SUPPOSE I EXIST
2 Years later
Haei is right up to 7 sifa left the house. early in the morning before leaving for work she was startled by the knock of the door .
tock... tok ..
" yes for a moment, saipa morning - this morning has been a guest . do not know what people want to go to work .
kink …
" mama, papa . napain here .
" you are a parent who is not asked to come in and ask first .
"into ma pa ".
" what's the morning - the morning is in my contract? with flat .
" just want to see if we can live without mom and dad or ngak . replied mama kinar .
" nanya tumben . usually also does not care about me.
"here I feel more comfortable aja, ngak kayak at home . I exist but feel no .song sifa
" you can make money to pay this rent from where sif ? ask papa bayu
" work pa .
" work where "? mama Kinar tried to find out where the money in the daughter got until she could decide to get out of the house .
" i got money from working at ma pa's restaurant, fluent ? usually my mom and dad don't care what I do .
" you don't talk like that sifa, papa work also for you as well your sister also . said papa bayu with lembt
" from when papa can talk softly with me, usually soft talk is also the same love .
" and if papa says papa works for me just as much, try me ask when was the last time papa give me pocket money?
silent papa bayu forgot, exactly forgot when last gave pocket money to his daughter .
" embarked ? papa forgot, right ? yes, I forgot the person in my mind just love aja . kususnya .
" sorry papa sifa, papa really - totally forgot . papa will replace everything, from last papa do not give you sampi money now
"but papa beg you to go home ? pinta papa bayu .
" i'm sorry papa's mistake same mom not only there aja . there are still many mistakes that can not be told . because sifa sure papa and mama also have forgotten .
and to return to the house it does not feel superior because sifa is already comfortable with the life of sifa now .
papa do not have to worry anymore, sifa will not disturb papa mama and also sinta again.sifa will try with her own hard work sifa . so papa and mama can focus more on taking care of love tampa have to think about me again . replied sifa at length and certainly able to make his parents not mamapu to oppose what in inggin right his daughter .
because I know what he did all this time was able to scratch the wound in the dalan for his daughter.
away maybe this is the path chosen sifa to reduce the pain that has been felt so far . all this time trying to be patient with the situation but not enough to accept all the injustice that it does not feel .
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and for two years it sifa really opened up the point that yes will not disturb his family anymore .
even a few times her mom and dad came just to persuade her to go home but just get a rejection from her .
once upon a time his papa came and offered ATM and credit cards for his living expenses, but sifa declined subtly . by persuading his papa now sifa only holds an ATM card which has always been filled with monthly money from his papa .
the nominal is quite fantastic for sifa . but sifa never use the money in the ATM . It is better to eat with his labor than to give his papa .
and during that time also sifa in the dampinggi his loyal friend who else if not the nadin, willa, zaki and also the pride who is always nearby . there are times of joy or sorrow .
now sifa entered the lecture bench . housed in the faculty of his dream with a meeting that is not easy of course . with sifa scholarship can study at the renowned faculty in the city of J without help from his parents .
" fif today you work what you do, ask nadin who is now in the front garden of the campus in the company of 3 other friends .
" work, why ?"
" no why - why is it just aja . he said loe told to go home with bonyok ?
yesterday sifa on her papa phone to ask her to come home because there is something to say .for the various times her parents asked her to go home and sifa was no longer able to refuse her parents' wishes .
" tomorrow I'll go home ,"
" tumben loe want to be told to go home usually there is always a reason that you make ," between zaki who is a bit strange with his friends tumben - tumbenan want to go home. this time the suspect guess about what his papa friend will do
"tau bokap he said someone wanted to talk about he said important ,
" or don't don't bokab loe with severe disease and his last high want to keteme loe sif? this time the wida who suspected the guess of what his papa friend would do
" ngaco aja loe, bokap I'm healthy yes .
" yes times, I'm just gonna doang sif .
" already - I want to go home and go to work . break up sifa while going far .
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" kasian sifa, the son of a rich man but having to fight for his own survival." nadin monologue
" yes yes, but it is useless if the property is abundant but there is no happiness in it.song zaki
" tumben kata - kata loe bener zak . tanya angga while laughing out loud . tumben aja zaki aja can talk real
" fucking loe, yokey zaki while throwing gravel at the mango.
" already - it's like a boy you on, already ah want to unplug gae .
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in the karja place today sifa works as usual . always displays a smile and does not forget the joke that always makes his friends - his other friends laugh. well like this is the daily work done sifa college and work again .
laughing just to cover the sadness that is in Rasaka today . had to work hard at his young age , when his peers play instead work slam bones for the cost of his life . for course his college does not need to pay.
because sifa includes students who are intelligent . but yes can not complain, this is the path chosen sifa first and now sifa already accustomed to hard life.
when his peers are still spoiled with his parents but not with sifa . who must swallow disappointment against the behavior of his own parents .
tampa was denied that sifa was also envious of the lives of her friends who lived harmoniously and also received full affection from her parents .
no need to live a luxurious life and bekelimang treasure that he wants . but a warm and harmonious life that he wants . sometimes he feels this with his friends even though life is peaceful but they remain happy with its simplicity .
But this is the life of a sifa who must live in loneliness in his solitude.
