PHILOPHOBIA, When I'm Afraid of Falling in Love But Getting Married Is My Dream .
Actually marriage
...Early knew him. I never thought it would be so far. the figure of a wise man, cool, well in my opinion now transformed into a figure that is very desired by many women....
...well, I knew that one day this would happen. In the past I could only admire him with all his brilliant and unique thoughts, now he was right beside me and became one of the most special people besides my family and friends . my days are now more colorful after meeting him. All the sorrows we have passed and now it has been almost the fifth year we walk side by side through the sorrows together, about the marriage we have often talked about but again for the same reason he always refused to talk about it ....
...As a woman I may seem selfish but is not in a relationship in the end must be anchored also at the gate of marriage ? ....
...“ YOU WHY THE HELL …. !! WASN'T IT FROM THE BEGINNING THAT WE WERE DATING YOU KNEW I WASN'T READY TO GET MARRIED !! AND YOU KNOW......" His speech was interrupted as if he was aware of what words he was going to put out of his mouth, whether it would sound hurtful or not . He seems frustrated with everything. While throwing his breath rough he again continued his words that had been interrupted earlier but this time with a slow tone of voice and a soft sound he said ....
..." My parents haven't completely agreed with our relationship !!!! “ He said while looking down at that time . I was astonished to hear his words . it is true from the beginning of our introductory process, he already told me that we just go . what kind of future process let God answer it but...want to when ? is he not sure about me ? or what ? that's what I was thinking when he and I were talking about our next relationship . but that's when all the questions in my head were answered ' it turns out that both her parents didn't approve of my relationship and her '....
...After the great quarrel that night, I no longer want to discuss marriage because for me if it was time for me and him to get married would be a happy day that I would feel too....
...The fifth year is the toughest years in a relationship, it scared me but until now I feel my relationship and he is still fine and will continue to be fine, that's my hope ....
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...Speaking of marriage, I have a friend who was once disappointed before his happy day, at first everything went well even messan katerin , the building until the invitation was already in print but suddenly just a week before the wedding day the groom decided to separate and end their relationship unilaterally , you can imagine how hurt my best friend was but when I asked about his feelings after all that passed , I still remember once with teary eyes she said “ I wanted to get married but if she didn't want it maybe it was God's answer that she wasn't the best for me “ . but you are hurt and still hold grudges no, continued me . “ heartache problem , who the hell is not hurt …. Surely everyone who was in my position at that time would also be hurt, especially my parents, but I have a principle I do not want to be a bad person let alone vengeful , ' '' but I have a principle , let him be with all his evilness but I don't , I don't want to be like him and hurt others because enough of me to ever be in that position “ that's the most beautiful speech I've ever heard from him . Dita , ''s , he is one of my best friends who for me he has eaten a lot of salt acid about love problems and for me he is one of the most suitable people to talk to about my problems and from him lah I learned many things . Now after a few years had passed finally the Lord heard his prayer.now he has a very good husband and a very beautiful daughter too . god has his own way of making his servant happy ....
