied Dila with a sad face .

" i will help , maybe something has happened" Bima said after a moment of silence .

" but Dila..have you ever thought what would happen between Jordi and Jidan if he really did come back?. . Do you know Jordi might love you ...

" Oh he told you his feelings ? " Song Bima caught Dila's facial expression after not so so finish the sentence .

" how do you feel about her ? " tanya Bima later . Dila just shook her head .

" You really don't have the slightest taste for Jordi ? " Tanya Bima tried to find out .

" I don't know Brother Bim....,. I really don't know..." Dila muttered .

Both of them were silent and drifting in their respective minds .

" Grandfather... asked me to try to get to know Jordi more closely.., I really don't know what to do? ? , and I also can't say this incident " muttered Dila while staring at Bima who was sitting quietly .

" It all depends on your heart . No one can force you to hold on to someone or let go of someone . Your heart is yours . " Bima took a deep breath .

" You must not be too hopeful about something uncertain either . You deserve to be happy and get the best . If there is a little taste in your heart to Jordi, what Mr. Gunawan said is true ..love can come because it is used . There may be another fate more beautiful than what you expected " said Bima with a calm smile .

" Ka Bim's....." Dila stared at Bima not understand .

" Why ? " Task Bima while smiling .

" You once said you wanted to be with someone who would never leave you alone . and Jidan wasn't that kind of person, you've experienced it yourself .

" Within this.. " Bima pointed to his chest "and uniform, you know for sure which one he will choose "Bima's speech made Dila speech silent .

" He loves you, everyone who knows him knows it, but you know he's not the kind of love slave who will do anything you ask , he's a true warrior who will always choose a country above all else.Maybe Jordi will love you in a better way "Bima again said in a warm voice .

Dila took a deep breath, Bima's statement ringing clearly in her ear .

Dila stared at the ceiling of the room which only looked pitch black because the room lights had been turned off by Mak Asih before the woman slept . Long time his mind drifted, recalling the flash of events that he had been going through since eyang and Jidan died .

He remembered every moment he spent from the beginning meeting Jordi , until the events of this afternoon on the top floor .

He must admit, Jordi is a different man than before . The cold and haughty Jordi was now a warm and liquid figure . Many good sides of the man that he likes .

But all the time they spent, unable to bury the longing or feeling he had for Jidan .

It is true that he feels comfortable to be near Jordi . But only that . He also felt that comfort when with Ivan or Bima . for him Jordi was a good friend, And because of that sometimes he felt guilty when Jordi seemed to put high expectations on their relationship .

" Jordi is good, his face is even more handsome than Jidan's, more financially established . He is always there for you . Accompany you when you are down . what else is lack ? " That's what Ocha once said .

he himself does not know why , maybe because Jidan is his first love , it is difficult to forget , before the incident at the poor resort that brought him to meet someone very similar to Jidan he wanted to set the Heart and try to accept Jordi . But the events of the day were like sparks that re-ignited a dream that he had painstakingly extinguished .what this was like it was like to love excessively , you even keep the feeling even though all you can get is pain and disappointment . why he has to love Jidan so much .

" is that really you? ? , where are you now ? " muttered Dila while closing her eyes that were getting tired .the girl finally fell asleep after her mind was tired of wandering with all hope and do'a that He prophesied in the heart .

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The moonlight of half gave a dim light of the night . On the horizon thousands of competing stars flaunt their beautiful light on the inhabitants of the earth, flashing beautifully .

Jordi was lying staring at the thousands of stars in the sky, her eyes looking for the brightest light other than the moon above .

At first he wanted to go directly to RS , asked Dila about Mr. Gunawan, but he canceled his intention because the mother called and asked him to go home quickly that night because he wanted to talk about something .

Jordi took a deep breath, she recalled her conversation with her mother after finishing dinner some time ago .

" Mama has been talking to grandfather, it seems like she will support your relationship with Dila, so you don't have to worry about it "the mother said softly while looking at her .

" Mama convinced Grandpa to talk to Dila about your relationship" she continued .

" Why did Mom do that ? " Task Jordi disappointedly .

" How do you want? , you want to wait until Dila when ? . Only your grandfather can persuade Dila, you know it's been almost a year already, are you sure you can make Dila say yes ? " Mrs Nisa took a deep breath .

" Believe in mama.., This is the best way for Dila and you can be together " continued Madam Nisa while smiling warmly at her .

" It's not that....

" Mom knows you love him very much, and also are you willing to take off company shares just like that to others who do not know the origin ? " Task madam Nisa while looking closely at Jordi's face .

