Sorry, If I'm Two

Peace with Heart

With Beni walking towards Omar's base, confused as to what he should do to Wiliam, his heart raged on, repeatedly thinking of undoing his intention of going there, but all must end, his grudges and resentments cannot continue to hold him in his hand and keep it in his heart, he wants to take it all off, end the pain he has suffered for many years.

Beni thought for a moment when he would enter the high gate to the residence of Omar, what he would do to Wiliam, the person who had forcibly snatched away the people he loved, he said, would everything be fair if he behaved in the same way as Wiliam did ?

Doesn't that mean he's no different than Wiliam who behaves depraved ?

His promise to Inayah tinggalang kept in the ears, the shadow of a baby like his successor who is now in the stomach Inayah also seemed to dance in the eye fertilizers.

No, he must not pass on hatred and resentment to his son in the future, everything must be ended, he must learn iklas and let go of what should be released, it is enough to end with him, it is all over, after this it's time to start it all off, starting a new chapter as a happy little family.

There are more important things Beni must do than take revenge, but guard and protect his son and wife.

"Ben, you've come !" oman's voice shocked Beni who was drowning in his daydream.

"Ah, yes, ! Om have Wiliam arrested ?" ask Beni.

Omar just nodded with a slightly different face, showing no joy at getting his game.

"Why ? Is there a problem ?" search Beni.

"I'm sorry, I didn't catch him whole !" omar's words raised many questions in Beni's mind.

"Not whole ? Meaning ?" surprised Beni, his mind had imagined something terrible.

"Follow me !" invite Omar to lead Beni to a room behind his headquarters.

"Om, has om been --? Without telling me ?" asked Beni who realized that the room was the room where the execution of 'goods for sale' Omar, Beni's steps felt heavier, as powerful as Beni dragged his feet to step into the terrible room.

"No, I can't do anything without your permission first, he's yours, of course I won't touch him any further" Omar said.

When the door of the room made of thick iron was opened, the smell of blood rancid, Beni's stomach felt like it was being swirled and the whole contents seemed to race out.

Omar glanced at Beni's pale-looking face withstanding the nausea, she said,

"are you okay ?" ask Omar sedkit hawatir.

"My stomach doesn't seem okay !" beni answered while holding her stomach to hold her stomach so that her stomach would not come out there.

There were many bulkheads in the room, though, and some people passed by in all-white clothes some people were even seen coming out of the bulkhead wearing headgear and gloves that were still covered in blood.

No one spoke to each other in the room, they only occasionally bowed their heads when they passed Omar a sign of respect.

"It's mister, and he's still asleep like a baby !" answer the man Omar asked.

Omar just nodded his head nod and signaled for the man to leave.

"Come !" take Omar to take Beni to one of the rooms.

The first sight Beni saw was Wiliam who was lying on the patient's bed with his eyes closed, his body covered with a white blanket to the chest.

"What happened to him ?" ask Beni.

Omar took a few steps closer towards the bed where William lay, at the outcrop of the blanket covering William's sleeping body.

Beni covered her gaping mouth with one of her hands for a moment as powerless to hold back her shock with what she was seeing right now.

"As things stand now, it's up to you what he's next !" said Omar.

"Why did it get like that, what happened ?" Beni looked at Iba Wiliam's foot which now only left his left leg, while his right leg was wrapped in a bandage to the thigh.

"When my men caught him, he revolted, and tried to escape by plunging into the sea from the boat, but his fate was unlucky, his right leg was caught by the ship's propeller, the ship's propeller, his legs can't be saved anymore, I told the medics to take care of him, and this is the result, this is the best thing we can do !" omar explained, he could read that Beni was starting to feel pity and that resentment was slowly fading from his heart.

Beni looked up and rushed out of the room immediately, her heart not strong enough to see her mortal enemy end tragically like that, instead of being happy and content to see William suffer for the rest of his life, his heart felt pity, there was a lump of guilt, he felt that he was participating in what Wiliam was experiencing at this time.

"Don't blame yourself, it's God's destiny, the fruit he has to receive from his actions, you believe God is fair, right ? Maybe one day I will also receive karma from what I have done so far, all good or bad deeds will return to ourselves everything we do, comeback to us !" Omar grabs Beni's shoulder and tries to calm her nephew, despite being only a step-nephew, but Omar loves Beni like a child.

"Am I evil and have been unjust to the Monik, if I have pity on William ?" lirih Beni, her inner struggle is becoming more and more.

Now Beni feels like he's in the wrong position, no matter what he does he feels like a cruel person.

Beni will feel very cruel to his sister if he just let Wiliam, and on the contrary he will feel cruel to himself if he continues his revenge on Wiliam who is clearly helpless.

"Ben, there are times when we should try to make peace with the situation, make peace with yourself, try to forgive yourself, and you will easily forgive others !" omar continued, even though he is a bad mafia but he never taught his children and nephews to be like him, let alone down or bequeath his black business to David or Beni, let alone, he just wanted his son and nephew to walk the right path, for that he kept his identity as a mafia in all his family, even though Beni accidentally knew it all.

"So, what's your next decision ?" ask Omar again.

Beni let out a long and deep sigh, her heart could not yet decide, yet,

"I will try to make peace with my heart, forgive myself, but I can't guarantee that I can make peace and forgive him,!" said Beni.

"For a while, let him recover and live !" he continued, he really could not take any decision for the continuation of his attitude to Wiliam.