Prayer for My Husband

Chapter - 3 What to Do

Who in the world should I trust?

And to whom else do I express my feelings that have been hurt too deeply.Sometimes I also want to have a full and perfect family but it is not possible because the perfect thing only belongs to God alone.

Inexhaustible problems with the husband, sometimes there are also disputes between me and my husband's brothers, it is painful if in front of us they are good but behind us he insults and berates me.

Many times my first child complained to me, if his aunt often told me, why should with a small child who should hear ugly talk about their parents, their parents,why not tell it directly to me.

I realize people aren't as capable as you, you should think,it is not me who is completely wrong can not manage to the household money.I only receive money two hundred thousand every month from my husband for one month.because we have a lot to pay.not like you guys directly life is good without pain first , only because your husband is from a family that has, so you stay this and it's good that there is someone who helps,like your house is helped by in-laws and cars are also helped by parents.obviously different from us, do not be home and car anything we try ourselves.do not compare my life with your life, do not compare my life with yours,I am always grateful for my shortcomings, I am not as lucky as other women but not necessarily other women are able to live a life like me.

sometimes my husband's parents tell us all kinds of things but I always try not to fight because they are my husband's parents the same as my parents obviously the difference between me and the other daughter-in-law I have always never appreciated, but other daughters-in-law who already have a house and a car for sure they always adore their praise.

indeed they are very good in front of me do not think that behind them is very rotten.Sometimes I intend that I will no longer reprimand them or step on my in-laws' house again but maybe it is I'm a very big person, I don't have the heart I still go there to visit them.and g series when we go home with rice two kilos of ten thousand money, Lombok, tomatoes and onions.

how can I stop there if they even have two faces still help me even though it is just stomach business.

less me what often I help my husband work to light his burden a little, I work to purify and take his other wages, I work,but I'm always grateful and proud that you're not the kind of woman who can't do anything but I can help my husband to make money, unlike you guys just take pride in the property of in-laws and husband.I'm sure behind your success that parents helped there must be your heartache as well, I'm sure you're in my position too,the position where you are not in your in-laws' delight because you from the family are not able to either hahaha..........

funny also turns out this world, too,they hate me because from a poor family you are not aware you are the same, if you are from a rich family, my life may not be destitute because my husband must often be helped with his parents

forget just about you there is still a lot that I have to discuss in my story chapter 3, then you will go viral and rise.

The more severe my husband's day, turns out he drank oplosan like alcohol in the clutches of Bima, Allah did not damage his heart.almost every day it was in his consumption, Bima,I think I want to die just looking at my husband more days worse.because I have a very deep affection for my husband, so I can't see him destroyed like that.

It feels like I want to end all this life rather than me seeing him with a behavior that makes me even more hurt.

And finally I couldn't take it anymore, I left my husband, not to divorce but to teach him a lesson,whether he can change or not.both of my children I take away.because if I stay who will take care of him.but how many days we go from home there is also no news and calls from the husband I thought if we left she would find us but she didn't,it was a shame and there was no self-esteem at all in his eyes.A week passed there was no news also my husband to look for me, my two children had cried because they missed his father.

at the end we went home.

"Assalamu'alaikum I call my husband?"

"Waalaikum salam." answered a woman, I was surprised to think my husband had moved house, and the woman was wearing my negligee dress, I thought he was a new guy who rented and I thought my clothes were in my husband's house.Inadvertently my husband just woke up and came out of the room in shorts not wearing clothes.

instantly I was devastated, and I was struck by lightning in the heat of the day.My husband was shocked and said "wake home again," his heart he in front of his two children talk so.I immediately drove my son to my Kaka house and I told them both "Wait a minute I take the children we talk."

After I delivered the children, I went straight into the house without greeting and excuse me."Who is he" I asked ?? " and my husband answered "he's my girlfriend" proudly embracing the woman before my eyes. "Great yes I just stayed it turns out this is your behavior" . said my husband "who told you to leave the house ?".

"You choose him or me" and I immediately threw the question with no thought my husband answered yes choose him is "okay I say good, it's your choice never regret your choice".I immediately wrapped all my clothes with a pale smile.

this woman also had no sound when I was there.after the clothes I wrapped all I was immediately out of the house and said in the ears of the actor "remember the karma dear, dear,I'm patient in his banishment let alone the look of your rich face, I pray your household is harmonious never you feel the heartache like I experienced."

