THE HIDDEN MENTARY

THE RAINDROP

"MAMA!! Kay's alma mater suit was put yesterday, where the hell was it?" I screamed from my room when I could not find the alma mater I had just worn yesterday.

Yes, I am now a student at Garuda University. I've had a month of college orientation and this is the last day of orientation.

I stayed at Garuda University with the same majors as Danen and Cindy. Papa didn't let me transfer majors or move to university. Hah, you can imagine how I reacted back then. I went on a rampage and felt my world was about to collapse. Imagining me sharing the air with her ex-boyfriend and his affair.

But Papa insisted I stay there. Papa's reasoning was simple, he said I should be able to show them, if what they did would not break me, but instead be a whip for me to be more successful and happy.

Papa forced me to get out of the black hole in a way that I thought was a little extreme. But after I thought again, it is true too, Papa said. Why do we get away from the road that we have built with sweat and tears, just because of the flakes of pebbles that only ever leave a small scratch.

If Daren has regretted his actions and Cindy who like nothing ever happened, then why should I step aside? Aren't I the victim and they're the suspects? Cindy pretends there's nothing.

I finally obeyed Papa. I also want to show that losing them is not a disaster, but a blessing. I'm lucky to have been shown their rot first. Before I go too far with Danen or make friends with Cindy.

"It's a habit, Kay! I was a student, still screaming. Have you found out yet?" Mama came into my room with her scolding.

"If Kay uda never met, Ma." My murmur.

"If it's Mama who's bored, you're gonna have to go through all of Mama's wishes this week." Say Mama.

"Yeee is good." My objection.

"Yes, Mama's out." My lyrics Mama has really put her foot in the doorway.

"Yes yes Ma, Kay says what Mama says." I answered quickly, without thinking.

My mother smiled proudly, triumphantly.

"Yes, you have breakfast first." Bring Mama to me.

I widened my eyes. Confused by Mama's attitude.

"What's really Ma, where's Kay's alma mater? Could've run out with this senior, Ma if not wear an alma mater." My patience is running out.

"Udah ah bavel, breakfast first. Speak, Papa's been waiting." Answer Mama immediately.

I followed. Carrying a rangsel bag and all my needs. Walking hand in hand with Mama to the bottom floor, where Papa was waiting at the dining table.

"By Papa dear." Sapaku while kissing Papa's cheek. I immediately sat in Papa's front seat.

"Morning, Kay. Today is ospek's last day, right? What agenda is there?" Ask Papa on the sidelines to eat.

"Yesterday was closing, Pa. Today the plan is the introduction of laboratories, public and special courses, and later there will be the introduction of lecturers as well as the division of academic supervising lecturers." I said while taking my favorite seafood fried rice.

"That's a big deal Kay. What time is it?" Ask Mama.

"Kay doesn't know Ma. Lagian Kay is already a college boy now Ma, yes time to be equated with high school children who return home scheduled." My words succeeded in making Papa stop his breakfast.

"If you're a college kid, can you go home? Papa won't allow it. Finish college hours, go straight home." Hardik Papa's.

"I mean Kay isn't that Pa. Kay also wanted to join the student association so-so Pa. When is the day after the beginning of ospek will be told what sets are on campus." I tried to defend myself.

"What do you want to join Kay's set?" Ask Mama curious.

"Well confused, between journalism or science?" I even asked myself. Duh!

"It's up to you Kay, which one you think can develop your abilities outside of the knowledge you learn, so all your potential you develop." Papa gave me advice.

"Ntar was Kay thinking again. Kay left first, Pa, Ma." I pampered to Mama and Papa after finishing my breakfast.

"Yes, you're sorry. The true nyetir. Find a real girlfriend. Find a real friend. Don't you type anymore." Mama was obviously mocking me.

I flipped my body and twisted my eyeballs dramatically.

"It's ringing again. Where is still straight again. Papa didn't know Kay moved majors." Omelcu. Instantly a sense of annoyance came to me when I remembered Papa's decision which I thought was very detrimental.

"Wait for the date, Kay. You'll see and prove Papa's words." Replied Papa while drinking his coffee. Papa smiled handsomely at me, giving a reassuring look to me.

"You ah, Kay left first." I don't want to keep arguing with Papa and Mama about the same thing. My brain remembers it.

Immediately I took my bag and put my feet out of the house. I got in my car, started the engine and started driving down the street. I slowly drove my car.

I don't know why every time I drive, I always imagine something that has haunted me. My brain always seemed to be filled with the same thing. Something that always bothered my mind. Something that always takes my time and energy. Something I dare not think about at home.

I sighed in annoyance, each time remembering all that. My heart is breaking, my soul is screaming. I wanted to follow my heart, but my logic, which was actually not very sane, still did not allow it. I really want to cross that line again. But I was too scared, I was too cowardly.

All I dare to do is like this morning. I crossed a house I knew very well. Traverse slowly only to see his house and the whereabouts of his car.

"Ah you haven't left Bang." I smiled at the house. Yes, I was at Bang Arka's house. I was right across from Bang Arka's house, staking out the house in secret.

I'm a little crazy about it. Somehow the beginning. But since not meeting Bang Arka, my heart feels empty and it feels more painful than when abandoned by Danen, the crocodile.

