Tainted On The First Night

Want to learn to cook

At that time Mila also walked down the road with her small footsteps that felt heavy. When she is compared to a better woman, wealthy and from a respectable family.

Not all women are born the same way, women are all the same. Why do I feel different because of wealth and honor. I feel different, is not my suffering deep enough. Why the more I come here the deeper and heavier I go through it all. O God, I have only been married for two days only I feel that being a wife has been this difficult with such a terrible test that I myself never imagined if this test that I'm going to be this heavy. To whom and where I lean if I can't help myself. I just want to wish I was always strong. Inner Mila who at that time felt pain in her heart.

The insinuation for the satire spoken by her in-laws really made Mila's heart cut and pierced so deeply.

Mila closed her eyes, breathing slowly.

Mila went back to the room where she slept. And where was the first time Mila was slept with by another man who was not her husband.

Maybe this feels heavy but Mila must be strong, because this is where Mila's paradise is inhabited by Mila. Although until now Reza still has not given a little inner living to Mila.

With Mila's heart..

If all women are happy with their new status, the sadness so struck the heart of Mila to the deepest recesses of the heart.

Until nightfall...

That night it was raining, Mila was staring at the water coming down from the sky through the window.

It was 22:00 and Reza didn't come home from his office. Reza was right when he was written, that he went from Mila to calm his heart. If Reza goes to calm her heart to go.

What is the news of Mila, who is exactly the opposite in filled with a sense of unease because Reza who actually chose to leave.

Why is my household this sick, why is all my journey so painful. I just sailed but I was shipwrecked first. Why all the inner pain Mila did not feel dropping her tears.

Mila again stroked her cold-looking mattress.

What about a Reza tonight, if she can sleep if she can sleep tonight. Or is she like me who can't sleep tonight, Mila curled up and looked at the empty bed next to her.

Mila also took her mobile phone trying to contact but there was still no answer and worse Reza's number was off.

Mila was back stroking the soft mattress that now Mila has changed a new bed sheet, Mila just stared at the mattress next to her empty with a sad look.

Until finally Mila hugged the bolster while closing her eyes and imagining if the bolster was a beloved husband.

"A Reza Mila please don't leave again, don't leave Mila. Mila is sad and devastated as a Reza leaves Mila. Mila is just affectionate with a Reza, very dear to the same A Reza huhuhu hyks hyks" said Mila who hallucinated that Reza was a bolster that he embraced.

Mila did not feel asleep in a wet state with tears.

Till..

The next day Mila also woke up when it showed at 04.00 am Mila also saw himself reflected, his eyes looked swollen with tears last night. Mila almost rarely cried, even though life did not match her expectations but this time felt different this test was so very heartbreaking.

And..

Mila accidentally opened the closet and saw a black lingerie in the closet, the lingerie was a gift from the hand. Mila's mind was only sore when the items she should be able to use for her husband were only displayed in the closet.

Mila was momentarily silent and before long the dawn adhan was heard, Mila decided to pray at dawn. Praying alone without anyone.

Until finally on that morning Mila also helped cook with bi Sarmi. Bi Sarmi said if you want to teach Mila to cook, as long as Mila lives in the Husein family home bi Sarmi cuisine is very good. Makes Mila happy when she eats it.

"Bi Sarmi sure will teach me how to cook?" Tanya Mila who saw bi Sarmi was busy in the kitchen.

"Yes non"

"Don't call non Mila"

"Eh no ah aunt does not usually call the name if the same employer, let alone this wife of Mr. Reza"

"Bi just relax, Mila is also no one just an ordinary person. But where can Bi Sarmi cook from? Studying alone or what?" Ask Mila who at that time helped cut vegetables.

"Awas ya non hit the hand, the knife sharply exhausted aunt earlier" explained Bi Sarmi who still called non to Mila.

"Bi call Mila just don't use non yes" said Mila.

"It's up to aunt ajalah" replied Mila resigned.

Instantly bi Sarmi also saw Mila whose eyes were very swollen.

"Non" said bi Sarmi.

"Yes Bi" replied Mila.

"Non Mila was crying all night" asked the aunt.

"Who said?"

"Non Mila's eyes are swollen"

Momentarily Mila breathed her heavy breath.

"Yes, yes bi" replied Mila.

"the patient one" said the aunt.

"God willing Mila is always patient, thank you Bi" said Mila.

"But aunty hasn't answered, aunt learned how to cook or how to cook" said Mila.

"Oh auntie can cook because her mother's aunt pinter cooks, she teaches cooking. Non-Mila can cook what? Taught to cook what's the mother?" Tanya Bi Sarmi's.

Mila was silent at once as a child shook her head.

"Never, never once did my mom teach me how to cook"

"For fear of fire"

"Not but my mama went somewhere when I was a little bi"

"How come" asked Bi Sarmi.

"In essence we do not discuss my mother first yes, we discuss cooking alone"

"sorry, auntie, not the mascudine, reminds me" said the aunt.

"it's okay" said Mila.

"What is it that does not want to cook, is it because of something that makes non want to be able to cook?" ask Bi Sarmi.

"Yes, yesterday I tried Arini's cooking. Delicious bi, very good Mila does not want to rival Arini just that Mila wants to learn to cook for A Reza, Mila Bi's husband" said Mila explained.

"Well done" Bi Sarmi replied.

"Yes, Mila wants to pay attention to a Reza. Giving sincere love to a Reza through the cuisine that Mila makes. Although still aided by aunt is okay" said Mila smiled.

"Obviously it's okay non Mila, let's make it yes" said bi Sarmi.

"Yes bi"

Suddenly Arini's voice came early in the morning with food and Arini's arrival was clearly greeted by Umi Saidah who was Arini even like her daughter-in-law, unlike Mila who was only considered non-existent at that time.

even then Mila saw Umi Saidah seem so warm embrace Arini. And this time it looks like Arini is coming with her mom. Mila only smiled bitterly when she saw the togetherness of Umi Saidah and Arini.

Mila who caught a glimpse from the kitchen let out a long sigh as Arini was like the person most dear to Umi Saidah.

Mila was back down and felt bitter when all things were so painful in the heart.

Bi Sarmi looked at Mila and looked at Mila, realizing that Mila was currently breaking her heart with all the harsh realities. In addition, the presence of Arini who seemed able to tear down the confidence of Mila who from the beginning had been destroyed.