Separated From Raga

Bitter reality

I went back to look for Azam, but in this school there was no him, I looked for him everywhere, but still there was none.

"Where is Azam, why isn't he here, is he in the hospital looking after the students?" I exhaled a lethargic breath.

"I'm new from the hospital, when I go there again, I better wait for Azam in front of his room, later he will also go home"

"Yes, I'd better wait there, Azam will be home too"

I stepped towards Azam's room.

I had not been able to get to his room, my eyes accidentally caught a beautiful woman who walked down.

"Who is that woman, why did I just see her here?"

"Hopefully, why did he come in here, wasn't he afraid of the law?"

I kept watching the woman who was the same age as Azam walking towards the residence of Pak kyai.

"Well what's there, I gotta go with him"

"I think he has a certain purpose in coming here, I have to find out what his purpose is to come here" I followed the beautiful woman who walked towards the residence of Pak Kyai with her head down.

All the Adamites who passed by him stopped and immediately retreated.

"Why are they all on the nduk, who is that woman really?"

"Why do I feel like she's such a person, it seems like she's not just any woman, I have to follow her and find out who she really is" I continued to follow the woman who walked towards the residence of Pak Kyai who was not far away anymore.

"Assalamualaikum abi ummi mas Azam" greetings the beautiful woman when she reached the residence pak kyai.

"Wa'alaikum salam ning Aisfa" Azam replied with a low bow.

"Sit here son" said ma nyai.

Ning Aisfa according, he sat down next to nyai's mom.

"Oh so her name is Aisya" I was bearded when I found out what the name of the woman made me curious so I followed her all the way here.

I was standing in the doorway, they were gathered in the living room, Azam just kept his head down not looking at Aisfa's face in the least.

"Azam Aisfa has passed the cottage, at that time you promised to marry her after she graduated from the cottage, right?" Azam nodded, he had once promised to marry ning Aisfa when ning Aisfa had already passed the cottage.

"Tomorrow your marriage will be performed, I want you to marry Aisfa as soon as possible"

"Well sir, tomorrow I will marry ning Aisfa" Azam replied.

DEG!

It broke my heart when I heard that phrase coming out of the lips of my loved ones.

A single tear flowed without warning.

I stepped back with a broken heart when I found out that Azam was going to marry another woman.

"No, this can't happen, this can't happen" I said, continuing to walk backwards.

I couldn't stay here much longer, I ran away from there with tears flowing.

I got out of the boarding house and ran to the hospital.

"Fine sir kyai tomorrow I will marry ning Aisfa" Azam's words continued to ring in my mind.

I cried on the lonely side of the road, I held my chest that hurt when I heard that he was going to marry someone else.

"The evil Azam, the heart of Azam, I hate him, I hate him" I shouted by hitting the tree in front of the garden.

"He's the heart, he's a crocodile, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him" I shouted as loudly as I could.

I cried by hitting that tree to vent everything.

"Arrrrgghh" I cried and sat down under the tree.

"I hate him, he says he loves me, but apparently he promised to marry another woman, so what did he mean all this time, was he just me as a game?"

I hit that ground with annoyance."Why I didn't realize all this time, why I was stupid, I was stupid, I was stupid, and now I'm taking everything from my stupidity, I'm stupid, I'm stupid" I kept screaming with tears flowing.

"Why am I so stupid, why?"

"I hate him, I hate him, I hate him"

I kept crying under that shade tree, I didn't think that Azam would make me this injured, I thought he would make me queen like he promised, but I was wrong, falling in love with her was my biggest mistake.

"Why he has the heart, why he has the heart, he has the heart, I hate him, I hate him, I hate you Azam" I said as I continued to sob under the shade tree.

I cried all over there, all I spilled there, no one saw me, I was free to scream and cry all I wanted.

"Raisa, Raisa Raisa, calm yourself, you must be calm, you must not be gini, you must be able to calm down" I tried to control myself which is currently in chaos.

"Forget Azam, let's go to the hospital now, you try yourself to be able to get back into the body again, let's go there, you have to be able to go back"

I wiped away the tears and ran towards the hospital which was still very far away.

Tiredness was not felt at all inside me, tears were flowing along the way, the memories of Azam's words just now and all the moments I had with him kept swirling around in my mind.

Every once in a while I stopped, my body slowly began to weaken, I thought it was because I kept crying.

"Arrrrgghh" I shouted in frustration.

I never imagined I'd be at this point, I thought when I got back into the body, I'd feel happiness, that wish has not happened now I have been greeted with great wounds.

"I hate him, I hate him" I shouted in the middle of the crowded streets, many vehicles passing by and around but I didn't care, I didn't care if they heard me or not, I don't care at all.

I ran back to the hospital, when I got there I went straight into the ICU room to see my body.

My cry broke again when my body was still stiffened like an undead and there would be no sign of awakening.

With trembling hands I approached my body.

"I have to be able to get back into my body, I have to be able to, I have to be able to go back, I have to be able to" I wiped my tears and stared at my body.