Red Threads Disconnected

The end of everything

The Dafira subconscious...

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In dreams. I saw your sis again. You are so real, you are so shining, you are so handsome, after so long have managed to make my heart tremble again.

I don't know why I was fixated, I looked at your face from a distance, then after you realized my existence, you ran towards me.

"Grep !."

"Hi... How are you ?."

The warmth that I truly longed for finally returned to my body, I tried to deny it, I tried to realize myself that you were just my illusion. But why, Why, just once my heart can accept it. Why can't I assume you're gone ?

"Rahel.hiks...hiks."

I think you must be bored, only crying can I show you in front of you. And I'm crying again now, in your arms.

That's where you come back to wipe my tears.

"Don't cry."

Your very large and powerful fingers, as if they could not be destroyed by the cruelty of the world, made me pause for a moment, my sobs were hidden instantly, the tears were ashamed to come out of their origin.

I looked up, I saw your face was smiling, an honest smile that was very radiant. I know that smile is not the usual hypocritical smile, I know you are happy, but again but... Why can't I accept it, this distress, this sadness, anger, regret, why it all happened to me.

There is so much I want to say to Rachel, the distress locked me to shackles.

In silence you open the conversation.

"I'm happy Dafira." Your main sentence jolted me for a moment.

"Didn't I ever say that I prayed to God that I might disappear from this world ?."

"I kept asking why it wasn't granted, I was upset. But.. Now I just realized that the scenario arranged is very beautiful, if I was taken from the beginning then I will not feel the happiness of the spirit from you, then after everything is right it feels heavy then my wish is fulfilled."

"So I can swear now to you."

"I."

"Feel very happy." This one smile felt different, you made me vibrate from head to toe, you managed to make me realize now, that our world is different, that it's different, that what you want and feel is not the same anymore.

"You're really happy Rachel ?." For once I want to hear it again.

"Yes." Yeah."

"I'm not in this world, Rafa's not there either, are you still happy ?."

"I'm happy that Dafira, even if I can't see you, I can watch over and protect you from here."

"That's it." I heard it again too.

Honestly, I'm sad Rachel.

"I feel." Because all this time I wish you wouldn't live in this world.

"Very grateful then. From then until now I wanted to see you happy, happy for ever." But it turns out you found real happiness here.

"I'm glad to hear it, I'm so happy." But it's okay Rachel. As long as you're happy I'll budge, I'll start opening a new album.

"Yes, I'm happy. Therefore, do not worry, do not be sad Dafira, do not worry about me, do what you want, do everything, what you want, achieve everything. I also want to see you feel real happiness."

"Yes." Yeah."

But, of course, the album still implies you, though not completely, but at least slightly, because until then I will keep you in my heart.

"Rub."

"What ?."

"Never forget me."

"Bas on you." Smile. "How could I forget you."

"Then I promise to live to achieve my happiness."

"Do it, Ohya it doesn't feel like my time is up, take care of yourself Dafira."

"You are my most beautiful memory."

"You are Rachel too. Even though you weren't around for a long time, you were my first truly wonderful love."

"May we meet at another time."