Paper Dreams

Chapter 5's

For hours I was still taking pictures of my wedding. I've forgotten that I'm so hungry. I just focused on looking for weirdness in the other photos. I took one of the photos, I reopened some albums and I looked to see if anyone I knew disappeared like Lenca. However, I did not find a single photo that changed. Only a photo of Lenca is missing on the album so much on our wedding album.

"Keysha? You where? Why aren't you home? Hey, lady******where are you hiding?" There was Kenan's voice very loud and angry. I thought I'd spend the night out there and not be back for the next few days.

I came out of the barn and approached him who had earlier slammed the door in anger to see I was not home. "Why?" That's the only word I can say to him.

"Where are you from? I'm busy looking for you, do you want to get away from me? You always piss me off!" he said while pointing at me with annoyance and anger.

"I'm in the back shed" I said briefly without seeing the look on his face.

"What are you doing there? You should just stay in the room, not go anywhere. It's food for you." He still sounded annoyed, the food he gave was thrown just like that on the table. "Eat!" He pointed to the food lying on the table, then entered the room.

I sat down to eat the food he brought, because the hunger was unbearable after seeing the food. "Your mom called, you took my phone in the bag and called your mom!" said Kenan who still sounded annoyed. I know why he came home.

I picked up what HP said and called my mom. Tut, tut, tut, "Hello mother, what's the matter with you calling?" I said after hearing my mother pick up her phone.

"It's okay, kid, are you okay in there?" my mother said, from across the phone, sounding worried.

I wanted to say everything to my mother, but I said it out of fear she was worried. "It's okay Mom, I'm fine here" I said resignedly. We also talk about other things that are not important. Maybe it's because we miss each other so much.

Fifteen minutes had passed, and I hung up the phone. I am also starting to feel anxious about my life right now. I'm afraid that if I get angry or anything else, I feel very traumatized if it's my husband.

"Keysha? You done calling your mom?" His voice has begun to smooth, I understand if this is the case.

"Come in, I want to talk to you. Keep the phone back in the bag" he said again in a smooth voice.

I walked to the table above it and wanted to keep the HP. However, I saw a chat coming in, 'Darling, I can't do it alone. You're going home, right?' I already knew he had a relationship with another woman, but I didn't like that woman even going after him so much. Doesn't he know that Kenan has a wife.

"Key? Why are you taking so long?" he said he was getting upset.

I went into the room and saw him lying on his back on the bed. He patted the bed next to the one I usually sleep on. I just stepped like his manoeuvre. Then, get inside the blanket to get ready for bed.

"Serve me tonight!" she whispered, without giving me time to refuse. He started to lift my shirt, which I put up a little resistance to because I didn't want to do it. "I've used security, so serve me as your husband, because I'm your husband." I just want to hear it. Then I let him do whatever he wants to on my body. I just kept quiet following his will.

Usually when he really wants to do it with me, he usually makes preparations that can make my passion also increase. But this time he didn't do that. After she made me naked with my resignation. He just climbed up on me and squeezed my breasts hard. "Why don't you make any noise?" he said because I was just silent and held everything.

"I don't know," I replied again in brief. I'm sure, before going home he had done it with another woman before.

"Lit up a little, even if you're not in pain or feeling anything. I just want to enjoy what I'm doing. Listen, your husband's orders!" said annoyed.

"Yes." Yeah." I did what he told me to do. Although, I hate to do it with him like this. I know that I was just his escape. But, I had to do it because she always said the husband's orders or whatever it was that had to do with obligations. In fact, I'm sure he just thinks I'm the woman***** that he's always met in those various places and does this. Husband and wife who have sex but always wear safety even though they do not have children and have long been married.

For over an hour I served him as he commanded. I'm sick and getting tired like this. I came out of the room after she fell asleep. I went to the bathroom to clean myself up. I feel like I want to go back to the past right now. I went to the kitchen and saw the paper back. Do I have to do it now? Would I not be surprised if something happened after I returned in the past?