PHILOPHOBIA, When I'm Afraid of Falling in Love But Getting Married Is My Dream .

Memories of Childhood .

" Mister Panda "Lita said spontaneously and sounded Lirih .

Lita pegged , she was shocked when she realized the sentence she just said .

_ flashback _

suddenly without excuse his childhood memories were writhing in his mind. Like a video he was watching . he was like being brought in scene by scene in the show but now he is the small version .the first scene starts with a cry . the girl was crying in her room, I don't know what made him cry until he finally decided to get out of his room and he ran away to the house of someone not far from his house and only a few houses away from his house . the girl ran as hard as she could without regard to the rain that soaked her body 'cause the one who came to her mind at that time was just a Panda, the name for her male friend who was wearing glasses like a Panda . as he ran towards his friend's house, what came to mind that night was how he expressed his sadness and the only person who could understand him was Panda , so it was without a second thought he immediately went to Panda's house without seeing the situation at that time which turned out to be in the rain .

Little Lita was seen standing in front of the fence of her house Panda .that night somehow her house was dark as uninhabited Panda . Little Lita just thought that the occupant might be out of the house, finally she decided to open the fence that happened to be open a little . Lita stepped into the porch of the Panda house, that night she decided to wait for Panda on the porch but until the clothes on her body dried up and the sun hit her body and slowly woke her up , The figure of the man with the eyes never came . When little Lita was struggling with her mind, suddenly there was a figure of a pulmonary woman who she knew very well came to him while carrying a medium-sized rectangular object .

Lita tried to stand up after seeing the figure of the woman's lungs .

" Aunty.... " She said while trying to smile .

" Non Lita's..... " Say Aunt walked over and she cried a little when she realized that this girl must have slept here all night because her face had shown , her face looked so pale.

Since that night , his days have changed .no more crisp laughter has arisen on his lips , both at home and outside the house . Little Lita turns into someone who is introverted, and spends more of her time in the room alone , not because he was left behind by Panda, but there are some things that suddenly happen in his life unexpectedly. The quarrel of his parents who had always looked so harmonious turned out it was all Falsity . The falsehood they show is solely for the happiness of their children . but that night, I did not know what possessed the two parents until they directly showed the quarrel in front of their child, Little Lita . Lita who was initially shocked and wondered at the end she also understood because in terms of age she already knew what it was called divorce. fourth grade Elementary child would have understood that but he seemed to not believe what he heard and saw .

_ Flashback end _

Lita ran towards the sink as she started to feel nauseous, it often happened to her as she started to remember the events of the night . Lita never goes to the doctor and asks why it could happen to her but one thing Lita knows , he thought that it happened to him probably because of his psychological effects .

After cleaning her mouth, Lita leaves the sink and walks slowly to her suitcase, taking her towels and clothes to go to the bathroom to clean her , because he had not had time to clean himself when he set foot in this hotel room and he prefers to sleep shortly after entering the room .

After cleaning herself Lita was out of the bathroom with a face that looks natural beauty even without the slightest makeup polish on her face . Lita dried her hair then combed it and after that she smeared a little lipstick on her thin lips without wearing powder and other makeup just her lips that she smeared with a slightly dark red lipstick . After feeling perfect Lita also took a side bag that she had filled with some important items such as a wallet, mobile phone, and some drugs that she put in a small bag . just a few steps while going out of the hotel room suddenly he felt a little dizzy and sick in his stomach , Lita holds the wall while leaning her body against the wall and slowly changing position by sitting while leaning her body and legs are bent . After a few minutes and feeling a little good, Lita slowly got up from her seat and walked slowly to the door of her room . Lita still decided to leave even though she knew the condition of her body was not fit, but she continued to move her legs without hesitation even though the road was a little slow . Now Lita was in front of the elevator door, a few moments later the elevator door opened . Lita entered the elevator did not forget she wore a mask to cover part of her face and tied her hair ponytail so that she did not feel sultry. In the elevator he suddenly started to feel dizzy again but with all his strength he endured the pain . Lita stays cool even though she knows she could fall down at any time .

Lita stepped out of the elevator along with several other people but only a few steps suddenly her legs were no longer able to support her body and Brukkkk, Lita finally collapsed .