The Fading Love

Don't wanna go home

I do not feel today I have to go home to Jakarta, one Sunday why it feels so short, I now go to my brother's house in Banjarmasin, only alone with Aska, I'm now heading to my brother's house in Banjarmasin, last mamah papah wanted to deliver but I forbid them, afraid of soy sauce, anyway I just want to stop by, the plane that I will ride to arrive in Jakarta departs tonight.

Maybe I will arrive home at about 10 pm, a tiring journey, not exhausting papa, hopefully Zidan has come home, so tired I disappear, basic Inayah bucin, not papa bucin, I will not be able to, same husband, not husband hahaha.

"Abang" I hugged my brother tightly, I missed him very much, Aska was immediately familiar with his cousin who was only three years old, my son was very social butterfly. I also hugged my sister-in-law, we were the same age, but still she was my Kaka-in-law, for marrying Shaka.

"how many months han?" I stroked his stomach which was beginning to grow.

"five months" said Hana sumringah once.

"when are you, Aska, four years, right?" I smiled shyly, I said Aska who had run in with her cousin

"iya Han, it's been four years, but in the past, I'm afraid Aska feels my affection is reduced for her, wait a bit bigger again"

"your old hunter" sneered at my brother who had pulled my suitcase.

"iiyhh, nyebelin" Hana laughed at her annoying husband's behavior, Hana allowed me to enter her house, the house is not too big but comfortable, there are two floors as well, Hana, the style of the house is very modern, but classic, really my brother type.they just moved in about two years ago, so this is also the first time I visited their house.

"what's it going to drink, aya?"

"no need to han, soon I want to go to the airport" Abang Shaka who was playing with the boys immediately joined sitting on the sofa. in the face of him I do not believe.

"you want to go home tonight" I nodded, Hana brought me a glass of water and immediately I drank until I had half left, I put the glass again on the table.

"why so rushed anyway, stay here for a week" said my brother a little sniffy, his gaze was sharp, I laughed also heard his words, what did he say? stay again a week, which is true, I am not a single woman anymore, if in the past during college I often stay at home Brother, if now any can, I am married, I am married, there was a husband who was waiting for me. When I opened the phone earlier, just immediately the notification of all incoming messages, including calls from zidan, it seemed like zidan was angry because I had not contacted him for a week, I forgot because it was too cool to vacation at home mama, to not buy a sim cart to contact zidan, there were ten messages that zidan sent. I was confused with Zidan, I was confused by Zidan, not that I've sent a message about staying at home mamah for a week, but why Zidan actually sent a message asking for my whereabouts, the next message contains a request zidan for me to go home, jeez, my God, I got a headache on the way to my brother's house, it looks like I'll get another Zidan scolding when I get home, all right, I'm ready too.

"no bang, I have to go home, Zidan is home"

"that's, your husband, as busy as he is, until he can't bring you here" brother seemed to be furious with zidan, maybe because zidan who didn't really want to be close to my family, so they're less familiar.

"come on, don't do it" Hana defended me. I tendered for a moment my back that felt tired, traveling from my village to Banjarmasin, had to travel about six hours drive, he said, it will have to be added to the plane in less than two hours.

"Why son?" Aska raised her hand in her cradle, I put Aska on my lap, Aska was sweating so much, for running around here with her cousin.

"why dear, hm?" aska's face was suddenly moody, in her arms I was so tight, her face was stuck to my chest.

"why this? ko son mamah so spoiled gini anyway?"

"Aska does not want to go home mah, Aska wants to be here, Aska wants to sleep with grandma and grandpa, Aska wants to play in the garden, Aska wants to play with Abang Fadhil, mah"

"uh, horrified said his son, did not want to go home" I looked at Shaka, annoying once this one otw two boy, instead of helping to win, this even makes me more dizzy.

"here, son, let your mother go home alone" Oh my God, what the fuck this Shaka is, Aska can really think like that later. I give a sharp look to Shaka.

"yes, Aska here, yes, Aska does not want to go home, Aska here aja, Aska wants to be like Grandpa aja" this is because Shaka also ni, as well, my son so more whining like this, the man actually laughed satisfied to see his sister confused to answer what.

"sadly, later we come here again yes, papah has come home son, kesian loh papah himself at home" instead of happy when I say Papah has come home, Aska just shook his face in the bend, he said, signs will soon start tantrums, just wait.

"Aska does not want to go home mah, Aska does not want to meet papah, papah does not love Aska" Gosh, I did not expect that sentence will be thrown Aska, Aska, now my brother is staring with an intimidating look at me, may you not think of anything.

"son, I can't ah say that"

"indeed really ko, papah does not love Aska, papah does not see Aska when sick" O Allah, I die.

"fuck son's work" does not want, Aska does not want to meet papah, papah evil, papah does not love Aska, Aska does not want to meet papah" I can not say anything more, I can not say anything more, I held Aska's rebellious body on top of my lap, I had difficulty even nearly falling out of my seat.

"Ask is calm, son"

"no way, Aska does not want to go home, Aska wants to be here anyway" my brother stood up and took over Aska's body, Aska still cradled in Abang Shaka's sling, but at least, at least, Brother Shaka can withstand Aska's movements rather than me being this weak. Brother Shaka stared intently at me, then he spoke before bringing Aska out to calm down.

"you, owe me a lot of explanations" my shoulder slumped back on the sofa, I had to prepare a reasonable answer that Shaka would have wanted to hear, hopefully, just, what I said didn't make Shaka lose faith in Zidan.