SUPPOSE I EXIST
think..
Arriving at the sifa campus directly to the classroom .in the classroom already many students who have sat in their respective places.before long lecturers come to deliver matkul lessons today.
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finished the lesson this time sifa and her four friends went to the cafeteria to perform a ritual to provide nutrition for worms in their stomachs .
not long before the food orders arrived
" sif loe was at home bokap loe?". Sinta asked while putting meatballs in her mouth
" hemm..so ".
" trus trus ape that wants to be talked about bokab loe ". kepo angga . indeed this mango looks like a real man but the soul of his memo exceeds the mother mother complex .
" don't say what , just kangen aja .bohong sifa , he did not let his friends know the problems he and his family experienced . indeed their friendship can be said to be close like a brother , ' he did not want to know his friends , but this is a family problem and not everyone needs to know including friends.
" cook the hell, how strange did it arrive - arrived parents loe kagen same loe ?
" where do I know .the people they say just kangen aja same me .
" or maybe there's something you're hiding from us?
you lied to sif?
" nothing I hid from all of you . indeed that's what was in the frog bokab ge earlier . sure sifa to his friend." maybe they started to realize yes " . continued sifa .
" maybe yes . they're starting to realize what they did during this time was wrong ."
" dah lah kapain in thought . continue eating a kasian food we hunted cold later . sifa tried to divert the conversation .
"sorry I can't be honest someday you guys will understand .... ". inner sifa .
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at 9 pm sifa went home and immediately cleaned the body that feels sticky because of sweat .
after self-cleaning sifa continue with the fall on her thin mattress that accompanied her for less than 2 years .
counted 2 more days he had to give a certainty answer to his papa . trying to think about taking a mature decision before stepping .
" what should I do after this . guman sifa by looking at the sky over his contract .
" do I have to accept or accept papa's request ? help me god .
huffff…………
the breath feels heavy, but not as heavy as the fikran load that is felt .
not only does his family now depend on him but also hundreds of families are now put .
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Did not feel 3 days passed . today sifa must give an answer to her papa request .
an appointment with the father occurred at one of the luxury restaurants his family subscription .
choosing a private room sifa will convey the decision .
" excuse me if anyone can help miss?". ask a friendly restaurant staff.
" yes brother, the table in the name of the baby where is it ?
" ohhh, the bayu master is in the second floor private room miss .let me deliver .
climbing the stairs that are not too much now sifa has arrived in front of the room that his papa has ordered .
" this is the room Miss . pak bayu is waiting in dalan , please .
" thank you brother .
" same miss . I'm sorry .
after the waiter left now live sifa alone standing in front of the door of the private room . hands that had been incessantly sweat cold because of nervousness .
after knocking 3 times sifa ventured to open the door of the room .
" Assalamallaikum pa , you have a mom too ?".
" walaikumsallam dear, here dear sitting . pat the seat next to mama kinar sitting." yes dear mama also come along . mama kangen same you ". answered mama kinar hugging sifa
" walaikumsallam nak ". now papa bayu answer .
" how did you go to college dear smoothly right?". asked mama kinar soft .
" fluent ma, alkhamdulillah ".
" sukurlah mama happy to hearnab. mama kinar's smile felt shady in sifa's eyes.
" before we talk how if we eat first . hunt cold later food dear later.
now the baby interrupts the conversation of the mother and child .
" yes come on baby we eat . mama kinar painstakingly took food for her husband and daughter ..
sifa was shocked because mama kinar wanted to take food for sifa . usually first if she wanted to eat yes mbil herself, her mother always refused on the grounds of having to be independent .
" te. thank you ma " . nervous sifa received a plate spoon full of food .
" yes same darling . already let's eat baby," .
" yes ma...
after finishing eating, the waiter is now doing their job of cleaning up the leftovers and also the dirty dishes used by them . while waiting for the restaurant waiter to finish they are still busy with their respective activities, respectively , not far from HP .
" sinta did not join ma . sifa tried to open the conversation .
" no dear , please today there is an appointment to watch his friend . so he does not come with us .
" ohhh . gitu . replied sifa while mangosteen.
" so how sifa about papa request 3 days ago . You already have the answer? . if not okay, dear papa can wait ". ask the baby who started the conversation .
" no need pa . sifa already have a decision. therefore sifa make a promise to be with papa today".
" your answer is what is dear?". while stroking the back of sifa's hand mama kinar tried to give strength to her child .she knew the nervousness felt by her daughter.
" yes pa ma . sifa wants to marry Mr. Agus' son ".
" ap ......what ... do you accept sir agus nak's request ? ask papa bayu trying to convince her what she heard just now .
" yes pa sifa mau . steady sifa.
" thank you dear . terimakaih you have granted pak Agus leave . binar happy can not be hidden mama kinar .
the relief that she felt at this time .the company that her husband led did not have to be closed .
" yes same - same " . answer sincere sifa .
" excuse me papa nak, if in the office there is no intruder maybe our company is still safe . and papa is not likely to sacrifice your future son . sorry papa bayu feel not right to run the company that is currently led.
" papa ndak need to apologize . only this can sifa help for the company . besides this sifa can not. this is the obligation sifa help sifa parents sifa .
feeling slapped with the statement sifa papa bayu can only look down . even just to lift his face in front of his daughter alone can not . he was ashamed of the princess who had been ignored so far was not considered now who helped him in times of difficult sedan .
" god forgive the sin of your servant . The servant has deliberately abandoned the son of the servant himself does not consider it to exist, ignoring it is precisely now who helps the servant in times of trouble . forgive your servant this god .in papa bayu scream .
" later papa akam immediately contact Mr. Agus to discuss this matter .
" yes pa the faster the better ". continued mama kinar relieved .
" what about you dear ". yes it does not leave the child unhappy . if the child is happy then he is also happy .
" it's up to mom and dad . sifa follow ". answer sifa what is . who feels now just empty neither happy nor sad .
" may this path I choose be the best path for me and my family "inner sifa .
