Sorry, If I'm Two

You're Not Alone

Beni enters the parking lot of a star hotel, then invites Inayah to come down with him.

He stayed silent for a moment,

"W-why go to the hotel mas ?" ask Inayah suspiciously.

"We're eating for a while, you haven't had dinner yet, have we ?" said Beni.

Inayah followed Beni's hesitant steps, entering the star-studded hotel whose high-rise building was towering.

There was no chat between the two of them while heading to the destination, the hotel rooftop that Beni had ordered since last afternoon.

After a few minutes they finally arrived at a table decorated with all-white flowers, with candles burning in a small glass filled with colorful liquid, and, there are only two seats in the front-facing setting with a star-studded sky roof that night makes the atmosphere more romantic.

"Mas, it looks like we're misplaced" whispered Inayah.

"Why ?" asked Beni furrowing both of her eyebrows.

"This place is already in the message of people, it's look, on the table already there is writing, look elsewhere aja yuk !" said Inayah innocently while pointing to the reservation written in the middle of the table.

"What's wrong, we will leave if the person who booked this place has come," said Beni flatly.

"Ish, I can't do that, shame !" Inayah looked to the right and to the left, fearing that the person who ordered the place was there, but there was no one else there other than the two of them and a hotel clerk who was closing in on him.

"No, we're gonna get kicked out, let's go, go !" Inayah shook Beni's arm which held back her laughter looking at Inayah's frightened innocent behavior.

"Excuse me sir, can I bring the food here now and serve it ?" asked a man who seemed to be a hotel employee to greet Beni politely.

"Yes, just bring it here now" said Beni.

"Mas !?" Inayah looked at Beni questioningly.

"I ordered this place," said Beni with a sweet smile made Inayah's heart suddenly slip and rustle strangely.

"I mean, the mas who ordered and prepared all this ?" ask Inayah not to believe.

"Just book, which prepares the hotel staff, not me !" Beni laughs jahil.

"But mas, there is an event what mas Beni makes a rich gini event ? Did Beni repeat, huh ? Well, where do I not know anymore, if you know I bought a gift !" plain Inayah said.

"What would you say if I had a birthday today ?" beni Goda.

"What yes,, confused ! I want to give you a do'a for Beni mas, hopefully mas given inner calm, and patiently face all the trials of life !" inayah said seriously.

"Hmm, good do'a, unfortunately today is not my birthday, but can your do'a I ask even though today is not my birthday ?" pinta Beni looked at the face of Inayah who looked more charming in the moonlight and darkly flickering thousands of stars that seemed to be watching the two of them together.

"I purposely booked this place this afternoon, there was no event what, just wanted to feel alone eating with another atmosphere like this, with you !" beni flat said.

Deg, Inaya's heart suddenly felt like sliding from the top of that tall building,

"Why me ?" nervous Inayah.

"Who should it be ? Honestly besides my mother and Monik, right now I feel comfortable with you," said Beni casually.

"Mas, I'm sorry that I'm so presumptuous, but, I wonder, what exactly is the relationship between Wiliam and my brother Monik ?" inayah asked hesitantly, her intelligence since earlier in the apartment seemed to continue to disturb her mind, making her dare to ask Beni.

Beni turned her face to the sky, like enduring the millions of pains that were cramping her chest, the tightness and pain she endured for years alone, as if she could not stand it anymore, maybe now when he shares his story with the woman before him.

Moreover, Inayah had accidentally entered and was involved in life problems and the secret veil that she had been keeping in her heart, it seems unfair if Beni just drags Inayah in the maelstrom of her troubles with Beni without the woman knowing what problems are going on with the two men actually.

Beni heaved a heavy sigh, after a while she was only speechless looking at the sky with reddened eyes holding back the cries and damming the clear crystal so as not to rebel then spilled from both corners of her eyes.

"Monik, my only beloved sister, had to be forcibly taken from my life, she went away horribly because of a bastard named Wiliam subagja,!" with a choked and heavy voice Beni started his story.

"The moniker is ---?" inayah did not dare to continue her question.

"Yes, my brother's monik is dead, he killed himself when he was pregnant with the son of that bastard, because that bastard Wiliam was not willing to take responsibility for his actions, he even told my sister to drop her womb, "Beni paused her speech, her heart felt sore as if it was iris when it had to remember the events of that time.

"What made it more painful was the reason the bastard refused to take responsibility, he said that what he did with my sister was just an escape from the male turmoil that Tania betrayed, Fucking william !!!" Beni began slamming the plate before her, her eyes turning red with flames of anger that seemed real along with her reddened face.

Inayah jumped from the chair where she was sitting, she immediately approached Beni who began to sweat coldly on her face and all over her body.

"Mas, already, no, no need to continue your story, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't want Beni to be like this, I'm calm, first,!" panicked Inayah ventured to embrace Beni's trembling body.

Inayah rubbed Beni's back, calming the man who was now being tormented by the bitter memory of his past.

"He, he, he, that bastard also took my mother's life, I won't forgive him, I'll avenge all the pain he's given my family I swear !" said Beni brick in a warm embrace Inayah, who gradually can make himself a little calm even without having to take the medicine.

since the departure of her sister and mother, Beni did suffer from severe depression, and will relapse if the memory of the tragic events of her sister and mother crossed her memory, what else if she accidentally remembered him, beni's emotions will be more uncontrollable as it is today, and the only way to end his suffering is to take antidepressant drugs.

So he became dependent on the drug because almost every night after he lived a kara he could not close his eyes calmly.

"Stop it, don't tell me anymore, I'm sorry, I won't ask you what else about it, I don't want you to be tormented like this !" said Inayah while sobbing,

Really Inayah could not bear to see the condition of Beni who looked very painful, she felt very guilty because it seemed to force Beni to tell her family problems.

"I'll accompany you through everything, mas. You're not alone, I'm with you !" inayah said not to let go of her embrace.