Overlove

25JUST THE SAME

🍁 Time goes very fast, morning afternoon night, morning afternoon night just keep going. I was in 12th grade, but my relationship with Raka was still like that no change, still as a secret admirer. Sometimes I wonder if I misinterpreted her every act on me, but on the other hand also with her PD I feel she has the same feelings as me.😅

Not infrequently ahmad and Diki who is close to Raka always reply to my message when I send a message to raka. I rarely fight because of that. Because I'm ashamed that his friends know I like him. It felt like I was chasing after raka but eventually I was ordinary, actually trying to think positive I think if I really did not matter why it should be told to his friend.

Speaking of messages, once I sent a message of a poem that was romantic in theme. Not happy that he scolded me

" don't send me messages like this again "reply to me. Since then I have never sent a message containing romantic things again.

I also asked him about his ex-girlfriend. I thought he'd be mad because I interfered apparently not.

He told me, he broke up with his ex because it turns out the girl has another boyfriend and the raka turns out to be just his affair. That's why they broke up. Telling me she advised me not to date and to stay focused on school.

There was no change between us, sometimes I felt tormented by my own feelings. Missing someone but he doesn't know, liking someone but he knows. I am the only one feeling it myself. I don't blame him, I'm wrong for just liking him without daring to confess.

I can't stop because we meet every day. We don't meet sometimes we talk in short messages.

Besides if brother adam forbid me to like raka like I can't.

How could I turn away, the thing he didn't do to another friend He did to me like he gave me the picture he made, loaned me his reading book, he said, and a lot of her little attention stuff made it hard for me to stop liking her.

Too obvious or how classmates, other classes and teachers also seem to know I like raka. It made me and made me ashamed. Sometimes we have to keep our distance. Paying attention to each other when people are not paying attention.

Actually I've asked ahmad about my true feelings, raka, and the thing I caught from Ahmad is that it seems like Raka does have the same feelings as me but she doesn't want to have any relationship because she wants to focus on learning.

I honestly felt stifled when Ahmad said that. Actually I also do not want to have a relationship, I just want to know. because liking someone without knowing the person likes or not on us is very painful.

I chose to be quiet and just pay attention. Stay like this.

📝Liking someone in silence is hard, only a strong person can survive. When you dare to hope then get ready also to feel disappointed🥀🥀🥀