
[Vin, not busy?] Ranum sent a message to Arvin.
Not long after, Ranum's phone rang. Calling from Arvin, Ranum picked him up and said hello from the two.
"Can stories?"
"Please, Miss."
Ranum no longer mince words, directly talking to the point. He told me everything. About Zaviyar who is still faithfully waiting, the emergence of Aldi, and of course about the concerns of his heart.
"Your heart is yours. So, the one who knows better is you," Arvin said in response.
"This heart belongs to God, which at times can be reversed," replied Ranum.
"Keep, has your heart turned back?"
"You mean?"
"It's not the same with that teacher."
"Sama Aldi means that? Yes, no, not" said Ranum.
"Not necessarily the same Aldi, maybe there are others. Who knows me." Arvin chuckles.
"Not funny."
They still talk. More precisely Ranum told a story and Arvin faithfully listened. Arvin will only speak if it is necessary, the rest of Ranum who issued a lot of complaints.
"Now how am I supposed to be with Aldi?" ask Ranum.
"Don't love hope" said Arvin steadily.
"I refuse him every time I go out."
Yep. Indeed several times Aldi gave an offer to Ranum to come out. Either just take a walk or eat somewhere, but Ranum always rejects it.
"Good," answered Arvin.
The conversation continues. Ranum told how Aldi then and now after a long time did not meet.
Ranum's discomfort with Aldi is no longer what it used to be, and his desire to keep his heart for the young lecturer is expressed to Arvin, even though there is no courage to say everything to Zaviyar. But, Ranum did not want to disappoint the man.
“I'm worried he really ..” Ranum sentence hangs.
“Like you? Yes, I think he really likes you,” said Arvin.
Arvin's words made me even more worried.
“Vin, don't joke!”
“Who's kidding, Num? I'm also a man and I make sure that he really likes you and maybe it's been a long time, only you are not aware.”
Ranum became quiet. He is even more confused if he has to face Aldi. Do not know what to say if the man who has been considered a friend even the family to express his feelings.
Arvin, who seemed to understand what Ranum was thinking at this time, did not want to talk much. However, he could not bear to realize that the sweet girl was sad in the anxiety of her heart.
“Not to think. Follow your heart,” said Arvin.
There is no lawfulness. Ranum dissolves in his daydreams until he does not hear Arvin's words.
“Num?” call Arvin.
“Eh ... i-iya, what?” suhut Ranum.
“Girls don't like daydreaming.”
“Ngak. What did you say?”
“Follow your heart. The heart that will lead you to find your way.”
Not long after, Ranum and Arvin intend to end their conversation. But before completely disconnected Ranum told Arvin if possible in the near future he would take a walk to Malang.
“Close to my place, we can chat again,” said Arvin.
“Iya, I'll call you again.”
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Ranum, who has rejected Aldi's invitation several times, seems to have to keep trying and find reasons so that the man can stop inviting him out. However, other things that he had been afraid of happened due to the rejection that continued to be given to Aldi.
Aldi who felt Ranum had changed and tried to avoid him, did not give up. He continued to try to persuade the sweet girl, both through messages and phone calls via whatsapp. Until one night he repeatedly contacted Ranum to be able to talk to the girl he had known for a long time.
"Assalamu'alaikum" Aldi said from the moment his phone call was picked up by Ranum.
"Wa'alaikumussalam," replied Ranum lazily.
"Again what?"
"Talk to Mas Zav." Ranum deliberately said that, hoping that the interlocutor would immediately disconnect the phone.
"The same guy you were at the time?"
"Yes." Yeah."
Aldi's silent. There was a strange taste in his chest as Ranum said what he was doing. But, Aldi tried to stay calm and not provoked his emotions.
"What kind of conversation?" search Aldi.
"Kepo," replied Ranum cynically.
"Hmmm. There's nothing to tell me anymore."
"Al, sorry. Everything is different. We are both adults. You have long disappeared, and of course now we have each other's lives that not all of the things we can share as before."
Ranum's long sentences with some emphasis made Aldi take a deep breath and exhale.
"But I'm still the same as Aldi was, Num."
"Yes, I understand that you are indeed the old Aldiansyah Pratama, and I am Ranum Nasha Razita. But, the situation is different. We're getting older and that certainly has a little bit of an effect on our friendship."
Ranum took a pause, sighed before continuing his sentence.
"We can still be friends, but as close as we used to feel we can't, Al. We have each other's privacy that we can't share with everyone" Ranum explained.
"So now you think I'm a stranger?" ask Aldi.
"As much as you want to interpret what, I obviously can't get as close as you used to be. I'm a grown woman, and you're a grown man. So, we should take care of each other so as not to be the talk of people."
"Then look at me as a grown man, not as your best friend as before. You can consider me, right? I still remember what you said a few years ago."
Ranum was clamoring, no longer responding to Aldi's words. He bit his lower lip. His hands clenched and smacked his head slowly several times. What is feared is happening. And unexpectedly, the next sentence that was thrown from the lips of the man across the phone made the sweet girl completely speechless.
"I liked you a long time ago and I expected you to this very second, Num."
Those words were still clearly ringing in Ranum's ears after he disconnected the phone from Aldi. His mind's getting fucked. His heart was clearly still for the man in the hero city. But, Aldi's statement some time ago made the sharp-eyed girl recall the past.
Yep. It is wrong to not think long when saying that sentence. Ranum never thought if his words were taken seriously by Aldi who had put his taste in him. And his best friend still holds the words of Ranum at that time.
Ranum chose to lay down his body, then lay on his stomach and immerse his face in a pillow. Even crying could no longer hold. The guilt for the two men now present in his life is growing.
Zaviyars. It was impossible for Ranum to ignore, the man was already patient and loyal enough to wait for him. And again, his heart was already attached to the figure of the man. Not half, but maybe the whole heart of Ranum has become Zaviyar's.
Aldi, he is his best friend from a long time ago, who used to always be there for Ranum and always encouraging when Ranum faced problems. What does he have to say to keep his best friend from getting hurt?
Ranum's mind raged. Several times his hands clenched, banging on the mattress and sometimes his head. He blamed his own stupidity.
"Whoa, Num. It's your fault. You should think before you say that" Ranum said in his tears.
Ranum tried to hold back the crying. He lifted his face, got up from his position and sat against the wall of the bed. The phone that had been placed irregularly, he was looking for. WhatsApp Chat with Zaviyar. Wanted to contact the man, but was undone.
Ranum typed a message for Zaviyar several times, and was deleted many times. His chest he hit slowly, hoping the tightness was gone.
He looked at his phone back. Seeing the name of the man who had made his heart flowery. Finally a message so short was launched because it no longer knows what to write in the message.
"Mas."
No matter how long Zaviyar made a phone call on Ranum via WhatsApp. There was concern from the voice of the man across the phone who had just received a short message from Ranum.
Zaviyar who did not understand what was going on with her girl tried to calm down. And then came the words from Ranum's lips that were never expected to be spoken from the girl who conquered his heart.
"If there is another girl who makes Mas comfortable and he is serious, God willing I sincerely see you happy with the girl, Mas."
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