The End of My First Love

99. Hitbahku

After the chat Santi and Pak Kuswandi about the family who want to be acquainted with Santi a few months ago. Today Santi will hear an announcement at his college about the final grade of his lecture. Thank God after waiting for half an hour, the results were announced and pretty good. Santi is grateful to be able to finish his D1 well. And only the implementation of graduation will be carried out in the next 2 months. “Alhamdulillah can finally be finished as well, hopefully this becomes a good first step for my life.!” santi said in her heart. “And hopefully there will be a fortune later, I want to continue the lecture..!” Santi hope.

After Santi knew the value of his lecture was quite good, Santi was a little relieved. There was only one more thing he had to think about seriously. About the talk of his father, which is someone who wants to propose to him. Honestly Santi is a little still worried, not because of fear of people who will be acquaintance with him is not good, Santi sure the same parents certainly give the best for him. But Santi still thinks of his friend Jaswari, even though the two of them have never met or communicated. But honestly in the depths of Santi's heart, he still hopes there's a miracle about his feelings. Yes, Santi refused to date, but now may be the right time to start and make sure the taste.

To minimize his anxiety, Santi asked for his steadiness with Istikhoroh prayers. For some reason even though Istikhoroh prayers, Santi is still not sure of his heart. Hence he prayed istikhoroh for an uninterrupted week. “Yes Allah make it easy and express my heart to my problems.!!” santi said on the sidelines of her prayer. “Bismillah...I'm sure there's some goodness behind all this.!!” santi said again.

After praying istikhoroh for a week, on the last day of prayer Istikhorohnya Santi dream. In his dream Santi met Jaswari, in a mosque near his home. Santi asked Jaswari about the clarity of their relationship. Honest even though the two of them have never met each other lately. But Santi can feel it, that his friend still has the same feelings as before for him. So all this time Santi had a hope that was always kept in his heart about his feelings. And in the dream.”Jas, I came here to ask you for an answer to our relationship during this time..how?’ ask Santi. “I want to apply to others, but I have not received it because I am waiting for news from you.!” santi said again.

Jaswari had not spoken still, she just looked at Santi with a resigned look. I don't know what was on Jaswari's mind at the time. “What will you do Jas..?” Santi waited for Jaswari's answer. The answer that awaited never came out of Jaswari's mouth, Jaswari only held Santi's hand, after that left Santi alone. Seeing that Santi was very sad, but out of nowhere Santi heard a voice.”Don't be sad boy..try looking ahead there is someone who will meet you at this time..!” the voice without the man said. Santi woke up from his sleep. Adhan Shahuh's taunya was heard, then Santi went to the bathroom after that prayer.

After the dawn prayer, Santi sat in the living room while daydreaming. He was still thinking about his dream, whether it was the answer to all the worries and problems of Santi all this time. “San, you're not going to Widi's house today?” ask Bu Eka the mama. Santi did not answer his mother, he was still engrossed in her daydreams. Ms. Eka who saw her son daydreaming felt strange, not usually her son was daydreaming early in the morning like now. “Hei beautiful mamah child, early in the morning do not daydream,” reprimand Bu Eka while patting Santi's shoulder. “Eh mamah, yes what is mah,” said Santi shocked. “Tuh was mamah said what so do not hear,” protest

Bu Eka's. “Hehee sorry mamahku, yes what's wrong, Santi does not daydream just think of something kok” elak Santi.

“Hmm, yes who does not dream, continue you today so do not go to Widi?” house ask Mama Eka again. “Ouh yes mah, so dong, neng want there is a similar event Widi to the city library, can mah?” said Santi. “Ya may but be careful yes don't go home too late okay,!!” Ma'am reminded Santi. “Siap Mah carry out,” replied Santi gusto. Then Santi went into his room to get ready to his best friend Widi's house, if the bad luck could be hit by traffic jams on the road. “Yes Allah I am leaning on You.although it is hard to decide, but if this is the best for me, then give me the sincerity to accept all this for my life.!!” santi said in her prayer. “Maybe the one who wants to be introduced to Mr. Ustadz Yana is my soul mate and will be my husband.” Santi muttered in his prayer.

“If Jaswari is not destined for me, then please open my heart and keep her always for me...Aamiin Yes Allah,,,!” Santi ended his prayer. Santi also went to Widi's house with a million flavors. After getting an empty angkot Santi went up and sat in the angkot corner. How long Santi was in front of Widi's house. And after being inside Santi told all of that to his best friend what had happened. Widi patiently hears Santi's story and corroborates. There will be good in every event life becomes good

trumpeted.

Today Santi got word from his father that the person who yesterday wanted the acquaintance, wanted to come home.  After teaching this afternoon, Santi who was resting in his room immediately came out after Pak Kuswandi called him. Santi approached his father. “San, Mr. Ustadz Yana has just come here to tell you, he said the family who wants your acquaintance to come to you...what do you think.?” ask Mr. Kuswandi. “Ya Sir, I just follow how good, if you think it is good for Santi...please leave it.!!”

santi said. “Alhamdulillah, I will say this to Mr. Uztadz tomorrow.” Said Mr. Kuswandi. “Bismillah O Allah...although in this heart there is still a sense of disappointment in what you decide in my istikhorohku, but I try to accept it with a free chest.!” santi said in her heart.

A week after the proposal conversation, the mall was also Santi got news that tomorrow the family from who will propose to him will come home. Santi accepted what happened and convinced himself

that all this is the best step of Santi's life.

In the morning Santi and his family prepared everything so that the hitbah event today went smoothly. The show will start around 9am, there are still 3 hours left to get ready. Suddenly Mr. Kuswandi called him into the room. “San, come here for a while You want to talk.!!” said Mr. Kuswandi looks serious. “Ya Sir, what is it.?” ask Santi. “Bapak wants to say something.” said Mr. Kuswandi. “Actually you received a letter a few days ago from someone, but because you are worried this will interfere with your hitbah process so the new father gave this letter to you today.!!”

said Mr. Kuswandi.

“This is a letter from your friend, sorry you read it yesterday.” said Mr. Kuswandi. Santi also received a letter from his father. After giving the letter, Mr. Kuswandi directly out of Santi's room. After opening it turns out the letter from Jaswari, “Yes Allah.what are you showing this..” Santi screamed in his heart and unconsciously shed tears. Really the thing that Santi could not think of there would be news when everything was decided. “How do I want to go there, while I already want to be proposed to people.” Santi looks sad. “Why Jas, your letter did not come on time.if your letter reaches me directly maybe...” said Santi inwardly. “I cannot come to your house at this time, because today I want to be preached by people.” said Santi resigned in his sadness.

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