On Whose Lips Will These Tears I Drop

Fucking dream

The sound of wind from outside, entering from the cracks of the bedroom door window. The sound of hungry dog barking occasionally gave a stir.

I closed my eyes, who opened the door.

The sound of breathing drew nearer, and my heart skipped a beat. I realized and I knew, she must be Fariza's mother. But I chose the one who woke me up to fight with him tonight.

My blanket moved, as if it was pulled. I still don't care, I let it go first, until where he will do it later.

The blanket had come off my whole body, I felt my fingers touching my hands.

Damn, my heart's getting tighter. I can't control myself anymore. I opened my eyes. Everything was dark, where was my happiness.

"Your happiness is gone."

"Who are you?"

"You forgot about me? I am you, the figure that was once present in your sleep."

"So this is a dream?"

"This is your dream, you're so happy that your heart doesn't beat stably. In the end you fell into a free world for me to come to."

"No way !"

"Are you ready to see Hell in the world? In a moment, wait, you'll be crying without a great story."

"Go!"

My voice my cry made everything in the house wake up. Fariza. He touched my hand, calling my name.

"Ladri, what's wrong with you?"

I don't talk, I just look at his mom with the corner of my eye, she sees me too.

"You why Ladri? Are you dreaming?"

"Yes, I was dreaming. In the dream was a strange figure who introduced death to me. He said, I died not in the hands of God, but in the hands of men."

I showed my face like I was scared, really scared so they were really sure, I was dreaming.

His father only briefly, after knowing it was all just a dream, he went back into his room.

"That's why, if you're going to sleep don't forget to read the do'a first, so that the nightmares come back on the night that cursed him. Oh yeah, not that you slept with me. Why are you sleeping here now?" Fariza looked at me full.

"I don't feel good for your parents, cook her daughter sleeps with a man who's not already her husband. Let alone God, even ordinary people will be angry if what we do is known."

The woman almost half-life blinked her eyes at me and went into her room.

I don't care about it anymore, for me happiness with him is not good happiness. Just some nonsense to scare my heartbeat away.

I broke my body again, but this time Fariza became my blanket. He didn't go to his room, he chose to sleep with me.

Before he closed his eyes he was still talking to me, "Ladri, please keep my body out of the eyes of anyone who wants to look at him, before those eyes marry mine."

He yawned, the smell of his breath was still fragrant and I would be very difficult to forget such a scent.

On top of my chest he put his head, let alone his breath, his heartbeat was clearly felt into my body.

I looked at him full, every mark on his face I saw. I saw a sign that stuck right in the vein of his neck. The mark is black like a mole. Between his eyes, there was a group of troops who were also in black lined up beautifully coloring his eyes. Aih, what a beautiful you Fariza. If I still have the night after tonight, maybe tomorrow we will be officially a couple.

In that endless darkness I cried out to the figure who was always present in my sleep.

"hey, souls who have no bodies. Show me your form" my eyes wildly stared at all the invisible corners of the darkness.

The wind blew on me, I was mired in a big hard object.

The dark light began to be colored, not white in color but similar to the night filled with dark fog.

I stood up and fixed my position, the figure that always appeared without the form appearing before me. His face was the same as mine, equally heartbreaking.

"You," I looked at him like I couldn't believe the body he was wearing.

"This is me, Ladri. I told you once that I am the best of you. I didn't show up that I was able to defeat a pitch-black figure in your dream."

"So ?"

"This is my last arrival in your dreams as the words that always want to change your life. If you hear a voice that contradicts the nature of God, it is not me, but a black figure that will freely enter your dreams as long as you are still asleep. Now that I am gone, this departure is a promise with our lord, if you are no longer on the good road, then good will prepare to leave. It should be tonight and the nights that follow I can still be present in every eye you close. Honey, that last chance you're gonna smear with a woman who's not kosher to you."

"you mean,?

"You have defiled yourself and your soul before God. You should've done that wasn't the age today, you still had the year you had to go. You fight against God Ladri's destiny, and you will receive his reward. As your second soul, I ask permission to go home, to the place where I will be rested by the Lord. Good night Ladri, if you long to meet me then close your eyes and imagine that you are dreaming of meeting with endless words to advise you."

"Wait !"

"Have, you don't have to worry about it anymore."

"Are you the so-called black figure?"

"Yes, I am that black figure, the words that will always teach you how to be happy. Now you have to think about how to be happy in the rest of life in the wild. Remember Ladri, you will soon find suffering. Do you want to suffer for your entire life? No, so find your happiness. The mother of Fariza you've fucked up without you knowing, because the white figure who pretends to be good lulls you to sleep until that pleasure is not obtained. Now, awake. Look at Fariza's face, she's ready to fight me with you."

With my eyes open, I saw Fariza sleeping. Still the same as before, the smell of his breath was still fragrant.

Perhaps it is true, I must be truly happy, before misfortune befalls me.

I kiss Fariza's forehead, the forehead is a sign that I put love first before lust.

When my lips would be stranded on her lips, her eyes opened.

we looked at each other, very briefly, I immediately let go of that gaze and ran out of sense to go to Fariza.

Instead of being angry with me, Fariza even smiled thinly and like I wanted to repeat.

I brought my face closer without the words he said to me.

It's so great, I feel it all, if I knew falling in love was this great, I would never have wasted a human being as long as she was a female.

That night, it was an incredible night, your body was soaked and weak, Fariza was also so just lying helplessly enjoying the pleasure of the past. At that time he spoke asking me, so that I am not as depraved as other men.

With great happiness, I completed the request with an oath.

"Fariza, while God is still there, trust me because I can't possibly deny my vows to her. I swear, as long as you live as I live, I will always be with you. Believe this.

He smiled, and pulled out a blanket to cover all of his almost cold body.

"May you have a good dream."

I tried to close my eyes, and in the end I actually managed to put myself to sleep without a dream."