Pursuing the Abandoned Love

Chapters. 84 Was rejected

Mizka grabs the bottle Elwas gave her. After drinking he also put a glass, for a moment he lowered his head to adjust his breath that had stung.

" Mizka, I seriously want to build a household with you. I am the kind of committed man. I don't like dating, so I want us to get married straight away" Elwas said honestly.

For a moment the two fell silent, no one made a sound. Then Mizka took a deep breath.

" Elwas, I know you're just kasian to me. You actually know what happened to me, until you felt guilty, as if it was your fault. It's all happened, I'm fine. I've even been through a harder time than this. What happens today, we teach the future. I don't deserve you Elwas, you're kind, handsome and well established you can get a better girl, beautiful and more everything than me. Don't sacrifice for others if it makes you hurt" Mizka said

Elwas clasped Mizka's hand tightly, and stared with all his heart.

" Mizka I love you unconditionally, I sincerely want to live with you not out of compulsion, or out of pity. Everything I say is in accordance with the heart I feel right now. I've loved you ever since you asked us out on a date. Honestly, you were the first woman who dared to approach me. You're the first woman who dared to tease me. I realized this love when you easily said you didn't love me after breaking my heart. You know how I felt back then, Mizka?? I was even very angry with the circumstances, why do you easily say love, but it is easier to break my feelings. At that time I could not even sleep, I kept thinking about where my fault was. I didn't love you in the first place, but you're wrong if I don't love you in the end. Because actually not waiting long I feel comfortable when with you" said Elwas honestly

Mizka was still unfathomable with all these circumstances for her to be so unexpected. Mizka is still at peace with the situation after all that happened, He who must be reunited with Rabel, must listen to Rabel's humiliation, even he also felt the abuse of Rabel which he abused.

But now, as if there was nothing in his wishful thinking if Elwas would propose to him, he never imagined if in fact Elwas put his heart into such a state, he does not even care if he is no longer holy. Elwas accepted the lack.

" I'm sorry Elwas, I don't deserve you. I still can't be with you. You're too perfect for me" said Mizka

" If you think I'm perfect for you, why would you reject me? Can't you try to live with me. I will not waste the opportunity Mizka replied Elwas

Mizka shook her head, she still felt unworthy for Elwas who was so kind, handsome, also responsible.

Elwas was silent to accept Mizka's decision so tight she felt. Although this feeling he had prepared but still he could not accept the reality if in the end he would not get a love reply from Mizka.

" Give me one reason Mizka. So I can forget you. "pinta Elwas

" Well Mizka, I'm not a good man, who can make peace with the situation. I'm sorry!! after this, it will probably be our meeting for the last time. I'm going to get out of your life, to forget you. "

" Elwas, you are so perfect - "

" If I'm perfect in your eyes, then why are you rejecting me??? " interlacing Elwas with the nanda slightly elevated which made Mizka a little surprised.

" I'm sorry, Mizka. After I finish the job here, I'll take you home. I hope you can find love, which you consider worthy of being with you. Because you are right, I don't deserve you, I'm so ugly for you to have, I can't be like any other man who can give you flowers, I can't be like that. " Elwas has shed tears.

Elwas headed to his room, after a conversation that night, Elwas never again met Mizka, he left before Mizka woke up, and he left after Mizka went to bed because always midnight Elwas would just go back to the apartment. Before he returned to the room, he would definitely confirm in advance whether Mizka was in his room or not. Actually Mizka has not slept even though Elwas midnight.he can feel that before going to bed Elwas will caress her hair and allow her blanket like a child. But he chose to sleep. Because he also did not want to give hope to Elwas.

Tonight, Mizka daydreams in the living room. His gaze was always fixed on Elwas' room, he also tried to dare to try to enter, however if Elwas always home late at night, he only missed when Elwas with him, when Elwas took care of him when sick, after all, Elwas, the scent of his body was silent Mizka longed for, a hug as she carried him.

" Hugs??? I'm so crazy if I miss her hug. "murm Mizka shook her head to look at Elwas's bed that turned out to be so neat. Elwas's room was so neat, all laid out in his place. Although there are many documents in the room but arranged according to his place on the table, which according to Mizka is a work desk Elwas incorporated in the room.

" You are not crazy if you only miss my embrace Mizka, the crazy is when you reject the love of someone you also love." replied Elwas who turned out to be behind her, making Mizka surprised because she had dared to enter the room Elwas room, and now she was caught red-handed.

" I'll give you this hug every day. Without being able to miss him again, if you want to open your heart to me. " said Elwas again by hugging the fat body of Mizka from behind, even getting fatter because after the infusion of Mizka's diet is also more and more.

Mizka was still silent thinking about her feelings, guilty if she still refused Elwas' request, or deserved if she welcomed Elwas' feelings and began to open her heart to Elwas.

" Elwas, I can't" replied Mizka without trying to untangle Elwas's arms from behind. He let Elwas's embrace coiled around his body, for Mizka also longed for the scent of this perfume.

Elwas tried to take off the hug, he began to flip Mizka's body to look at him, which he saw Mizka had shed tears, but Mizka lowered her head, making Elwas not see him yet.