The Fading Love

anxious

finally I managed to calm Aska, although in the end I had to be exhausted from telling stories and trying to make my brother understand with Zidan's busyness. there seemed to be some dissatisfaction in my brother's eyes when we were chatting earlier, but as time had also gotten shorter, my brother let me go and escorted us to the airport, too, I just ask my brother not to tell anything with mamah and papah, afraid they are worried, but it is normal, my brother is more asking for forgiveness, too possessive of him.

now that me and Aska were on the plane, I asked to pick up Zidan, but I read it, maybe he was still angry, ah, I was afraid to go home.

Aska sleep, while I can not sleep, want to try however I still can not sleep, why? whereas at my parents' house, I could sleep well, eat a lot without reason to want to diet when there was no appetite, until I forgot to buy a new cart to contact Zidan.

I am now as if I am enveloped in anxiety that I do not know what causes it. The high worry with a mind that is suddenly full again. my head again throbbed in pain if I continued to dissolve inside my raging mind. I glanced at Aska, sleeping very well, I rubbed her head and kissed her tubers.

this is what I was worried about, Aska also opened the distance with Zidan, Aska rarely get Zidan's affection makes me afraid to cause a distance that is increasingly tenuous between them. Zidan was too strict at the age of our four-year-old.

Zidan never once bought a gift or just say happy birthday to Aska, Zidan who always act cold and talk tightly to Aska, aska's fear of approaching her Papa makes them like strangers, but sometimes Zidan's attention is too, but in other ways.

Sometimes I feel heartache when Aska who is tired of sleepy waiting for Zidan to come home but eventually even ignored Zidan, Aska is always afraid if she sees the cold gaze of her Papa.

I was so crybaby it turned out, my tears dripped seeing how innocent the face of my sleeping son was tired beside me, a plain face that was always waiting for his papa affection. I once thought if this attitude of Zidan had anything to do with our past problems, even now, if angry Zidan still said that hurtful thing 'or that child is not my son' hahhh, he said, it hurts so bad.

I was too late in my mind, until I did not realize in a moment the plane until I immediately woke Aska, fortunately my son was not fussy.

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POV author

"so Lo came home today, Inayah" Zidan rushed home, impatient to give meaning to Inayah who was gone without giving a message or news to her.

zidan's heart wanted to go home to Karina, but he broke that intention.

the incoming message made Zidan slow down the speed of his car.

*aska*

"zi, may I invite you, I'll be shortly until*

"who's Lo, queen? Lo paduka the queen asked to be picked up, it's nice to Lo" muttered zidan after reading Inayah's short message, his face really looks annoyed, Zidan just ignore the message after entering, like the previous messages.

there were many apology orders that Inayah sent, but they were all ignored, as if they were meaningless. Zidan, who felt most neglected by thisyah, forgot how Inayah waited for news from him for days until their son became ill.

all the messages that Inayah sent were ignored by Zidan because of Karina's request.The man had a good time when his wife was worried and his son got sick, there was not the slightest intention for Zidan to contact Inayah for the reason of not wanting his precious vacation with Karina to be broken Just like that. Zidan left all the blame to Inayah, without reflecting on his own attitude as a husband and parents.

at high speed, Zidan drives his car, wants to get home soon, he does not want Inayah who arrived first.

after arriving, Zidan rushed to take a bath, the paper bag that blocked his path he kicked without compassion, the contents of the paper bag were a pearl necklace and wooden car toys for Aska. His anger made Zidan undo the intention to give the necklace to Inayah, even intentionally, Zidan trampled the paper bag until it was damaged, as if the paper bag was Inayah which he treated like that. Zidan was not aware, he also ignored his wife and child even he deliberately did it on the orders of a second wife who was more recognized than his first love that he married was because of the same love.

Zidan throws a towel over the bed, he doesn't turn on the lights inside the house, on purpose.

*"Karina I* incoming call from my Karina.

*"Hem, why baby?"

"you haven't come home yet, I'm waiting for you baby "sounds of despair from Karina.

"sorry, I forgot the news, I went home to Inayah's house today"

"why are you angry with me?"

"dear, today Inayah came home "

"ooh, so you go back there because you miss your wife so much, I get it now, you know I'm sleeping"

"honey baby, hey, I used to say, this is not what you think dear" Zidan straightened up his seat, but Karina over there refused to listen to his explanation.

"i'm off the phone, I hope you have a good time because you've met your favorite wife"

The call was interrupted, Zidan clucked Upsetly, he lyrics his luxury watch, it was almost ten in the evening, soon Inayah also came home.

"the woman will arrive soon, tomorrow I will explain to Karina, I want to have fun with the village woman" said Zidan.

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Inayah POVs.

We are now on our way home, my heart is beating so hard, I am so afraid of getting Zidan's tantrum, I hope it's just my mind that is too exhausted.

zidan's car was parked in front of the house, I took down the suitcase, fortunately, the driver who took me very kindly, he helped me drop off the things, and brought them to the front door, while I carried Aska.

"thank you sir" the driver nodded and walked towards his cab, I closed the gate and locked it. With small steps I walked towards the house.

"Bismillah" hesitated Once I got in, somehow it felt like something was going to happen inside the house later. I bit my lower lip to reduce the nervousness in the heart. I slowly opened the door, I slowly opened the door, the house was so dark, Zidan was really home, but why the lights were not on. I put my suitcase and my bag first, and then I closed the door.

suddenly the lights were on, I was surprised by Zidan who suddenly stood in front of me, O God, what happened to Zidan, why his face was so scary, he said, there was no warmth in his eyes, I was so afraid, my God, I said again Sling Aska.

"Where from?" his voice sounded heavy and cold.

"zi-aa-a"

"WHERE DID I SAY!!!"