SUPPOSE I EXIST

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arriving in sifa's room shed all her cries .

*god why, why should I feel all this . I am also his son, I also feel the love of my parents .

can't they turn a little for me 'can't they appreciate my presence 'couldn't want to be in the world if this is what I get .

until when is god, until when* .

hiks .. hiks..

tock.tok.

" non, no sifa .." pangil bi inah

bi Inah is very worried about her young lady, yes just heard what the baby sir said .

actually make pity on sifa , but anyway she's here just a housekeeper . not nerani defend her young miss .

ceklek…………

" yeah bik what "sifa came out with her eyes puffed out crying .

" miss is calling you to dinner", continued the pussy

seeing eyes as sifa bi inah can feel the feeling of pain . bi inah is the one who has been caring for and caring for small sifa when his parents are busy pouring out his affection on sinta .

"so you are non-pity, if the aunt has the power will bring you non . we live together sorrow non. forgive the aunt who can not anything this is non ", mind bik inah screaming.

" tell them I'm still full bik ,",

" but non , later non sifa sajit if not immediately eat ", between bi inah

" i will not why - napa bik , believe me "answer sifa sambi grasping the hand of the bik inah .

" well non, ", break up .

while at the dinner table there is a small family who is eating and high in laughter from people who are there .

if you ask if they don't wait for sifa, the answer is no .

they will not even care if sifa eat or not. What is important is their anal singleness that is love, not to lack of affection .

evil indeed but this is the reality of life lived by sifa . not considered even with his own biological family .

"sorry master non sifa refused to eat, he said he was still full ", let him tell

"what else is the child's reward, the more mature the more difficult to set . not like the love that is always obedient .", replied mama kinar with emotion .

" whether it's mah, just let him . if hungry must find it yourself" replied papa bayu

" alah , most angry because papa equally mama would not take rapper kak sifa . basic crybaby", sela sinta , who did not like the existence of sifa in their lives.

well sifa, sweet girl with high proportions, white skin, and also a typical oriental face of Asian women . but unfortunately the perfection she has is inversely proportional to the life she lives .

even this beauty of hers requires her brother to be envious of her .

in various ways she tried to seize what her brother had, not least the affection of her parents .

well even with sadistic solitaire asking his parents to move sifa from the main house to the back pavilion of the house .the actual pavilion is used umtuk place of rest of the maid in the ruamah.

under the pretext that every look sifa , Sinta will feel pain in her chest . sounds strange indeed but this is the reality .

even his parents did not have the slightest defense for sifa at that time.

all they need is the comfort of the love .

sifa accepted all of that, albeit with pain running through her heart .

it's okay if that's what you want, she said .

" already - has quickly finished the meal dear, do not need to think sifa . ", sidelines mama kinar with soft language.

" tomorrow we will do a check up at the RS yes dear, papa's assistant has made an appointment with his doctor .", papa bayu divert the conversation . and of course with soft language .

" but I want to check her up at papa's company with mama.; pinta sinta with spoiled .

" yes dear , papa sama mama will memenin you check up . you don't worry ya ,,,", replied mama kinar gently while stroking her hair love.

" yes dear, papa will clear the schedule tomorrow , only for papa's beloved daughter" said papa bayu.

" great seneng ma , thank you, mah", replied sinta while hugging her mother .

" *rasain lo sifa, it's good in the same cuekin mama and papa . slowly lo land I will make sure out of this house, bahakan from the heart of mama and papa. ", ", slowly I will make sure you get out of this house. ", inner sinta while smiling groaned .

" god pity the non sifa, "inner mind bik inah who still watched the scene in the depanyan* .

tapmpa they know that , sifa is listening to her parents' conversation .

pain felt in the hit a thousand thorns, it was felt . what difference he with his sister . they are the same - the same birth child .

but their treatment seems to be sifa not from their family.

sifa walked into the room with a blank stare, her heart crumbling dimly .

morning to 'morning, today is the day where the rap takes for sifa and also sinta . but the difference if the sinta is taken by both parents then the opposite is with sifa which this time rapotnya picked up by bik inah .

not only this time even the first day sifa entered paud school, make this the one who accompanied and who took the rapot .

if asked where her parents answered the same . again busy pouring out her affection for love .

until they forget the other kids.

after preparing to leave her room .

" bik , are you ready? ", sinta

" it's non, let's go late to get angkotnya because of bad luck .", replied bikah

" yeah ayok ", hold sifa while smiling happily .

di saudah decided not to hope again to his parents .he would learn to start independent life without the help of his parents .

on the terrace he passed by his parents who would also take a sinta rapot .

" you so take the same rap as make ", papah bayu asked sifa .

" yes", replied sifa with a flat tone tampa expression .

sinta who saw it all just smiled mockingly .

sifa walked past her parents without looking at her parents .

" let's master ", say hello while pursuing the sifa step that has been the way first .

"hemmm", papa bayu's answer .

" rasain loe, good feelings . ", inner love grinning .

" let's go to our late hunt later . ", pinta mama kinar

" yes come on ma, come on baby "take clothes with the child and his wife .

" road sir ", tell your baby sir

" well sir", sir joko salute

sesambainya at school sifa memita bik inah to queue rapot in the classroom 3, while sifa walked to the park to meet his four loyal friends .

" hi", sifa

" woi, hi" replied nadin

" he is also a pretty sifa ", greet her somplak friend .

" wih more beautiful aja lo sif. ", this time the zaki is impressive

" emang from orok I am beautiful, so what you said was a fact yes ", replied sifa demgan pedenya .

" foolish base, playboy lo wrong place cuy, sifa lo kadalin does not have ."; sela reva .

the four of them are friends from SD , SMP , to High School . because sifa is a school in one of the countries in the city of J .

in contrast to Sinta who attended school in an elite place, with international standards .

which of course all students there from among business people .