Prayer for My Husband

Chapter - 8 My feelings are chaotic

We have been in Bali for a few days, but I do not feel happy here, my heart and my mind are uncertain.The more here I am more confused, what is with my heart? Every time I look at my ex-husband I hurt, which I hope is only for a lifetime with her not with others.every time I hurt to see my ex-husband, I hope,I always pinched my arm, but felt nothing, maybe because my husband was too big a mistake to me. I never finished thinking why my romance ended this way.

I'm always just quiet and quiet every time we hang out together,when relaxed and at mealtime I just silently glance at my ex-husband with his wife sitting while hugging in front of my eyes.I feel really ko here my ex-husband also keep the feeling I'm so she's a little bit indifferent with her new wife.sela told her first night with my ex-husband like this and I just kept quiet not to talk a word, not a word,I was busy with my own hape so as not to be too visible if I do not like the wife of deus.Once my husband also said "sadly why silence"? I just shook my head, my husband Rian must understand what was on my mind and my husband occasionally joked. "Waah my wife was also good at our first night, hahaha ". I just looked at my husband with a frown on my forehead."Astagfitullah I'm sorry, my status is your wife and I who have never served you at all "Inwardly said.

Well tonight I'm trying to open my heart to my husband, as told by sela and my ex-husband that I was great the first night.

I felt that Deus was immediately silent and put on a different face when he heard my husband's lies.

After dinner we also want to go into each room but my feet are heavy stepping my feet in the camp.

"sadly, you entered the room here very cold" said sela.

Deus just nodded his head while glancing at me sadly.

"Darling let's go to sleep this night" my husband said.

I said, "will you still have to breathe fresh air here".

"Yes, I'll be in later".

after a few hours outside we were engrossed in chatting and while joking with laughter and Rian while lying on my lap,I was like seeing Deus in the door-blade looking at me with Rian joking around, but I didn't care about him,I still pretended not to see, not long after that he went into his room stop looking at us.

finally we went into the room because we already felt a bit like a cold because it was too long outside, we washed our faces and feet together laughing because we were still carried away outside.

We were lying in bed, but still joking and before long my face and Rian's face faced each other,we also immediately fell silent rigid.I feel something that my husband is thinking a lot.

And finally I ventured to try to hug my husband and I will try to open the door of my heart to rian tonight.Rian hugged me with warmth and very tightly and end tonight I was willing to serve my husband tonight, as well as his husband and wife in general.not long after day we woke up together, and we were still in a state of hugging. " Good morning my real wife" said my husband while kissing my forehead.

And still the same I just reply with silence while smiling.

shortly after, the door of our room reads "Tok.tok.tok" ..

My husband got up and used his towel.

it turned out that Sela and Deus who invited us to go down to breakfast and took us to walk together.I was still in bed they also entered our room.

"Waah is still very good ya sleep her ley" I was shocked and immediately sat and still covered my body with a blanket.

My ex just looked at me with a sad face."Come on baby wake up we're going down breakfast and take a walk today ". my good mood this morning instantly turned into a bad mood from having to see that pair of people walk into my room.

Rian immediately pulled me and held my blanket up to the bathroom door, they were waiting to sit in front of the television while I took a bath together with Rian because it was not good too long they had been waiting.

"Darling your sister always kept quiet was she really unable to talk?" ask her to Deus.

"He was sick so he could not communicate quickly with us "said my ex-husband and cover that we are ex-husband and wife.that is the reason my husband Rian so that the gap is not stiff or reluctant when we gather together.

We came out of the bathroom together, and I chose clothes for my husband.

We were not finished long ago,and out of the room together.rian was very friendly this morning maybe he was still carried away last night.always sticky sitting eating was very close to me and always embracing me at the dining table and always staring I with a sweet smile.maybe the couple in front of us can no longer bear looking at Rian who this morning always smiles at me.

"Rian km why the rich are so happy this morning like winning the lottery alone" . Rian was just returning a smile to the sidelines, but even just a flickering head of astonishment saw Rian who always looked at me while eating.

I was always in the face with my husband, I was confused what to do so he stopped looking at me, even though how many times I had covered his face with my palm.

But still he always made me wrong, from earlier he did not eat and just looked at me. Finally I lost my shame, too,kissing Rian who always looks at me in front of Deus and sidelines. Deus immediately threw away his face and pretended not to watch.

" Ciyeeehhhh ... oh Rian pantasan his behavior is very strange, Abis got ration after all last night.be unable to move on his appearance yes you rian hahaha." said sela.

