Shackles of Suffering
Fretted
After knowing I was pregnant dimas treated me very kindly and gently, even now at home in the employ of a maid, a middle-aged woman named bi nani.
At first I refused because I was also still able to, but dimas did not allow me to do all the homework myself, eventually I relented and obeyed dimas.
" Ros, I'm not going home tonight, there's a show with a friend to discuss work" said dimas while stroking my hair.
" When is it home?" Ask me while I wake up to lean on my bed.
" Tomorrow afternoon, won't I stay?2?" Ask dimas.
" It's okay2, I'm fine2 don't worry" I replied.
" Yes I'm leaving now, you're good2 yes at home" said dimas as he got up and kissed my forehead.
" Yes dimas, livers2 on the way" I answered, as I walked out of the room, I looked back at the dimas until it disappeared at the door, I took a deep breath that felt heavy.
I thought again and remembered what happened before I was discovered I was pregnant, when you touched me it was my fertile period.
While dimas did it first when I was no longer fertile period, huh allah what should I do ??? Bhatinku, arrived2 my room door was knocked bi nani from outside.
" Neng ros, sleeping ga neng? Ask bi nani from the outside.
" Ga bi, just go in" I replied quickly, the door to the room was open and bi nani entered.
" Dine is ready neng, would neng ros want to eat under what aunt brought here?" Tanya bi nani's.
" I just go down below bi, pegel also continue2an tiduran mah" I replied.
" Yes, let auntie help fear ros dizziness" said bi nani.
" Don't bi, I don't get dizzy, yuk we go down" I refused, then I went down followed bi nani to the dining table, I sat alone while bi nani went to the kitchen.
I looked at the side dishes that were held at the dining table, my appetite was not there let alone eating alone.
" Bii nanii" Call me.
" Yes neng" Sahut bi nani straight out of the kitchen.
" Temenin I eat ya bi here" Invite me, I look at bi nani expectantly.
" But neng, duh duh time aunty to sit here to eat with neng?" Bi nani kikuk.
" Both or neng auntie temenin eat her, let alone neng ros again pregnant must eat a lot" Finally bi nani relented and came to sit with me, I nod my head with a happy smile.
I eat quite greedy especially in accompanied by bi nani who is humane to my mother, seemed to be accompanied by food by my mother.
" Thank God, thank you for eating" I said.
" Yes sama2 neng, the important neng ros want to eat so that the baby is healthy" said bi nani.
" Oh yes, will you make what fear to snack night neng?" Tanya bi nani's.
" Squeeze the young mango just the same sambel rujaknya who is spicy, because I like nausea if the night2" I replied.
" Yes, aunty made it and aunt anterin to the room" replied bi nani with her trademark smile, which made me feel close to mother.
I went up to my room to rest, afraid my head is dizzy again if lama2 sits, I lay my body on the bed.
Back in my mind raging considering the thing that had been thought, I don't know how to, sin yes I feel guilty and sin because I have a husband status but have an illegal relationship with another man.
Long enough I contemplated over everything that had happened, I don't know how to deal with it later.
" Euleuh2 why is it that rumble?" Tanya bi nani surprised me enough.
" Aunty is a shock" I said.
" Aunty has already knocked on the door and called2 neng ros" said bi nani while putting a glass of milk and young mango my order.
" Hehe understands bi ga focus" I blushed.
" Why oruh neng, in the stay of the aa maybe yes?" Tempta bi nani while smiling knot.
" No also bi, even I'm used to staying2 go mah" Elakku, because it's not because of that.
" Yes already drink milk neng, this young mango and spice ryekaknya, if later neng want to eat what2 again, call aunt only" said bi nani.
" Yes, thank you, aunty is now resting" I said.
" Yes already excuse me first yes" Pamit bi nani, I nod my head then I reach for a glass of milk and I drink until it runs out.
Bi nani also came out while closing the door of my room, back I lay my body that feels tired and feels cape.
