Red Threads Disconnected
Chapter 2: Forgive me
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...Dark nights...
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...when the moonlight dims...
...then the darkness will come...
...When summer disappears, the cold will cover all the cities...
...The darkness is currently enveloping me...
...When the light was swallowed up by darkness...
...Nightmares seem to come to me...
...then come to my dream...
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Never a day in my life that I live without your shadow. Every second of his, every minute, and every hour of my life is covered with guilt and a desire to come back. Though at that time I hoped to be a memory of both of us, but somehow our destiny does not want it.
...The red thread severed and separated the two lovers...
...Destiny holds that love until the end of life...
...My love that disappeared was swallowed by the waves...
...like a dark dream that makes me unable to wake up...
The sound of a device that sounded just to make sure your heartbeat until now is still clearly heard in my ear, the smell of medicine that filled the room and also enveloped your body I can still smell clearly until now.
" Tiiiiittt...".
And the sound of your cues was still in my mind, always haunting me, and chasing me to the edge of my subconscious power.
When I saw the machine predicting that your heart had stopped my world as if it had collapsed and stopped spinning, the screams and tears I could not stand anymore, I took it all out in front of you while clutching yourself tightly.
The cold body slowly felt creeping into my body, I tried many times to make you wake up but there was no reaction at all from you, at that time I realized that the sun, light, light, and this summer I left myself alone.
I was glued and trembling to witness the fact that tears, screams, and pain in the heart I could no longer control .
If you ask me how much my heart aches at that time then the answer is I don't know, but surely at that time all these worlds felt unreal, the voices of people stopped to be heard in my ears, he said, walking on this earth was like it had floated somewhere.
Since then I don't know how many times you've appeared in my dreams with the same smile, but when I see that smile I always remember all the bad memories of you… if only once could the world back down I would so much like to save your life, I would so much like to take turns hugging you that I might be his shield, and then I wanted to hug your real body tightly while saying a thousand thousand words of apology.
...I want to go back to that time...
A few years ago …
"Drap!!!...Drap !!!!...Drap !!!...". The sound of footsteps and the ambulance serine at this time sounded so loud, all the doctors and nurses moved as fast as possible to save the life of Rachel who was on the verge of Death.
"We have to do the operation now also please be ready for all the needs of the operation and operating room". Said one of the doctors who was treating Rachel at the time.
" Good doctor !!!".
Minutes after the shooting, S-class bodyguards from Dauson's family came to the scene after receiving a signal from Dafira's friend, first aid was also done to prevent bleeding from Rachel's gunshot wounds, but due to the delay in the arrival of the ambulance, Rachel was in a critical condition due to heavy blood loss.
"Darling you have to endure yes, you can't leave me here". The hysterical sounds and cries of Dafira at that time also filled the rainy night sky and the roar of lightning.
From the ambulance to the present, Dafira constantly clasped his fiance's hand tightly together with the uncontrollable flow of tears.
"Sorry, only doctors and patients are allowed into the operating room". Said a nun while holding Dafira back.
"Ta... but that patient is my fiancee Sister!!!, I want to go inside too !!".
" I'm sorry miss can't be this for the patient's own safety".
"Do you not know?!!!, I am the sole heir of the Dauson family!!, how dare you hold me back !!". Dafira's anger suddenly peaked when he found out that he was still not allowed into the operating room. Dafira's anger was because he was in shock plus excessive anxiety about his fiancee's state.
Seeing Dafira's unfavorable reaction Rayhan who is his personal bodyguard tried to calm Dafira's heart.
"The big lady calm yourself first". Said Reyhan while holding Dafira's shoulder.
"What !!, now that you're following along also hold me Ray ??". Jerky Dafira.
"Not so big lady. Try to think if in there the condition of the master is serious then the reaction of the lady like this what will happen ??". Rayhan. "Miss will definitely be a hindrance and distress to the team of doctors, we just think about the worst possible lady how if the time in Mr. Rachel's condition worsens and you become panicked like now, she said, it could have been that Mr. Rachel's life didn't survive".
Upon hearing Rayhan's explanation, Dafira became fixated, his bones became all limp
"Bruk !!!". Dafira suddenly fell to his floor because he could no longer support his limp body.
"Miss !!". shouted Rayhan while propping up Dafira's body.
"I'm fine Ray, don't worry". Dafira lirih
"Let's sit here, miss".
Dafira sat in the chair in front of the operating room leaning his head against the wall, at which time all the possible bad things that would happen to Rachel turned around in his head. Along with the shadow, Dafira's tears flowed and dripped onto his hands.
The green light as a sign of the operation started now was on, Dafira's heart that had been pounding now as late as pounding again, even Dafira now felt that his heart was going to explode because it was pounding so fast.
"**Very long... How many hours has Rachel been in there** ??". Say Dafira in your heart.
"But Ray, I feel something's not good in here". Dafira held his chest. "I feel a bad feeling, even this heart pounding with a different beat, I feel this is very awkward". Dafira's face instantly turned sad after revealing what he felt to Rayhan.
"Don't think badly, lady, let's just pray for Mr. Rachel".
"...". Dafira did not answer the words, but he slightly nodded his head.
Twenty minutes, forty minutes, half an hour, an hour, and even three hours are now gone. Rachel who is struggling in the operating room has not shown her improved condition.
"Tin". The operating room light turned red, the doctor who handled the operation Rachel went out and met Dafira.
"Doctor!!!, how is Rachel doing ??". Ask Dafira to panic.
"...". the doctor did not initially answer Dafira's question, but from the expression on his face everyone can tell that the condition of the patient he is handling is not good.
"Doctor !!!, Answer me!!". cried Dafira hysterically.
"I'm sorry our master and lady have done their best for the patient's safety, but fate says another patient's life we can't save".
When he heard that Dafira's body immediately trembled and then immediately fell to the floor.
"No. no way, this is not allowed doctor, my fiance is a strong man..he can not lose only wounds so, the doctor must be kidding right". Dafira could not figure out what was right now, in his heart he was sure that his fiancee would be fine, while reality confronted him with the death of his fiancee Rachel.
"Your lady must be patient and strong, it's your lady's destiny not to be like this". Rayhan tried to calm down Dafira who looked so devastated.
"No... no!!!!, this is not true!!!, that Rachel is still alive!!!!, for sure !!!". Shouted Dafira who still could not believe that her fiancee did not echo and filled the room around.
"Rahellll!!!!!, Rachel don't leave me !!!". That shout seemed to sound sad because it was accompanied by a groan of regret.
When Dafira also saw a patient who had been covered with a white cloth, he was immediately transfixed to see a patient who was none other than his fiancee.
Dafira approached his fiancee with a limp.
"Rahel~". Dafira said as he opened the white cloth that covered his fiance's face.
"Rahel wakes up, baby, hiks. You promised to always be there beside me, you promised when we got married the day after tomorrow will be my happiness for life.you hiks...you promised all that right Rachel???, let's wake up Rachel".
Dafira could not help his grief, he shouted hysterically in front of the lifeless Rachel, many times he tried to wake Rachel by shaking her body, his fiancee, but it's useless Rachel didn't respond to anything. Realizing that there was no hope at this time, Dafira immediately embraced Rachel's cold body while crying and shouting with a roar.
That night became a dark night for Dafira, only in one night he had to let go of his fiancee, not go who would come back again but leave for good.
...***When the light disappears along with the darkness***...
...***Warm commentary sinks invincible by month***...
...***my life stops when your heartbeat stops***...
Since then I don't know how many times I tried to commit suicide in order to meet you
Desire to embrace your real body
saying a thousand apologies
and turn back time to where it was
