Overlove
13Already Loved It
The more days I often hear, not many friends who talk about the closeness of raka and Rika and even betrothed them. I'm the one who tries to be ordinary - ordinary but can't be completely ordinary.
I've become more and more unafraid to get close to her afraid that Rika might get angry because maybe now they're really dating. That's why I'm trying to avoid anything that has to do with those two not just for Rika, maybe more for myself so that I'm not too disappointed.
Like understanding my feelings and knowing what I feel these 3 best friends always invite me out to hear nothing about them.
But I feel guilty for iki, because she always refused when invited to the cafeteria by Diki and chose to accompany me.
" It's okay ki, pity Diki"
" pity what?? I'm the same he's just a friend "he always says that when I tell him to go with Diki.
" already.. alreadyhhh.., yuk to the canteen "take the daughter who has started school today.
Until the cafeteria again I met my brother was sitting chatting with his friends. Strangely when shopping and going back to class sister did not call me as usual to ask for payin. is possible because there are friends I ask in my heart. Which finally made me wonder and wonder why
" wait a minute, I want to go to my sister first "my words then turn around to the back, but because I feel bad I tell them to go to class first if you want
" it's okay we're the same" they replied in unison.
Arrive where you sit with your friends.
" sister." call me.
adam turned to me. I waved my hand telling him to come to me.
" what's up? " ask Adam who is in front of me.
" sister ate? " let me wonder.
" it's already "
" ohhh, yes already" answered and then turned around to leave her.
" eitssss wait "sister again pulled the tip of my hijab back.
" why? tumben nanya?"
" nothing, because usually the sister often asked for payain, so adek curious "
" ohhh adek want to pay sister again "goda sister cantengar grin
" not "my words immediately run away, I understand the ignorant cry.
running towards the dinda, princess, and iki who had been waiting since, suddenly my stomach felt pain.maybe because it had not eaten my mind and accelerated my footsteps.
Arriving in class, again had to hear other children who teased raka and rika seductive tease. It is hard to avoid it, I said again.
" eat.. eat." take the princess.
I just bit the bread I bought, it has not yet entered the stomach again my stomach feels more pain than before like my intestines in coils. I held my stomach grimacing in pain.
" why??? " ask the three of them
" my stomach hurts" I said, unable to bear the pain I put my forehead on the table while one of my hands held back my stomach pain.
" i think I got it "
" not allowed to go home? " fresh princess.
" yes, ask for help" I said slowly.
Iki clasped my right hand, the princess and dinda went to the teacher's room asking permission for me,, my face was sweating but my hands and feet were cold.
Before long dinda and the princess came with a license. Thank God my homeroom teacher gave me permission to go home early. On the way down, I told dinda and the princess to stay in class because the bell had rung
" please put the key of the casiin motor to brother adam!!!! " my door to the princess
" yes "answer the princess took the key in my hand.
" Be careful on the road"
" yes "answer iki,,
Down the stairs I cross paths with raka and anti who want to climb the stairs.
" where are you going? " ask raka
" go home "answer iki, I just quietly listen.
" are you sick? " he asked me.
" yes "my answer slowly I feel like I can't speak.
15 Minutes drive, I got home, because it was still in school time iki immediately back to follow the next lesson. I went in alone into the house.mamak was surprised to see me who came home early
" why go home? "
" stomach pain" I said.
Mama wiped the sweat off my face and told me to sleep in the room. Rest in the room instead of the better my stomach the longer the pain I cried while calling mamak. Panic mamak calling for help to father to go home sooner.
When you came, with the uniform still attached to my body I was taken to the puskesmas near the house.
It turned out that Maghku relapsed, drank less, plus the time came months too, so the pain of the double-double that finally the infusion line landed on my hand. When the needle entered my skin I was really shocked not to hurt but out of fear so I closed my eyes, when the hose started to connect to my hand I felt the liquid pass through my veins.
Only 2 hours I was at the puskesmas and allowed to go home. Along the way my father nagged me for rarely drinking water and always late to eat. I know I'm wrong just shut up. ~
" good is it sick?? " says the great alif. Maybe because of the habit of when sick mamak father became more attention to me, food is served a lot, want to eat live at get mamak, I just sleep in bed but there is no good too.
" wow do you want??? hemm uankkkkk "godaku while eating chicken upin ipin (chicken thigh)
" samaan sak " rengek alif
" alif.
" there.. there go, out,, hustttt "get me out.
" squeaky" he said and then closed the door.
It was late afternoon, while lying down because I was bored I borrowed big brother's HP. Just hold an incoming message. I see in front of the HP screen there is no name just a no without a name. I finally opened it up maybe something important
"**Where is it better? "
"who? " many
"are you saving my no? "
" sorry who is this "
" r... a... k... a* "read one letter after another I was a little surprised and full of questions
what????? whyyy???? tumben*?????
"**alhamdulillah is fine"
"thank you thank God** "
After that I became a bit confused to answer the next message, I thought a bit hard answer or not, but answer what??? finally confused not knowing I didn't return the message again.
" did I make a mistake? "
" wrong ????whatchu mean???"
" you continue to avoid "read the word evasive, my eyebrows tinggkat 😕 instead of him who avoids me, let more clearly I immediately answer what is in my heart
" **Not you??? "
" me??? when???? "
" that's because you avoided first, I thought you didn't like being friends with me* "types again.do not because of that time,,,,,,,, I think,,,, when I started to feel like I had something on him I started to avoid him, but I avoided it not because I didn't like it but instead* I said in my heart. I know why I avoided me because I felt guilty first
" **sorry"
" sorry, why? "
" sorry for everything** "type me
" starting from empty ya 😄???? " my door to him.
" yes, I'm sorry too"
"**why sorry, I was wrong"
" yaudah, it's equally wrong to be equally sorry 😅**" I smiled while laughing reading the message, until I forgot that I was sick at the moment.
" **have, rest up"
"yes**" I answered briefly with a smile, at the end of our conversation. I thought that a few days ago I had decided to stop trying to misinterpret his attitude towards me but just a short chat with him made my heart happy. It seems hard for me to stop. But when I thought back to her closeness with Rika suddenly I felt pain, my tears came out a little but I laughed to myself... I like it but I'm afraid to like it.
Not wanting my sister to read our chat, I deleted the Thank and send messages on my sister's phone. I then chose to rest my body with my mind still thinking about it.
📝There are some things we want to avoid but we cannot avoid. All we need to do is face it with fortitude, no matter what happens, be assured that God's scenario is more beautiful, although it is possible to pass through it all must pass through a road full of obstacles.
