Overlove

10Finding Attention

Last time that night, I was really upset by him. I thought I was a special person to him and there was no way he could curse at me like everyone else. It turns out my guess was wrong. I misinterpreted his attitude towards me.

Along the way I just kept silent and said nothing, my mind kept on being overshadowed by him. I don't think we're in the parking lot.

" Tumben didn't say much "I vaguely heard my brother talking but I just kept quiet. Seeing me who was silent, my brother wanted to come to my class to reprimand raka

" yes.. brother don't.." hold me, I hold his left hand that is about to go to my class. My brother turned to me.

" the wrong sister, don't do it ahhh" I said leaving her. My brother just kept quiet not to return my words, maybe he admitted he was wrong. I already know the person does not like to be called that, still hhhh just scolding me slowly.

Sister chasing approached me.

" ahok "call brother to the figure in front of us. He turned around to see us.

long live.I said in my heart,,

" this is it, brother? " i asked, sister just nodded in response to yes from him. He's a friend of my brother who is said to be similar to raka.

" hello dam, was Adam crying yesterday, right??? " hint it to me. that again.it's again.kayaknya hard to erase my image adeknya Adam's crying brother.

" don't disturb ahok, his son again sprained" I'm analyzing which part is said to be similar to raka. Which is similar? but.sama is white squinty to his china-insult, I said in my heart.

Letting the two of them chat I walked to my class leaving them still in the parking lot.

Going to class I haven't seen him yet, whereas today is our picket schedule, he should have come early. Thank goodness last week was clean so no need to picket again.

I lowered my chair on the table and I lowered it to iki too.

One after another came, starting the desolate, uninhabited classes to become inhabited.

Until Raka finally came and approached me. Checking his bag, he took my sketchbook,

" this, sorry to take it" I picked it up and put it under the table. Without saying anything I left him and took my hat.

" ayoo has bought "take me to dinda, and the newly arrived princess.

" wait...." Daughter and dinda always go to school together because their house is close.~

Flag ceremony, I always stand at the front since SD until now never changed. The flag ceremony became long because it had to listen to the headmaster's long speech.

The sun feels right above your head. Sweat has started to appear around the face. Sometimes I look to the back side. Like someone was watching me. I saw him there behind the son.

Gani who was beside me nudged my hand with her elbow.

" look ahead" she whispered softly. I returned facing forward directly saluting as the principal returned to the starting place.

A few minutes later, the ceremony was over. Back to class, I, dinda, and princess chatted about iki that has not seemed good since. From behind the sound of raka "iki not coming in, huh? "

" yes, I "answer dinda

" why??? " ask the princess

" Nothing, just ask me "he joined chatting with us, talk this. I occasionally reply, but when he asked me back I just kept quiet. Arriving at the class, we sat down at each of us. ~

Cultural arts lessons,,,

me, dinda and iki laugh at each other looking at our pictures. The worst picture is the princess. Because of this cultural art lesson we were told to draw a poster of the theme of cleanliness.

fun to draw, he came to my desk

" borrow dong eraser"

" there's no "my answer because that's the fact I forgot where my eraser was. Every day I feel like my stationery is missing. He went back to his desk, but after a few minutes, he came back to my shirt, now the reason is to borrow a sharpener.

" There is no "my answer . Again and again a few times he returned to my desk, there is.aja who in the car, I so added a sprain for him finally I did not pay attention to him.

Wanting to pick up the eraser in front of my daughter I accidentally dropped my pencil case.

I looked down to get it but he got it for me first.

" Thank you "I told him. Finally he went back to his desk again. Just back, he came again, I thought he would borrow anything else but in fact he came forward to collect the task.

Followed by the other children, I took part in collecting assignments because the time for cultural arts lessons was up.

during the break, the three of us went to the cafeteria, back from the canteen, I was fixated on the male figure who was now sitting in iki's place. Raka was sitting on iki's seat, she was chatting with Rika.

Seeing him smile seemed like he hadn't thought about the matter last night. I'm getting more upset...

" Ayoo Raka, Rika eat. " invite the princess and dinda together.

" ayoo ka jajan "take me to Rika, I also ended up sitting in my place.

" yes continue "they say at the same time.

Behind me she keeps chatting with Rika.

" What was the cultural art? " ask raka. He turned to face me.

" you....."

" hahaha I can't picture a trash can, not because of the shape.but thank God dapet B, you? " answered the princess

" mmmm A "

" You don't play with boys? " my question was suddenly out of the context of the chat because all this time I saw he was always chatting with girls.

Hearing my words his face looked a little upset.

" why the hell? "

" There's nothing just to ask "my answer and continue eating.

" This snack is delicious yes put" said Dinda, like melting the atmosphere that began to tense between us. ~

At the third hour, he sat next to Rika who happened to be Belinda's seat. But because they have something so don't sit together anymore. During the lesson he occasionally chatted.

Hearing those who chatted I occasionally glanced at them. Strangely as I glanced, Raka glanced at me while laughing a smile and spoke again with Rika.

I could only raise my eyebrows and grumble in my heart, deliberately let me be angry, jealous... aghhh.

" Daughter, please have her head slide a little "my door, which further notes the lesson ahead.

Finished taking notes we were told to make a group of 4 people. My mind was unceasingly on him.

" less one, raka joined ndak? " take princess. honestly I think she'll just say yes.but the truth is

" i'm sorry my daughter joined Rika "heard the answer there was a sense of disappointment and regret because anger was not clear to her, when the wrong thing was me. But at least I just want him to say sorry 😔

That difficult????

We ended up with Gani.

Discussing lessons, we occasionally joked. I'm going to PDan or what? I felt like he was watching me but I didn't dare to look. I'm afraid I misinterpreted again

" weiii.why ayoo answered this "reproof gani made me focus back on the question sheet that must be answered.

I answered the question according to the opinion of the three of us and dinda served as a registrar. Finished,,, we collected straight away but we lost first with the men's group, Monik, virgin, and Kristin.

time seems to go faster,,,

Finally time to go home to school. Because all the students come in the morning so it looks very crowded when they come home. We usually wait first when lonely just come home because it does not want to crowded in a dusty parking lot.

Waiting in front while looking at the crowd below. Raka came to me. Dinda and the princess went down first because of OSIS. From the past until now I rarely follow eskul activities in school.

" Not come home yet? " do you know it's still here, ask again

" No, it's still here "

" are you angry? " you just realized I was angry, I said in my heart as if answering his question, unfortunately he did not listen to my heart.

" no "

" no longer angry" geez. I think he's sensitive, it turns out my guess is wrong.

" who's home? "

" sister, you're not coming home? " let me go back.

" narran was still crowded"

" if so I go first" I said leaving him, looking at the older brother who was waiting for me below.

Downstairs, my sister asked

" why else is he? " ask while looking up. My reflex was to hold my brother's head so as not to look up.

" i'm sorry brother" said I felt guilty for not politely holding my brother's head.

" don't look there!!!! "

" why the hell? "

" ie.... already....let's go home" asked me while dragging my brother's hand.

" beware.yeah Lok near the decket again the same boy"

" deket what the hell is this sister" I glanced up accidentally our eyes met. I immediately lowered my head, feeling something strange to me what is this ??? my heart was beating faster than usual.I grasped my chest.

" you why? " ask my sister, maybe feeling something strange.

" There is no "my answer, I am confused I also feel something strange with me.

📝What strange feeling is this? I want to be angry and not care but it turns out I can't. My feelings beat my logic.