The Fading Love

Husband or child

"Aska play here, mamah want to dry clothes first"

It turns out true my guess, Zidan did not go to the office, even now his office clothes have been changed with t-shirts and home shorts. I just walked past him who was sitting on the edge of the bed, I also wanted to change clothes.

"Dad" he called back I ignored, I just wanted to see his anger again, who knows he was honest when he was angry. Not looking for my own disease, I just need his honesty, I want to hear the reason for his change of attitude.

Zidan blocked my wrist when I wanted to go into the bathroom, I tried to take it off, but Zidan just tightened his grip.

"go away! sick" I squealed as Zidan pulled me which made me fall on his lap.

"you're nothing!" Zidan held my body back as he wanted to get away, he didn't let me just walk away, Zidan's gaze was so deep, there was no intimidating look like usual. The look I always saw first as he tried to persuade me, the look I longed for, because I could feel his sincere and regretful gaze. Immediately I turned my face on as he tried to land his kiss. Now I feel his hand rubbing my face, it sucks this guy, what the hell he wants.

"honey" her voice sounded heavy, my face forced to face her.

"why" answered me with a witty

"i'm sorry, what you think is nothing, nothing that I hide from you, Aya" my hand stretched out to touch her chest, rubbing it slowly without looking at her face.

"You're not messing around behind me anymore, are you, Zi? I lifted my face to look at him, Zidan shook his head, my hand on his chest he held. His gaze turned sad, what was that look I could believe, whether I could hold his words, whether he was not lying, or just the opposite, arggh, I hated to harbor this kind of suspicion.

Why did the messages seem to say if it wasn't my husband accompanying her, if Zidan really wasn't lying, it was all because I was too suspicious and afraid to be left behind.

"You have to go to the office, I want to dry my clothes" I was put on hold not to stay away, I just need time alone, calm my mind to get rid of all the suspicions I craved. I was afraid that if everything went wrong, I would hurt Zidan, my unfounded suspicions could make our household fall apart.

"i have to what you believe, there is nothing I hide from you, I love you the same Aska, Inayah" my palms kissed, the long time the hand was there, I looked at his two eyes that were so similar to Aska, his thick eyebrows were also with long eyelashes.

"you doubt Aska as your flesh and blood, Zi?" Zidan.

"continue why you're that close to him. You slam your son Zi, you kick him until his body turns blue!" I couldn't bear to not raise my voice to her. If you remember the bruise on Aska's body back to make my emotions light up.

"You're nothing, Zidan!" I snapped in annoyance.my waist in his seat that made it difficult for me to stand up.

"Deliver!" once in motion I was now under it. Zidan's gaze was so deep. Want as hard as I try to escape, Zidan won't let me off just like that.

"I told you, I'm not hiding anything from you, Aya" he said gently.

"I love Aska, she's my son, my flesh and blood. I never accused you of cheating on my back until Aska, Aska our son, the fruit of our love" he said so softly. Zidan was still on top of me, his one hand resting so that his body would not completely hit me.

I put on a small smile, I was reluctant to look at her.

"i've been holding him this long, Zi. You always reasoned to want to educate Aska to be an independent child, you never gave appreciation for him, you never gave a small gift to him, he said, you never appreciate him patiently waiting for you to come home" I paused my sentence for a breath that suddenly felt tight.

"alright, I can take all that, but when you make him moan in pain I really don't accept it. One thing you should know Zidan" I turned to look at him, maybe now my eyes are watery red.

"I'd rather lose my husband than lose my son" I said without hesitation. Looks like Zidan was hurt by what I said just now, or how I felt, I don't know. But now that Zidan was fully on me, he shifted a little so as not to burden me too much, he drowned his face in my neck, I could feel his breath there.

"I'm sorry, I'm emotional and it's hard to control, I admit I'm wrong, I hurt my own child, I'm sorry Aya, sorry Zi" she said, I raised my hand despite a slight hesitation as well, I rubbed his back slowly.

"If you don't believe me, I'm willing to do a DNA test, if Aska's result is your flesh and blood, I'm willing to let you go, because I really can't go on with you always hurting my son's heart" I don't know where I can say that crazy thing. Actually it's just a threat, I don't want to be a widow, for whatever sake I'm not ready to lose Zidan. But that word I have said, because I can no longer bear it, I leave everything to God.

"Don't say that Aya, we won't part, I'm sorry for my rude attitude towards you and Aska, what should I do for you to believe, Aya" I can breathe a sigh of relief, I can breathe a sigh of relief, not what you imagined.

"what do I have to do to make you believe in me"

"Prove to me that you've never messed around behind my back. Prove to me that you love Aska as sincerely as you do" I paused my sentence for a moment.

"Make Aska come back to call you papah"