And I said to my husband "love the woman******you were careful one day you were cheated on her, strong indeed your money, do not be lazy work,byeee asalamualaikum ".

that same day I was looking for a rented house for me and my son to live in,I did not bring one item that I bought one at the same time my husband.I work part-time while looking after my two children.in between to busy me, right,I also did not forget to worship and pray my husband may he turn into a good husband for his new wife.Why I still pray for him because he is still the father of my children until whenever it is.

what is my power and the children who only sleep on the ground are clothes without pillows, rolls, and,and the bed.because our bed was used for their adultery continues.astagfirullah why I say adultery they are not married but sudh lived together.One day I drove my first child to school accidentally there was a car who accidentally nudged my handlebars, it made me fall, it made me fall,I thought the man immediately went and ran away it turns out he parked his car and approached me.it turns out he was a man and immediately said "Sorry mba I accidentally for avoiding cats crossing, mbah,mba what's sick let me take ber to the clinic". I replied "gapapa ko my arm only bleed a little while waking up from my fall."

he immediately reached out his hand with a sweet smile I accidentally looked at him and we looked at each other" astagfirullah yes Allah I'm sorry your servant has jinah eyes in his heart said." he took me home and followed me home.

actually, I was embarrassed to invite him into the house because in my house there was no chair,accidentally my husband passed by seeing me sitting on the porch with a man and he immediately stopped by asking me where my children were.

the man sitting next to me stood up and said, "sorry, I accidentally hit his wife's motorcycle." my husband did not answer the man immediately went to gas his motorbike and immediately left.

"I'm sorry she's my ex-husband" the man replied "Gosh, I'm sorry I think she's my husband".

finally he asked for my phone number on the grounds that there was a telephone pain I said."Excuse me for work first yes mba nnti afternoon at home right ?" he asked me and I said yes.

finally the afternoon arrived around 5, There was a sound knocking on the door of the house, "Asalamualaikum ?" and my first child I saw "Waalaikumsalam, who's looking for om?".

"your mother has a deck ?"

"yes this mother is sleeping is sick, my second child also builds my "Ma there is om looking for mama" .

I was surprised he sat in front of me "Good God I'm sorry I overslept" he replied "mba sick let me take this medicine I bring food and fruit as my apology because of the incident but morning".

"Don't bother my mas just a common fever, thank you for the food and fruit my son immediately asked for fruits because they have not eaten well for a long time.

suddenly my husband came over maybe he saw a man's car this morning sitting with me,I don't know what the reason my husband suddenly went up to the house with the excuse of looking for more children."basically it's not clear my husband in my heart.

"sorry mba no papa will I stop by here was the same permission RT here want to look mba,". I replied "iya mas gapapa".

"Looh why mba sleep on the floor just wearing clothes not cold mba ?". "no mas sorry I just separated my husband did not bring any items because there is an affair my husband lived in the house was abstaining for me and brought the goods that have been used by other women".

"Jeez mba so just split sma husband because the husband mba live with his affair there ".

I just nodded my head and smiled sadly.

"let's take the kids around for a while" I refused but my kids saw their car immediately wanted to come along so I had to come along.

and then he took me to the electronics store, he bought me a pretty big bed and pillows, bolsters and blankets, and he bought me a fan, too,I was shocked and confused what to wear.

"why buy it, I don't have any money to pay for it ". " Don't think it's okay to assume this is an apology from me not accidentally banged up the motor mba." I can't speak and hug my son because of the pleasure.

And the goods began to be delivered to my rented house in front of the house,and we were invited to shop for basic needs for us days.tetiba arrived at our house was arranging our new bed, suddenly there was another husband with his mistress, brought her,not for the reason of looking for a child but go straight in and say "why hasn't he been here all day ?" admonishing the man directly, "why is there something wrong ? I've come here to ask permission with RT, it's just her ex-husband, just take care of the new wife mas and mba this let me take care and be happy right ." replied the man whom I did not know his name, I was shocked and trembling.

Fortunately my son no one heard them playing in the room with his new game.