The Healer of the Sinner

An Advice

"Sir Nizam is very good, Kek." that's the only answer that Nina gave in response to all the praise that Grandpa Mukti gave to Nizam. Nina's face instantly turned sad as the shadow of Nizam's face began to flash through her mind.

"Oh, yes, cake. I brought food for you, Grandpa." tried to shift the subject so Grandpa Mukti wouldn't talk about Nizam.

Nina grabbed the bushel of food she had just brought that she had previously stored near the old man. Nina passed from the front of Grandpa Mukti to the table to open the food and feed Grandpa Mukti with affection.

"Thank you for your attention, Cu. Your mother's cooking is delicious. And Grandpa really likes it." said Grandpa Mukti interrupted his chewing. Nina just smiled by continuing to feed Grandpa mukti until the food on the plate was toilet without rest.

Nina brought him a glass of water to give Grandpa Mukti. Grandpa Mukti grabbed the glass Nina gave him, and gulped it down slowly to push the leftovers in the throat.

"Grandfather, there's something Nina wants to tell me" Nina said shortly after cleaning up the dirty equipment she just used to feed Grandpa Mukti. Nina took the chair that was in front of the table and brought it near Grandpa Mukti.

Grandpa Mukti was sitting half-leaning on his bed divan. "What's up, Nina,?" asked the grandfather with a full glance.

Nina tells about her match with someone's son who has been very meritorious in his life. Nina also told the shortcomings of her future husband as a former Gay to Grandpa Mukti. Grandpa Mukti listens to Nina who explains about the indecision of the heart that is tucked in each of her words.

"What is your intention to accept this match?" ask Grandpa Mukti after it feels Nina finished talking.

"In addition to her sense of gratitude, Nina believes in the decision of Nina's parents, Kek. Nina was convinced that their decision must have been the best one" Nina replied. Grandpa Mukti saw there was still doubt there.

"What's that all? Say what makes you still not able to establish the heart to your father's choice." as if to know what is the beauty of Nina, Grandpa Mukti trying to encourage the honesty of Nina.

Nina bowed deeply, a long sigh rang out, and Nina pulled her face to meet Grandpa Mukti who was smiling shade towards her.

"Say, who knows Grandpa can help you, even though he can't help with an action, maybe Grandpa can help you with a piece of advice, who knows how to calm a worried heart,"

Again Grandpa Mukti guessed all the flavors that are currently being felt Nina. Nina did not stop thinking, why Kekek Mukti seemed to know what happened to him?

"Actually, Nina still doubts Kek. Nina's future husband is a former Gay. And is it possible that she could love Nina someday? What a man like that is also capable of being a good priest. Honestly Nina wanted the perfect Imam in Nina's own view, Kek. Is Nina now selfish. Cake?"

Carefully, Nina expressed her true feelings. A feeling that he completely covered and never said even to his parents. Nina was afraid, her father and mother were also worried if she knew what she was feeling right now.

"Is there no other reason than that, or may there be someone else who has filled the place that should belong to your future husband,"

The bluss...

Nina's face immediately flushed with embarrassment. Indirectly Grandpa Mukti can already guess that his heart has been adrift to other men. Nina was misbehaved and did not know what to answer.

"Don't be shy, Cu. Grandpa can understand your feelings. For man cannot resist a feeling that sometimes we ourselves do not want. A sense of it is the nature of all humans, we can not prevent it, but we as human beings who sense certainly can control it. By simply asking for help to Him who created us all."

"The feeling you feel for that man is not wrong. But, as a woman who already has a future husband, at least you fortify your heart to be able to distinguish which one you should prioritize. Believe me, if God has sent you the best priest, despite all the stories of his bad past. Most importantly right now, he really wants to get back on the straight path, and it's actually the lucky field God gave you."

"You know? God has appointed you and given you this great responsibility, not everyone can be trusted by God to live a household heresy with someone who has ever violated his nature, and that includes a very big sin. But Allah is the greatest in extending His forgiveness to every servant who repents and returns to Him. Including your future husband."

"You chosen woman, lead your husband to become a real man. Return to being a priest who will be a role model for your wife and children. Try as hard as you can with all the tests and household storms that will inevitably occur in every husband-wife relationship. Remember Cu, your every step will be a reward if you live your household sincerely, which is aimed at helping your husband return to the path that God has guided."

"Dispose me of all the feelings that have been worrying me all along. It's not your choice, but it's one fateful road you have to face. Trust me, dating after marriage is more beautiful than dating before marriage. Because dating a man who is already halal there are no more restrictions. Because you two are already mahram."

Nina shed tears hearing the advice and also the advice of Grandpa Mukti. He felt that he was wrong now because he was still worried by his uncertain feelings. In fact, he already has his own way of life that has become destiny in carrying out duties as a woman who will soon become a wife.

Nina is very lucky to have gained heart enlightenment from Grandpa Mukti. Because after he heard what was just said the grandfather made his heart calm and the anxiety of a new relationship disappeared and changed with a sense of confidence. This match was the best for her. And he had to throw away his feelings to someone who had weakened his belief over what his parents had chosen.

"Thank you very much, Cake. Now Nina's heart became relieved. Nina felt more and more sincerely disposing of this useless taste. Nina will continue to be a devoted child and become a powerful wife in helping Nina's husband become the perfect man and become the priest Nina hoped for."

Nina said earnestly while wiping the remnants of her tears that bathed the two wet eyelids. Grandpa Mukti just smiled with satisfaction because he was able to widen Nina's turmoil. The strong girl who received a great trust from God.

Not all women are able to accept their future husband who incidentally is a former person who likes same sex. And only the chosen women are able to run it. Because in that house there will be a lot of struggle. And it is not impossible if their feelings will be the victim.

But God is not fair. If we have a great ordeal and we are able to face it patiently and sincerely, then the Lord's recompense is far greater and more beautiful, even so beautiful we will forget the pain of God's previous trials. That is the justice of God that is certainly not able to be predicted by humans like us.