Paper Dreams

Give me Paper 1, Chapter 1

Pranggggg.

The glass was thrown next to me. Ruptured. The glass broke on the floor near the table I was standing on at the moment. The man in front of me was getting mad at me and the more he said.

I was shaking, my legs couldn't stand in front of him. My ears are full of his chatter. My mouth trembled wanting to say something, but it felt like I couldn't stand up to what he said. Right, I'm so scared of this man in front of me.

"Why is the food just this? Where's the other side dish? Rice is just this. Where else, do you think I'm full just eating this?"

"It's just the groceries in the fridge, so I just make food like that. Rice also lives that way."

"You lied to me! You're hiding good food for yourself, aren't you?"

"No. I'm not hiding anything. There are only vegetables so I.." I said in a stammering tone.

"You think I'm an animal? Just eat leaves like this. Why don't you go buy groceries at the Supermarket" she asked me again furiously.

"I don't have any money."

"What?" He threw two plates of rice at my feet.

"I... I don't have any money." I said while crying.

"Do you want the groceries I gave you last week?" he said to me again. Doesn't he know that I'm buying food, putting money in for electricity and savings if at any time he or she needs something.

"Answer! Is your mouth mute? I gave you Rp200,000,- last week. The money should last for the next two weeks or a few more weeks. But, what the fuck are you. You asked me for more money. I don't have any money" she told me again with a reddened face. Sometimes I refuse to ask for money. But, the cooking ingredients were completely depleted. I recently went to the doctor to check my health and it cost me my savings.

"I buy groceries every time you give me money" I replied in a forced manner and half-lips quivered with fear to answer her question.

"I'm from the clinic, I'm checking my health. For a few days I kept having headaches. I thought, I have a disease or something, so I checked myself out," I replied fearfully and I did not dare to look at her face even her eyes could not see. I'll bet you, his face must have turned red.

"Yourhift. So you spent the money I got for fun? I've never been to a clinic if I'm sick. Why can't you hold it a little if you're sick? You'll heal if you keep holding him. You just spend money." His voice is getting bigger to me.

Praaaaanngg...

He threw back the plate he had previously held down and almost hit my foot. If it had been like this I would not have dared to look at his face. Or he'll keep throwing something next to him.

"Today I won't give you any money. I'll buy food outside. I don't care about you, whether you want to eat or not. It's a consequence you get because the money I give you is only for you. And don't wait for me to come back in the next few days I'll be out of town." He stepped outside with his bag as usual. Didn't pick up clothes even though he had said he was going out of town. I know, he'll just be in places that make him happy like a bar, with his friends or maybe with other women.

"Please give me a little money to buy rice, the rice is completely gone" I said with fear. If I hadn't told you, I wouldn't have been able to eat all day.

"You take care of yourself, I won't give you a penny." He continued his steps out of the house.

I'd be happy if he said he was going out of town. However, I don't have any money right now how am I supposed to eat? I don't have any family or friends here. We wander after marriage, so we do not know any seoarang here. He never introduced me to his friends.

Well, we were married about six months ago and I've been suffering for that long. He forbids me to go outside if I don't have a need. That's why I don't have any friends or acquaintances here. I only know myself in this strange place, Alfira Keysha. Well that's my name and my husband Kenan Kentana who I thought would make me happy. But in fact, he tortured me so much.

This is the first time I'm going outside. I want to find a job but can I get a salary today? I thought it was impossible. Or am I just sitting and begging? that's also the thing I least want to do. But, what do I have to do to get the money?

I saw a garden filled with people my age and children playing. There are a lot of couples dating here. When I see a happy couple I envy their lives. How not, my life is this chaotic. There was never a happy word in my family after we left our hometown to make money. I was really unlucky, having a family like this.

I also sat on one of the long benches in the park. I was just pensively thinking about what I should do here and hoping that there would be a little miracle happening to me. Or at least someone gave me food so I could survive.

Half an hour passed and I sat here. Someone dressed in black came up to me and offered me something unusual. At first I thought he was just joking about saying something that crazy. However, she changed my mindset and took my heart and made me think of accepting her offer. Do I really have to take his offer? Will this offer be useful to me?