THE HIDDEN MENTARY

THE OTHER SIDE OF DAVIN

"And you Micah, have just broken your own promise. Now accept your punishment."

Gleek..

I swallowed my mouth rough. Why are you so stupid Kay!! Did you see for yourself, Bang Arka locked the door of this room, why carelessly you even tried to escape? Look now, you're adding gasoline to the fire.

I continue to condemn my reckless actions. I regret what I did. Now I'm just waiting for the punishment, whatever it is, from Bang Arka. It's like a boomerang, I throw, I get hit.

"Bang, sorry, I didn't mean it that way. I just want to get out Bang. I don't want to be locked up here. What would people say if they saw us like this? Your wife's talk was completely right Bang, I was wrong and broke the line." I bowed when I said it. Remembering the words that cut my heart earlier. Bang Arka was looking at me.

I intend to break away from the arm of Bang Arka who urged me to stick to the wall. I kept trying to shift his arm, but it didn't change a bit. His arms are too strong to hold me. I hit the chest soft field Bang Arka.

"Why do you care what they say? You don't ask for food and livelihood from them." Bang Bang Arka. He finally spoke again. I don't know why I was a little relieved to hear his voice.

"I don't want to be labeled as a Bang actor. I have pride and I have to keep my good name and my parents." I keep making noises.

"You're not a liar. Why do you worry about something ridiculous, that you yourself know the answer to? Why are you worrying too much about something unnecessary? They don't know the truth, they can only scorn. So why do you care about all their bullshit?" The Bang Arka.

"Everyone would think so, Bang! What is on their minds, if they find another woman sleeping in the room of a man who is the husband of a man? Even worse, his wife caught him! All the charges will lead to me, Bang?" I started to beat him.

"And what do you care about their thoughts, Micah? You know that's not true, so stop thinking weird! Don't listen to them. Just listen to me. Trust me." Bang Arka yelled back at me.

"Then tell them Bang. Tell them the real situation. Tell them I'm not the destroyer of your household!" I'm back sobbing. My chest rumbled, pain slashed my heart.

That sturdy arm grabbed my body, carrying me leaning against the chest of his field. Warm and comfortable. A new feeling that I began to feel a few days ago when I was with Bang Arka.

"Why is your mind always flying uncontrollably, Micah? What are you trying to prove? What are you trying to argue? Just leave them all. And you, don't worry about something that isn't necessarily happening. My neighbors don't even care what happens in this house!" Bang Arka's voice had returned softly. His hand rubbed gently on my back.

"I'm afraid of Bang. I fear. I was treated like this for the first time. It hurts so bad Bang. Not because of the slap, but his words really put me mentally down." I'm ashenkat.

"So that slap didn't hurt?" Bang Arka's voice is back.

I looked up, looked into his eyes. You shameless bastard, after yelling at me like that, now he's trying to tease me.

"It's important to answer, right?" I gave him a cynical look, I pushed Bang Arka's body.

Eh moving away? I sighed to find Bang Arka's body shifted. He purposely locked me up. I lyricized his face, he was smiling ignorantly.

"I'm home Bang. I don't want anyone thinking macem. Later Mas Hadi with Bi Sumi even so how it is." I was about to hold the doorknob when at a glance I saw Bang Arka's face back cold.

I looked back at him. Well, what's wrong with you, Kay? I tried to map out my mistake this time. But it still didn't work. Why the hell Bang? I'm not a psychic drip like you. Say Bang, don't just shut up.

"What Bang? Why look at me like that? By the way Bang Arka! A toothache, huh? Don't diem bae! I thought I was paranormal this time." I'm trying to be funny. Lha, failed as well as it turned out! Already, just give it up, Kay!

"You forgot what I said?" Yes, he opened his mouth.

"What's mother?" My tone of voice was accidentally set to song mode.

Sure enough, Bang Arka's steps again forced me to move back and hit the wall. Hah, I'm in his arm cage again.

"Abang said, Brother doesn't like you to call him Mas. Change your call, Micah. It's bothering your ears!" Bang Arka's face drew closer to my face as I said so. I was unmoved, amazed by every word Bang Arka had just said.

Is it true that I heard, Bang Arka did not accept me calling Mas Hadi right? Isn't it like that? Butwhy? My brain is very high.

"And I'll make sure, you'll receive punishment if you keep doing it!" Threat Bang Arka. I get goosebumps hearing it.

"What's wrong Bang? Mas Hadi's people are not a problem, he just accept I call Mas. Why is it that brother protested?" I refuted.

"Well, you forced Brother, Kay." Bang Arka's voice suddenly raspy.

"Eh?" I was nervous to see our faces getting closer. I pushed back my body but unfortunately hit the wall.

Cup..

My eyes widened as I felt a warm touch on my lips. I'm speechless. Looking up at the ceiling of the room. Still soaking up every warm touch on my lips. Still waiting for my brain to receive the signal, that all this is real.

My heart is beating irregularly. I don't know what this feeling is. And I don't know what I'm thinking. I wanted to fight when I realized what was going on. But some of my heart and body seem to enjoy it.

I closed my eyes as my body in the clench drew closer in Bang Arka's arms. My tears escaped. There was a sense of disappointment in myself that could not make the fort solid.

Bang Arka's kiss came off when I felt my lips give no reply. How can I retaliate, if I'm still fumbling about what's going on? What's the matter? Why is it like this? What's wrong with me?

"You're beautiful today, Micah. And I love seeing you here. And sorry to steal your kiss. Brother is just a normal guy." The sound of Bang Arka from the recess of my neck.

I don't know what I feel now. I was suddenly stiff. But my tongue casually strings the word.