" Ma..that's not why I was with Dila "Jordi said quietly .

" Mama knows..., that's why you're going to help you " said Miss Nisa as she moved away from her seat .

" What if Jidan is still alive ? " Jordi's words made Nisa's mistress sit down again .

" What do you mean ? " Mistress Nisa looked at Jordi's face sharply .

" If Dila is forced to accept my love because of grandfather, then Jidan comes back, isn't that unfair to them ? " Jordi spoke softly as if just muttering to himself .

" Where does such a thought come from ? " Mistress Nisa looked at Jordi's face with pity .

" What does Dila believe ? " Just ask later . Jordi is just mute, she does not want to make news that has not definitely spread in the family .

" So he can't accept you yet ? " Task the mother again .

Madam Nisa grabbed Jordi's hand which was on the table , then stroked slowly .

" You must be strong, no matter how thick a woman endures in love that has ended, her heart will melt in sincerity from someone" said Madam Nisa softly .

" Dila is not a typical woman who easily falls.., she is gentle but firm in her stance "Jordi replied as she pulled her hand from her mother's grasp .

" The pessimistic period is so..excited dong.! , you know that the woman likes to be fought "mrs Nisa trying to entertain .

" Mama used to love someone to death, too, but your papa's love changed everything . Honest even after marriage , mama still loves that person , but then mama realized , all you need is someone who is always by our side . The more mature we will understand, not all desires, dreams and struggles are reciprocated according to hopes and dreams . But we must believe Do'a and effort will make God give our best . Then my mother realized that your father was the best man God sent to take care of my mother . It could be that Dila will fall in love with you after you guys get married, it might as well ? , What Dila needs right now is someone who accepts her with a piece of her heart that still holds Jidan's name "the mama said at length .

" I'm not sure....

" To be sure.., it will be difficult at first but you jarus wise and patient in this case, trust the mama and grandfather "mrs Nisa ganged on Jordi .

" Why does Grandpa want Dila to be the daughter-in-law of our family ? " Tell Jordi

" Because it's your great-grandfather's dream that hasn't materialized yet, grandfather doesn't want to leave this world before paying off a promise "wanted Miss Nisa .

" That's all ? " Task Jordi .

" There's something else..., you know how Grandpa loves Dila so much, right ? . Because he is the only descendant of Saka Arifin who wants to protect with all his heart . There is a debt Budi can not be repaid even with life though , you will not understand . the point... Right now all you need to do is be nice to Dila, if anything is going to happen in the future believe me it is the best for you guys, understand " madam Nisa looked gently at Jordi's face .

Jordi simply fell silent while raising both of her shoulders .

" Hufff......." The loud gust of Jordi's breath was again heard, breaking the silence of the night that was getting late .

" What they are planning "murm Jordi while looking up at the star of the night . The man eventually chose to end the long day by returning to his room .

But after long lying down he still could not close his eyes . Said the mother, and the events on the roof of the hospital flashed through her mind .

Even after he was so lenient, fondling and hoping for Dila's love, the girl was still unmoved . What would happen if the grandfather asked for it? , Will he get the opportunity he is waiting for ? .

Why is it so difficult to get Dila's heart, why is it as if there is a thick wall that he deliberately built so that it can not be penetrated . Can one really love so deeply ?

He once knit a beautiful dream with Clarisa, love the girl deeply to be willing to let go of everything he had, in the end the love was shed easily . He even quickly forgets the pain of Risa's betrayal, not long for her to sink into the "heartbreak" phase " . Does that mean that all this time he did not love Risa with the inside ? . Or because the way they parted was different to the way Dila and Jidan separated ? I don't know....

With Dila.None of the beautiful and romantic moments are created, except the warmest 2 seconds of the night . Ach...Jordi smiled reminiscing about the event . Other than that, all things pass with the "small thing but he himself so enjoyed it . Together with Dila he felt more alive, more relaxed.even felt quite happy just by touching the raindrops of a tent seller of chicken noodles .

" What is true love ? " Jordi returned with a small smile reminiscing about the events he went through while comforting Dila who was in a phase of heartbreak when losing Jidan , the event trapped him in such a deep sense .

The sense that he tried to tepis initially, but more and more flourishing days to change he who used to be so guarding the prestige now seems to have no power in front of the girl . he was even willing to accept Dila completely and stay with the girl even though there was no love in Dila's heart for her .

Ach.... like this it feels ? , This is how real love is , he even willingly changed the whole world just to be with Dila a . should he obey the word mama said . will Dila change her decision all this time if the grandfather asks for it .