On Whose Lips Will These Tears I Drop

The Love of a Liar

The wind was very calm, the coolness accompanied my conversation with Fariza. Sometimes he still heard his sobs. I drank the colored water his maid served.

"Fariza, there's one thing you should know before we sail too far. I want you to know, the island that I'm about to hand you over really wants to make you happy, but there's some problems with it, first the island is beautiful but if you look carefully you'll be surprised to not even believe that the beautiful island is not what you see."

"You mean?" It was in the middle of my conversation.

"I'm not what you see."

"I don't understand yet, what's the point of your story?" He looked at me full, my sense of doubt had appeared. I don't believe in the love that just bloomed. But if I don't tell you who else will help me. I didn't want to age in prison, I wasn't so scared at first, but after love grew worry and fear just popped up.

"Let's tell Ladri! I believe every story you tell will have a good reason. Just tell me, I'm ready to hear it without changing my love for you."

I can't believe he'll love me anymore. Anyway that prison cell is my place after this. I have to be happy and feel how in love it is.

"Fariza, the island I said just now is me. If you look from afar the island is beautiful to your eyes, but if you know any deeper the island it's far worse than your story with a man who impregnated you."

Hearing my words, her tears spilled again, "Do you not like women who are unable to take care of themselves?" He said softly with a shady face.

"I definitely love you Fariza, about the chastity you mentioned it won't be anything for our relationship" I replied as I held her hand and placed it on my chest.

"Feel my heartbeat Fariza, all her age she will keep trying to turn my torso on. My living trunk will be me, who will fight with all my might for your happiness. Fariza, you're worried that I don't love you because you've finished being a woman, what about me if you know I am," for a moment I fell silent and did not continue the conversation.

"That, what? Tell me Ladri, if you accept my shortcomings then the broken island will also be accepted as my berthing. With you I want to fix the island. Say it!"

"I'm sick Fariza, I'm not very old. The doctor said if I can survive for a month from my last date to the hospital, it's a miracle of God" I said.

I should be honest and ready to accept whatever he will say including to forget that he has loved me during the age of conversation on the terrace of the house.

After saying my shortcomings in the age section, immediately her tears spilled back. He didn't talk to me, but he spoke to God, complaining about all the feelings he introduced to men.

"Lord, you used to introduce me to a man I thought was perfect, but as the feeling grew, you told him to leave me with tears that knew no time to cry. After I began to improve, I You reintroduced to a man who I thought was far more perfect than the first man You introduced me to, all these years I've been so happy with him that I forgot to worship you. The time that you circled in the almanac I never knew, it turned out that different dates on the same month again undermined my tears. I am utterly incapable of living, but the Angel of Death You have not sent me to take my life. Most heartbreaking of all the men who became my future priests, there were already those who gave me children before the marriage date You mentioned to me. The destruction of my temple is back, after my unformed baby You take it back. Today, after ten years of hating all men, that sense of Thou hast regenerated in my heart with a very different, no-story, taste, without a long meeting I've loved her more than my previous love. I'm really comfortable, but why would you introduce me to such a short taste for such a long memory of life. God I can't afford it anymore."

She was really crying, sobbing into my heart. I can't seem to see it that way, blaming God for my lies. But if I am not like this, I can conclude, my life is only to complete the suffering of man in this world.

I stroked her soft hair and held her head back with both palms of my hands and fixed it on my face.

"Look at me Fariza, Look! Look at my face, look into my eyes, while you are still able to see me I promise I will never go out of your eyes. The doctor is not God, believe me, our God will not be willing to make this extraordinary story without great happiness anyway. Don't blame God, your past story is your rower to get to the island I gave you. If you have arrived bring your rower then plug it in the sand. They will be witnesses of our happiness.

He turned his body back to my chest, his head resting on my shoulder. I felt her tears fall down my neck and shoulders.

I never imagined a woman would cry and drop her tears on my body.

My actions are not worthy of love, but this time it is my way of gaining happiness before the grave of the world hides me in prison.

Suddenly her parents showed up, I was a little insecure, probably because of her first look I entered the house earlier.

"Young man, maybe you've been a man of the umpteenth come to this house. The various forms and ways of meeting that they were playing in the end went and vanished leaving sorrow for our only daughter. I didn't like you at first, but after my wife and I had listened to your conversation, you weren't like the man you'd been here with."

He sat in front of me, but not his wife. He just stood up and slightly tilted his body away from me. His face was dull not accepting that his son was recovering from a past illness. What a strange mother. Sorry mom for this time my heart is no longer for you. I forgot that I didn't deserve to be happy with two girls with the same heartbeat.

I didn't care about the body codes she slipped between my conversations with her husband, until I wanted to ask permission to leave.