I felt I was missing a figure that was able to calm and calm my heart. I lost my back and comfort. And I'm tormented by that. I really miss Bang Arka. Am I not really crazy? Missing someone's husband!

And this is the result of everything. Here I am every morning. Tell Papa and Mama if I have activities in the morning, when in fact my activities begin one to two hours later.

I always leave early just to watch Bang Arka's house. The path of my house to the campus and to Bang Arka's house is very far twisted, but what do I care? I just want a little bit of my soul tranquilizer. If I'm lucky, I can see Bang Arka from a long time before she leaves for work. That alone has relieved my heart.

I was stupid. Acting outside common sense. What's the point of stalking people's husbands? But I don't know, I feel like Bang Arka hasn't been okay since our last meeting. I'm sure he's covering up his anxiety. For that reason, every morning I am here, in front of Bang Arka's house.

I want to prove with my own eyes, that Bang Arka is in his words, that Bang Arka is fine. However, as I often see, Bang Arka is not okay.

No more smiles on his face. Bang Arka rarely smiles, but when with me, not once or twice I see her smile, but very often. And what I've seen lately is, that smile is gone.

Drrr.. Drrr.. Drtts..

My phone rang loudly, grabbing my attention. I opened my bag and saw the name on the screen.

Hmm strange, just a foreign number, my phone doesn't keep the number. I just ignored the call, maybe the bank clerk offered me a credit card. I threw my phone back in the bag. I turned my eyes back in the same direction.

"Finally you're out Bang. Well you are handsome wearing navy color. It suits you." I saw Bang Arka coming out of the house, carrying her bag and suit. The tie is not perfectly mounted. Hah I want to go over there and fix your tie Bang!

Jesus, Mikhayla! What the hell is in your brain? Didn't he teach you that strange philosophy? And remember Kay, she's a husband. You are just comfortable being around him. My inner goddess began to lecture me. The same talk every morning. The lecture that brought me to keep using my logic even though my heart denied it.

Ddrtr.. Drrtt..

My phone rings again.

"Duh ah, who the hell disturbed my calm early in the morning? Broken my mood you know!" I snapped at my innocent cell phone. I don't mind calling from the same unknown number. I shifted my eyes again.

"Thankfully you haven't left yet. But a long time in the car, usually immediately stirred. What was Bang first?" I kept railing Bang Arka behind my wheel.

Ddrr.. Drrt..

This is the third time my phone has rung and it bothers me a lot. The same caller, from a foreign number I don't know.

"Who the hell are you? Look out for you yes, if until you do I lose the moment to see my moodbooster leave for work, I hit you!" Shoot me again on my innocent cell phone. Immediately I slide the green button on the screen and I answer in a sniffling voice.

"Hello, who is it?"

No sound of answers from across the call. Immediately I snubbed the caller.

"If you don't want to talk about me closing it, just interrupt. I'm busy knowing!"

I heard a rough breath coming from behind my phone.

"Is seeing me from afar your present busyness, Micah? Are you satisfied just by looking at me from across the street? Don't you want to come and greet me?" The caller's voice sounded melodious in my ear. A voice I know very well. A voice capable of overturning my world.

I dropped my phone. My tears were flowing instantly. I held the steering wheel of my car to hold my body that kept shaking violently.

The voice I missed. A voice that calms me. Now it's across the phone. How come? Has Bang Arka known all this time? Does Bang Arka know I've been scouting for days? Has Bang Arka been staring at me from there? It's worth it you're a lot longer in the car this morning Bang.

I kept sobbing without paying any heed to Bang Arka's call on my phone. My Nyaliku is too cute to see Bang Arka in person. I dare not see it now. I can't afford it yet.

Bang Arka's voice kept calling me on the phone. I gave the car a quick glance. Ah shit, you got out of the car and immediately stepped closer to me. The cowardly soul that was attached to my body, told me to act immediately.

I wiped my tears rough. Immediately I gasped my car before Bang Arka approached me. I'm sorry Bang, I really don't dare to look at you at this time. I immediately turned around and got out of Bang Arka's Housing. Take a detour to get to campus.

I stopped by the side of the road. Calm my breath. And I'm staring at my phone still in the call. I'll take it right away. I looked in all directions, trying to find the whereabouts of Bang Arka. I'm afraid he'll follow me. Afraid I wouldn't hold back my own desires. Afraid that I would suddenly give a name to the foreign feelings I felt for Bang Arka.

My voice sounded in that call.

"You crying, Micah? Aren't you always smiling after seeing me every morning?" Sapa Bang Arka from her cell phone.

"Did you know?" My question's short.

"I know everything you do Micah. I want to say hello, but I also want to wait for you. Because like you said back then, I haven't been able to fix my life. I can't promise you anything yet." Very straightforward, Bang Arka always said that.

"Dude.." And I stay the same. Can't get the words out while with Bang Arka.

"I miss you, Micah. Hugely. I don't know since when, but you're like an opium to me. Opium to hold you, opium to be close to you and opium to protect you." Bang Arka's voice vibrated. I'm sure she's holding back her tears.

"Bang, I'm leaving first." I whispered softly.

I turn off my phone immediately and I drive my car fast. My tears are getting more unstoppable. I was screaming hysterically in my car. I really can't bear to hear the words of Bang Arka for too long.

I can't stand to love someone's husband.