The End of My First Love

44. The Heart of Jaswari

"Ouh yes San, I want to ask you the same thing about that," said Jaswari looking at Santi. "Where's Jas?" Santi turned back and turned to Jaswari. "So the one at Nurul's house, about falling in love," Jaswari said. "Oh that, what's the matter," said Santi began to get nervous but tried to hide his nervousness in front of Jaswari. "Is there something wrong with what I said, Jas?" ask Santi back. "There is no San, instead I have drawn San's conclusion" replied Jaswari. "Is that so?" saut Santi has not yet understood. "Iya San, so now I want to talk about it," said Jaswari.

Jaswari stopped and held Santi's hand again as she did at Nurul's house. "What is Jas?" Santi was shocked by what Jaswari had done. "Sstt..just San," pinta Jaswari. "I-yes I understand but this is on the street, if you want to say, later if we've come to my house, yes" asked Santi. Jaswari finally agreed and nodded.

Not long before the two of them arrived in front of Santi's house. "Let's go in Jas" Santi asked. Jaswari went into the house and they sat in the living room. "I take a drink first yes," said Santi. "No need San, I want to continue that one, sitting here next to me" Pinta Jaswari said. Santi did not come and sat next to Jaswari.

After Santi sat down comfortably, Jaswari began to speak. "So right now I hold your hand like this, what I feel is my heart beating fast San," said Jaswari as she held her hand and looked at Santi. "Jas.." That's all that came out of Santi's mouth. "Ya San, I like and love you San. Honestly at first I did not dare to say this, but if I continue to pendam, I also feel restless San," said Jaswari relieved.

Finally the words can be said even Jaswari although his entire body feels cold hot. "I know you must have thought that I got carried away when I was at Nurul's house earlier" said Jaswari. "My answer is no, I've felt this for a long time San, but only today I have the opportunity to talk this to you" Jaswari said again. Santi let go of Jaswari's handrails. "Jas, I don't know what to answer," replied Santi still shocked at what he heard from Jaswari's mouth.

Although yes Santi knew all this time Jaswari likes him, but Santi did not expect that today Jaswari will reveal his feelings. "Thank you you for being honest about how you feel, Jas, but I don't know what to say about your honesty" said Santi, still shocked. "It's okay San, you don't have to answer it now" Jaswari said. "Obviously now I'm relieved to have revealed this to you," said Jaswari again.

Santi took a deep breath. "That's not what I meant by Jas," Santi said, stopping to look for the right words. "Then what," said Jaswari astonished. Santi closed his eyes for a moment and opened his eyes again. "Look Jas, I honestly have the same feeling as you, too," said Santi paused for a moment. Jaswari who heard that was also very happy. "But the thing is, I don't want to date Jas, because I don't think that's the culture of Jas Muslims, do you understand?" santi looked at Jaswari.

Jaswari who was happy to be horrified Santi also liked, but hearing such an answer could only be silent. Santi who knew Jaswari was sad with what he decided was holding Jaswari's hand. "Jas, you have to believe that if we match we will definitely be together later," said Santi. "I just want to focus on school and study first Jas, I hope you understand that," said Santi.

Jaswari looked at Santi, and found honesty in Santi's eyes. "Yes San, I'm not angry, I know what you mean," Jaswari finally spoke. "And I accept your decision, I am very happy today you are also honest about your feelings, at least now I know your heart" said Jaswari. "And I will fight for it later when we both deserve to be in a relationship" Jaswari said again.

Santi agreed. "We remain friends and friends like we used to be, nothing has changed" Santi said. "Yes San, definitely," Jaswari nodded quickly. "And I promise that later I miss you I will play at your house" said Santi. "Keep if I miss, can I play here?" ask Jaswari. "Yes of course it's okay Jas, you can come here at any time," replied Santi nodding in agreement.

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Sugeng and Uus are still waiting for Jaswari at Nurul's house. The two of them were still in the living room with Nurul. "Ck, where did the boy nganterin Santi aja really long," said Sugeng impatiently. "Now Geng, patience napa," said Nurul. "Yes Geng, maybe that boy ngajak Santi muter-muter around the ball field first," he joked Uus. "You know what there is, where there are gini malls around the field, ntar in case of crazy people," laughs Nurul and Sugeng.

The one that appeared with a radiant face. "This is what was awaited not to come" Todong Sugeng when Jaswari appeared before them. "What's the matter, what's the matter?" jaswari asked with an innocent face. "Astaghfirullah Jas, we have been waiting for you to get the moss, and you answered lightly" said Sugeng Kesel. "Hehee, yes sorry-sorry you do not understand very much the same thing itself," defended Jaswari.

"Heeey did not understand how, we are waiting for you here," said Uus. "Yes-yes I'm sorry," said Jaswari clenched his hands together. "Let's be honest earlier did the same Santi," Nurul said. "Why not say Nur, I was walking slowly so I could have an old conversation with Santi," replied Jaswari grinning.

Nurul, Sugeng and Uus only shake their heads with Jaswari's explanation. "But I suspect, from the look of your face like that must have been there something happened," Uus investigated. "Ck, what the heck Us, I said nothing, I just still want to talk to Santi longer, so I'm long way to go," obviously Jaswari was afraid to be discovered that he had already expressed his feelings with Santi.

"Okay, I hold your words, but if you lie beware, yes" threatened Uus. "Ck, napa play threatening Us, I'm good to say, I was talking for a while at Santi's house," finally Jaswari honest. "Well, that's my guess" said Uus. "Keep what happened Jas, you said to Santi frankly," said Sugeng. "Son, I'm just asking for Santi's permission, maybe not if I play at his house next time," Jaswari told a lie.

"Is that all you doang?" ask Nurul. Jaswari just nodded his head. "Well Jas, you should have said frankly with Santi" said Uus disappointed. "Udah ah why you are disappointed anyway, let's go home yuk already malem," asked Jaswari to switch the topic. "Yes already Ayoo," said Sugeng and Uus.

"Nur, we go home first, thank you for today" said Jaswari. "Assalamu'alaikum.kami go home Nur," said the three of them. "Waalaikumussalam." answered Nurul. They also took the public transportation.

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