Not the Forbidden Miss

Eight - Can't Love Another Woman

The critical mother, Mas Azril was so devastated when he heard the Doctor tell the state of Mama. Not only Mas Azril, Papa also looks very hit once when he knows the condition of Mama who is currently critical. Papa sat down with Mama's older brother who had just arrived, because he got news Mama was in the hospital and his condition was very critical. As for Mas Azril, he was sitting next to me, we were sitting a bit away from Papa and Pakde. From earlier my hand was held by Mas Azril and occasionally kissed by my hand. Time and again Mas Azril whispered his apology on the sidelines sobbing his tears.

I felt what Mas Azril was feeling right now. But it hurts me even more. I was fooled by my husband. If it wasn't for Mama, I'd be home, I'd have packed my clothes, and I'd have left Mas Azril. I prepared all the files for the condition of filing for divorce. However, I cannot be rash like that under these circumstances. Mama is critical, if I keep doing what is on my mind right now, will it not hurt Mama and Papa?

“I beg you, think again of your desire to part, Mal. For the sake of Mama and Papa,” said Mas Azril.

“Leave Farah, if you want me to remain my wife!” gertakku.

“Can't, Mal. I love him, there's Sefi too, me and him have lived for years since I haven't known you, ” he replied. “Hold for Mama's sake, even though I could never love you, Mal,”.

My tears were flowing more and more when I heard Mas Azril's words like that. He easily spoke, asking me to stay in this marriage for Mama's sake, even though he would never be able to love me. Can he do all that but he doesn't love me? How ironic my life.

“Then why did you bring me into your life? You don't love me, why do we stay together, Mom! Are you going to make me just a doll, which you can easily play until you are satisfied? If you don't love me, and our marriage is because of Mama and Papa, don't touch me! You've done it with me, could you do it like that without love, Mom? I guess even though you dare to do that because you have the same taste of me, Mas!” my peek.

“I did it because Mama, Mama asked for grandchildren, Mama wanted grandchildren from you, Mal. Not from another woman, from you, Mala! Because you are the one Mama chose for me and Mama loves you so much, Mal,” she replied.

“For Mama again? Then what do I get? Oh yeah, I only got dregs! Remains of Farah!”

“I'll give you what you want, just don't love me, Mal. I can't love any other woman besides Farah.”

He once said that to me. Can't he appreciate my feelings as his wife? I don't need anything from him, I just want to end it all, rather than living with someone who doesn't love me.

“I already have it all, I just want a husband who can accept me, love me, completely, without but! If you cannot, please divorce me!” my firmness.

“No, Mal! I'm not going to divorce you, I'm afraid Mama's okay, Mal. I love Mama so much, I will do what you want, for Mama's sake I'm willing to marry you, consider you as a wife, and raise you. Even though I don't love you at all. I was sick too, had to share my body with other women, I hurt to touch you that I do not love,” he said.

“Lantas, do you not feel what I feel? The pain is more than anything? Don't give much importance to your ego, Mas!” my reply.

“I did it because for Mama's sake, I'm tolon, your sincerity, your sincerity, for Mama's sake too, Mal,”.

“I can't, Mas. I can't be that thin, even for Mama's sake. I can't,” I said softly.

“I beg you, Mala. What you ask I will follow,”.

“Can't, Mal. I don't love you, I don't want to lie, I don't want to say anything that doesn't come from my heart.”.

I just kept quiet. I don't want to say anything more. Let it be, let it be like this first. I will live, even though Mas Azril does not love me, maybe he is also trying to love me, whether when he can love me. I'll hold on first, until things get better. I will keep asking to separate, but wait for Mama's condition to improve.

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Papa just saw Mom inside. Mas Azril and I also wanted to see it. Even though Mama is my father-in-law, I love her as much as I love you. I went inside with Mas Azril, seeing that Mama's condition was still very weak. His body was fitted with medical devices. I can't imagine if I left Mama in this state.

“Ma, wake up, Ma ... She said Mama has a grandchild. Ma, this is Mala also here, Mama woke up, huh?” mas Azril said with a sob.

I know Mas Azril loved his mother very much, loved her very much. Her mother is her top priority. And now his son is also sick, but he does not care, which he cares about his mother. Clearly, he was very frightened to see his mother who was like this.

I heard my phone clinking because there was an incoming message. I saw who sent me a message. A name I never thought would send a message to me outside of business hours.

Farahs.

Yes, Farah sent me a message. I opened it, and I read a message from him.

[Mal, ask for help, tell Mas Azril, Sefi is fussy, call her father on. His phone was contacted difficult.]

I took my breath heavy. It could be in this state he sent a message that contained it like that. Does he not know that his mother is critical? Is she a mother? Can't it calm his own son without Mas Azril? I just sent a photo of Mas Azril crying in front of his Mama. Let him deduce for himself Mas Azril was how after seeing the photo I sent.

I sent the photo without any caption. Without further ado, type something on him. I'm a big fool, the important thing is that I answered, even with a photo. Let him understand for himself, the meaning of the photo.

I heard my phone clinking again. Farah sent me another message.

[Well, how did it go, Mal? Yes, no need to say Mas Azril, I calm Sefi himself. Let Mas Azril accompany Mama first.]

The message from Farah reads like that. It means he knows the situation. I put your phone back in the little bag. I didn't reply to Farah's message, which didn't feel very important to me. I saw Mas Azril who was still crying while kissing her Mama's hand. I know, Mas Azril loved his mother so much, he didn't even think about his son how he was being treated in this hospital as well.