"Haha ...... Honey, look at me so I kiss "I laugh while holding my shame.

Suddenly Rian replied to me with a smile and immediately suddenly Rian pulled my face, and kissed me back with the words "Goodbye last night, I'm so happy ".

Deus pretended to be ignorant and did not hear me feel what he felt in my heart said "Could you be hot".

obviously Deus' face started to blush maybe he was a little hot or emotional.

I just bought the kids a toy, and suddenly Deus approached me and picked out some toys for his kid too.we looked familiar in Rian's eyes and between, and he was very close,there's no sense of jealousy between them because he knows I'm deus' sister.

but even Rian like her doesn't mind me being close to my ex-husband.

And my husband bought some clothes for his son and bought me too, but I refused.

"De, don't refuse this my savings account for a few months of work, I intend this for you as children."

I glanced at Rian and Rian just looked at me and smiled, and said "Receive me dear ".

Fortunately, the sidelines did not hear the conversation between the three of us, because he was busy choosing clothes.

After we were satisfied shopping and traveling, the day had begun to afternoon I took Rian back to the room. " Dear back Yo I'm a little tired ". "yes baby nnti me pijit ya ". we just laugh softly and Rian while embracing me.

sela is still not satisfied shopping, but Rian has said goodbye to the two of them, Deus also wants to come back but sela still wants to keep shopping.

at the end of the day, they both came home with us.

even in the room I immediately washed my face and legs directly lying on the bed, I was a little weak Rian immediately sat next to me and began massaging my body,I just resigned because my body was a little cape, finally I fell asleep, too,and a few hours later I was up for dinner.we also had dinner together again.got felt we had a few days in Bali and tomorrow we had to return home.finished our dinner directly packing all the stuff together.

when we finished we immediately rushed to sleep because we were exhausted after walking all day.

the morning arrived, we were preparing to leave to fly home.after passing a few hours, we finally arrived home.The children immediately embraced me tightly because of longing.

" ma, which father ?" Azalea and Kaka Daffa also miss the same father". " Your father comes home, dear father, tomorrow father here to see you, father also drop souvenirs for you," answered me with a smile.

after accompanying the children to play for a while I was exhausted I immediately went to bed to the room, took a break later.

I also slept soundly because it was already night.tomorrow morning I woke up I saw everything was sorted.turned Rian who cleaned up all of it last night when I was asleep.I am here treated like queen, my two and my sister-in-law are so good.My husband loves me so much.all this is like a dream for me, my husband,though how many months ago I was hurt by my husband and now I am happy with my new husband.I am very grateful for all this, even though I have to give up my husband already not with me again, but I am grateful that my two children can be happy and come with me.

suddenly my in-laws said "you're going to marry me when the event is , our big family is waiting for this event, the event,mamah does not feel good Rian same family you married mamah mada law of relatives and neighbors."

I just shook my head while looking at Rian.

Without thinking long Rian replied "ready for his needs next week we hold his event as soon as possible ".

I was shocked and immediately lowered my head and sighed.

Tomorrow we immediately hold a prewedding photo for the invitation, for me this is tiring but Rian could not refuse the request of his parents.

after we prewedding photos we printed the invitation quickly because next Sunday was our event.Sela and my ex-husband also helped our event.

And the day H arrived.we also prepared for it all.

when I was in the bridal dressing room alone, Deus came up to me and approached me while saying "Dee, I miss you, I want to hug you, I want to go back to you de,I know you still feel the same way I do, honestly de ? let's just run away "without a stale base he immediately said so.

I have not answered my ex-husband's question, suddenly my husband came.deus left us who were going to be in the bridal makeup.not long later also interrupted coming.

"Do you see my husband"?

" Just got out of here" answered my husband.

"I have some good news for you too, I'm pregnant looh" said sela happily. My husband immediately said congratulations on her pregnancy between.I I just sit still without congratulating her on her pregnancy between.

I understand my ex-husband must be a little stressed with his wife's pregnancy.then he came to me and said so .

"Darling why silence, Deus was here talking about what you think so silent like this is not as usual". I replied just by shaking my head.

"I know how you feel the same way I haven't been so full to me, I've been patient with you for so long,and wait patiently for you to open your heart to me but you still can't forget your ex."

I immediately replied "So what do you want, you want to end this okay gapapa, I've tried to also open my heart to you, but what if my heart can not forget him."I did not feel my tears dripping saying that and immediately rian said "sorry baby I was too jealous see you close to your ex-husband,don't be angry again ya have stopped crying not good same mamah who bersampe again nyampe here.

I said, "I'm sorry, too, baby".