"This is not my first time. Danen was the first to steal my kiss."

Bang Arka's eyes looked back at me. His forehead is crinkling deep. The neck was pulled back.

Cup..

His kisses are now increasingly fierce playing in my mouth. What's wrong with you, Bang? This time I tried to fight. I revolted even though my heart and body, for whatever reason, wanted this touch.

"Detachable.. Let go of Kay Bang. Brother why the hell. It's enough Bang." I said softly while continuing to rebel.

With a loud breath Bang Arka said, "do not mention the name of the trash again in front of me, Micah! And don't mention the name of the other man in front of me! You hear that, Micah?"

"Don't expect you to get away from me. You're just mine Micah." Threat Bang Arka.

"Don't gils dong Bang. That brother belongs to Adinda Bang. And I belong to myself." My objection.

"wait. I'll make sure you belong to Brother."

I raised both my eyebrows. Gave him a look of resistance.

"We're just comfortable with each other Bang. Not love each other. That's not the philosophy you taught me the other day. Don't be silly Bang. You're so happy to lick your own spit!" My insinuation.

The ridiculous philosophy that Bang Arka taught continues to unfold in my memory. Because it is true, the current condition, there is no sense whatsoever for Bang Arka other than comfort. Maybe we're stuck in friendzone comfort. But I don't know, there is a new taste but I still don't want to name it.

"You just wait. Where is this comfort! You just need to prove one thing. If as expected, then do not expect you to escape from Abang. Sooner or later, you'll belong to Brother." Bang Arka.

"This is about what Bang? Anything to do with me? Or Adinda?" My toot.

"The relationship between me, you and him." Answer Bang Arka. I widened my eyes. Congratulations Kay, you really have gone too far in Bang Arka's domestic life.

"And.. If.. Something you want to prove, not according to your expectations, then what will happen? What's gonna happen to me?" I was suddenly horrified by the thought that suddenly flashed through my mind.

What good is this for me? I feel I'm at a disadvantage. I really need to stay away from this guy. I was suddenly scared. However, I do not deny, the comfort given by Bang Arka seemed to hold me. A feeling of comfort I never felt before. Can I stay away?

"I.. I'm.." Bang Arka nervously answered my question.

Hah it turns out your plan is not perfect Bang. You just put me in, without equipping me with fighting ammunition. In fact, the way out for me is not yet ready, Bang.

Then what can I expect? What can I believe? Don't say anything silly Bang. I just got out of the silliness of my ex-boyfriend and my best friend. Don't make me laugh at you, Bang.

"Already Bang, do not continue something that you do not know the purpose. We walk on each other's roads. We're back from the beginning so we don't hurt each other and get out of bounds." I ended Bang Arka's struggle to answer my question earlier.

Bang Arka looked at me.

"The choice is only, we are friends normally or we know each other well enough as someone who has helped and helped. I really can't bear the heavy burden anymore Bang. I want to be happy. I want to walk by looking ahead, not looking down in shame." My word.

"Why should you be ashamed?" Bang Arka frowning.

"What would people say if they saw us still close together like this? Your status, will make me fall into a black valley full of mud and thorns Bang." I'm saying.

Bang Arka hugged me tightly, "I won't let you get hurt, Micah. Believe it."

"I believe you Bang. But please tell them! Tell them the truth."

"I told you, don't think of anything that hasn't happened." Bang Arka calms me.

I shut up, not wanting to answer.

"I have a graduation present for you. Wait here." Bang Arka took off her embrace. He walked out of the room.

I walk towards the bed. Sitting there with a feeling of emptiness. Why become like this? Question after question has engulfed my heart.

If I stay away from him, I feel empty. If I keep close to him, then my life and future are at stake. I have to make a decision soon.

I lyrics Bang Arka has entered back into the room while carrying flowers, teddy bears and many brown parcels. Ah can I stay away from the man who helped me rise up and gave me this comfort, after the tragedy?

"Mikha, why daydream? It's." Bang Arka broke my empty mind. I looked at him, his hand outstretched giving me a gift.

"Congratulations on your graduation. Hopefully it will be smooth in the future." Her sincere prayers she offered.

"Makasi Bang." I got the prize. Smiling sweetly at Bang Arka. I really like the gifts.

"Bao.. I assume that kiss was a graduation present for me, too." I said softly while taking a deep breath.

"Bang, thank you for all the help and attention you gave Kay. Thanks for the comfort you created for Kay. Thanks for-"

"Enough! Don't keep talking. I don't want to hear!" Bang Arka's voice cut my words.

"Listen to me Bang. Thank you for all you love Kay. I don't know what Kay would have been without my brother that night. Thanks for helping to heal Kay's wounds." I took a deep breath before saying my decision.

"We, finish this whole thing Bang. Let's just say I'm the little girl you helped. Already, that's it Bang, nothing more." Good Kay! Be firm in your decision. Take care of yourself, don't rely on anyone else.

"What do you want to do, Micah? We haven't even started yet." Bang Arka again clutched my hand. His eyes are back staring at me. The atmosphere between you is cold.

"Fix your life Bang. I'm not ready to be among you. I'm not a cheap girl, I take care of myself to the fullest, you know it's Bang!" I shed tears when I said it.

The clutches of Bang Arka loosened. He's backtracking his steps. My words slapped him pretty hard. His eyes warmed up to me.

My heart is sore, but it must be done so as not to worry more. And I've chosen.

"I'm saying Bang. I'm taking all this. I consider this a memento of you." I came out of the room with tears.

Soon I got in my car, turned it on and out of Bang Arka's yard.

Thank you Bang for everything.