Overlove

24 # CLOSE FEELS FAR AWAY

🍁I thought drifting, daydreaming thinking of him who was getting closer and closer to me. But somehow I feel far away from her even though I am with her.

" Why are you? " ask someone I know very well, disperse all my daydreams about him.

" hmmm.. there is no "my answer continues to draw on a used paper, rather the origin of doodles.

He sat next to me, drawing on the same old paper as me. I watched him draw.

" ****??? " i asked to look at him, simultaneously he also turned to me. Feeling too close I immediately retreated and turned my gaze in a different direction. My cheeks feel warm my heart again beating fast. does he feel the same way as me? I asked in my heart, I stole the opportunity to glance at him to find out, but in fact he looks ordinary.

" why does the image***** continue? " let me try to be as ordinary as he is, diverting him from not knowing what I am feeling.

" funny.." she replied smiling, seeing him I had a little laugh. I think she drew herself 😂😂😂😂

Judging by our other children who were so close, we became the subject of ridicule, especially rafael who mocked our closeness

" cie.. raka ..,,, aging...dating...dating"

" ciee... raka." continued another.

" be silent "Reply to the emotion until standing pointed at rafael. There is something in my heart that makes me disappointed, Tekkkk,, am I also angry at being taunted by rafael or seeing the expression and response of raka that every time in the teasing of other friends about our closeness he is very angry, he said, sometimes he just kept quiet but seeing from the expression on his face there was anger that I saw.

I always kept quiet with embarrassment.

" don't get angry old spit "raff rafael again. This time he was silent and returned to his seat. Why is he so ? does he not like me? my question is in my heart. I was really hurt by his attitude.

I continued to draw my heart to hurt, I wanted to cry but I could bear it. Negative thoughts began to germinate in my heart

Time in ridicule Rika she never really like you she was so 😈

no, maybe he has a reason 😇*

what reason? if he likes you, he will not be angry until then 😈

There was no answer to that I took off my pen and stopped drawing.

Dinda and the princess came "why??? " ask them simultaneously

" there is no "I answered

" i'm sorry, I don't have a pulse for your sms bales" said the princess

" ah. yes "my half feeling guilty is actually my goal to send a message so that I have chat material with raka but fear raka suspicious and think nothing, he said, so sometimes I get to send messages (motivation words) to other friends as well such as dinda, princess, and iki.

" Not in reply is also okay put, the person who is waiting for the reply is not us but Di. a "reply dinda. I instantly shut up a thousand languages like I was caught stealing.

" ah. ya. ya" replied the grin princess after knowing my reason for actually sending a message. I feel guilty using them as alibis.

" i'm sorry "I feel guilty. Dinda and the princess laughed at my apology.

" hushtttt "my words to dinda and princess fear raka to hear our conversation. I ended up laughing with them.

" oah.. ouch, my stomach ache" said the princess.

" where have you been? " ask the princess

I then told them that not infrequently me and raka reciprocated messages. Just tell me about our same hobby, discuss the readings that have been read, discuss anime-anime that have been watched.

" that's all? " ask the princess

" yes "my answer smiled considering every end of our chat he always said oyasumi nasai. ~

The second hour of rest, I'm coming to the moon so I don't pray dzuhur congregation. Rika who also does not pray sits with me.

" not praying? " ask Rica

Raka walked past us, I only noticed her when she walked past us but not for Rika.

" dear." call Rika to raka. Raka turned to look at us, her silent cheeks red a shy smile she turned her way back.

Seeing it for the first time such embarrassment I laughed loudly, Rika who was beside me also laughed. Until she's lost behind the door, Rika invites me to chat

" i'm just mocking him "tell Rika, make me stop laughing

" why? "

" yes because of that, you saw his face "

" oh, yeah" yeah "

" funny, right, she's a lot of girl friends but if she's flirting with her guts immediately "I'm quiet for a moment a little surprised because Rika seems to know a lot about raka.

" you know a lot about raka "quote me with a smile

" yes, we're going to SMP "

" Oh.. , ja.

" SMP raka used to date the same ika "

" ika??? " my question is to make sure my feelings start to get weird again.

" yes our SMPs "

" ever.., so that means it's broken up now? "

" yes "

" why? " many want to know more.

" don't know the reason, I just heard they suddenly broke up" explained Rika.

Chatting a lot with Rika made me know a little about her old self. However, knowing that raka has been dating makes me not confident, I want to choose not to know rather than to know. On the other hand, I don't think I know him yet. ~

At home

It was late in the evening, I was sitting next to the porch. The atmosphere was so dark that only the lights of each neighboring house were visible.

Staring at the sky filled with starlight I was amazed when I saw the twinkling it was very Beautiful Creation of Allah SWT. Plus the moonlight that shyly hides behind the clouds.

Sitting on the porch, I was a little shocked when the night wind greeted the body. This night was colder than the night before.

The cold of the night added to the loneliness I felt. There were brothers, alif, mamak and father. But I feel lonely.

I thought I was floating thinking about Rika's words this afternoon to me. Because it keeps thinking I'm trying to find out about ifa raka's ex-boyfriend.

Figuring out in a raka friendship, it turns out that the two of them are still friends. And what makes me think of some comments that relate raka with ika.

maybe they still like each other? I said in my heart.

"hmmmmm" I let out a long breath.

I remember usually me and raka reciprocating messages, but today after finding out about if I put my phone down and not hold it anymore. I'm afraid of holding a cell phone because if he sends me a message later I don't know what to answer.

The night was getting colder, the cold was getting to the bone. If I stay here for a long time I can freeze my mind. I then went into the room.

📝Sometimes I prefer not to know rather than to know because when I know I'm more curious, the more curious sometimes what we want to know will hurt us. 🍂🍂🍂