The End of My First Love

101. Sad And Disappointed

Elsewhere, Jaswari hopes the letter she sent to Santi, will reach her man. But Jaswari's hope was not fulfilled, Jaswari did not know that his letter was even received by his father Santi, even more serious the letter was read by his father Santi and detained. Santi doesn't know yet if there's a letter for him from Jaswari. “Yes Allah what I did is correct, has the letter been read by Santi?” Jaswari said it herself. “Really I just realized that my feelings all this time were not just monkey love but more than that, I already really love Santi,” muttered Jaswari in heart. “Why all this time I did not realize this Yes Allah,” said Jaswari. Seen sadness on the face of Jaswari who was looking forward anxiously waiting for news from his friend who delivered a letter to Santi.

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The sun had already revealed its light, of course because it was already 9am. Today was very bright, seen Jaswari was sitting on the porch of his house while doing his college assignments. Again cool to make a task, heard greetings from the door of his house. “Assalamualaikum.” say Word of his friend Jaswari. “Waalaikumussalam, who's this hour already have a guest.” Jaswari went from her seat to the door of the house. Arriving at the door and opening it, Jaswari was very happy that his guest was the one who was waiting for him from yesterday. “You turned out to be Fir, how new to come here anyway, let's go inside first we chat inside Fir,” said Jaswari while poking Firman's shoulder. “Iya sorry Jas, yesterday I have a job that can not be delayed, so just stamped here today, sorry ya” explained Firman. “Ah Yes Fir is okay, let's sit down,” Jaswari invites the word. “Ya Jas, thank you” replied Firman.

Firman sat on the sofa and immediately got a question from Jaswari. “So how fir, has my letter reached Santi yet,” asked Jaswari to the point to Firman. Seeing the behavior of Jaswari like that Word chuckles amused because this friend is already very impatient with what the Word will say. “Suratnya

sampe Jas, but sorry there was a technical error, but it was accidentally suit, really it was beyond prediction” explained Firman with a worried face. “What do you mean Fir?’ ask Jaswari curiously. “Yesterday when I went to Santi's house to give the letter, know-tau his father Santi came and I could not do anything but give the letter to his father Santi” said Firman explained. “Apaa, how can Fir,” suddenly Jaswari suffocated to hear all that. “Sorry Jas I accidentally, when I saw his father Santi again not at home eh tau-tau nongol out of nowhere.” Obviously Firman resigned that Jaswari would be angry with him. “So what was his letter read by his father Santi?” Jaswari asked again. “Iya Jas, once again sorry,” Word bowed lethargic.

Hearing that, Jaswari breathed a long breath and was silent for a moment. “Ya Fir is okay, thanks for helping me, maybe I should meet directly with Santi.” Jaswari pasrah. “But Jas, I have not finished delivering Santi's news, actually there is still one more that I want to convey to you Jas,” said Firman in a soft voice. “Indeed there is an important thing what you said about Santi,” asked Jaswari curiously. Word hesitates to talk about Santi's proposal but if not delivered to Jaswari is also wrong. Finally with a heavy heart the word spoke up. “To be exact yesterday, I also just knew this morning from mamah, that Santi had been proposed by Jas,” finally Firman plong can talk this to Jaswari. Duuaar like being struck by lightning, Jaswari was shocked to hear what the Word had to say. Pupus had hoped to say that he wanted to propose to Santi. Because the man Jaswari wanted belonged to someone else.

Seeing the look on Jaswari's face that was very sad, the Word so heartless. But how else, maybe Santi and Jaswari have not been paired. Finally Firman was ready to go home, because the goal to Jaswari's house was finished. “Ya I have gone home first yes Jas, who is patient yes,” said Word while patting Jaswari's shoulder. “Assalamualaikum.” says Word. “Ya Fir, thanks. Waalaikumussalam,” answered Jaswari while driving Firman to his doorstep.

Jaswari took a long breath. “Hmmm..mamah can not be lied to deh, hehehe,” Jaswari smile forced. “Yes I've been going to tell you, gini was the Word here telling me about Santi...” Jaswari starts the story to Bu Hindun. What was said by Firman Jaswari recounted back to his mother. Bu Hindun patiently listened to her son's story until it was over. “Once the story goes,” Jaswari sighed. “Yes already maybe Son Santi is not your soul mate Jas, you must sincerely accept all this,” advice Bu Hindun. “And remember if Santi sees you like this he will also be sad. Yang Mamah saw all this time, he likes to play here like Nak Santi also likes you, but Mamah also does not know why this can happen,” Bu Hindun gave his view. “So the advice of Mamah husnudzon alone with Santi, so far you have also not met Santi, continued Santi also has not played here for a long time, right?” bu Hindun said at length advising Jaswari. “Ya already mendingan you just rest in the room rather than standing in front of the door like gini,” said Bu Hindun.

Without answering a single word to his mother, Jaswari went straight into the room. Jaswari forgot her college assignment that she was working on. After being in the room, Jaswari went straight to the closet drawer. He took something in the drawer, and then the thing Jaswari took was torn. With a feeling of uncertainty and holding back emotions, Jaswari still faithfully tore the objects he took out earlier in the drawer. “Really San, this is very painful, I am disappointed with what I heard today about you,” Jaswari could not hold his tears out that he could not bear from earlier. “This past few months I have been very sure that you will receive my application,” Jaswari continues to cry. “But in fact it was all my dream,” Jaswari sat down near the bed and was still faithful to her cries.

After a while, Jaswari went out of the room to the back of his house, carrying the tear. Arriving at the back of the house, Jaswari burned everything he had torn off earlier in a used can. And it turned out that everything Jaswari had torn was all the things that Santi had given Jaswari. Disappointed, sad, angry so one, and that's what Jaswari now feels. To vent his feelings, without thinking again Jaswari threw away all the memories related to Santi. The trick is to burn all the gifts Santi.

All the goods from Santi have been burned to the ground, with Jaswari's footstep heading to the terrace of the house to take his duties that are still faithful there. After tidying it up, Jaswari took it to her room and continued to do her college work in her room. With uncertain feelings, Jaswari remained

finish his college assignments, because they have to be collected tomorrow.

Seriate......