Not the Forbidden Miss

Seven - Man Has No Heart

I stopped in the doorway when Farah called me. “What's up? Want anything else?” I asked by feeling tightness in the chest.

“We talk to you for a minute, Mal,” the door.

“There's nothing to talk about anymore!” my sergeant.

“Please think again, Mal. You're the only one who can make his mother Mas Azril happy, please if you still have a heart, hold on to all of this. I'm also self-conscious, I was never expected by my mom, but I love her so much, I don't want my mom to get sick, Mal,”.

I turned towards Farah, I smiled sinisterly in front of her. He told me to keep me alive if I had a heart? So, does he have a heart? Are the two of them in front of me people with hearts?

“What did you say? What if I still have a heart? Now I ask, who has no heart who?” my cynic. “Who, Farah?!” my er.

I'm getting furious. I wanted to tear her mouth apart, but I didn't want to dirty my hand to babysit the woman.

“Aware you don't talk like that? Do you have a heart? Got any? If you have why this is? And, you, Mas! What kind of a man are you?! You hurt two women at once, if your mama finds out! Not just two, Mom! My mother, also would surely be heartbroken to see her son cheated by her husband!”

My emotions were getting ignited, I really couldn't hold back my emotions when Farah told me I still had a heart. My heart has been broken, broken, not knowing whether it can come back intact or not. All because of the man in front of me.

“Mal, I beg you, already! Let's just talk at home, Mal. We're going home, huh? We speak carefully,” pinta Mas Azril by begging and welding.

“Nothing to talk about anymore, Mas!” my firmness. “I stick to my stance, I want to split!”

My phone rang, I don't know who called me this late. Eleven o'clock in the evening I was still outside, I was still in the hospital to follow my husband. I saw my phone screen, Papa's number on the phone screen. I'll lift it up, important times.

“Yes, Pa? Assalamualaikum ..” I replied calmly.

“Mala! Mama, Mal! Mama drop again, Papa same driver has headed to Hospital Siaga Medika!” Papa's voice sounded very panicked, why at a time like this Mama even drop? “Azril where to? Papa telfonin many times, but not lifted!”

“Mas Azril is in the bathroom, just got home from the Office, Pa. Maybe his phone is in his bag,” I replied lying. “Papa calm down, huh? Mama must be fine, later Mala same Mas Azril directly to the hospital,” said I.

I turned off the phone from my Father-in-law, I looked at Mas Azril with great annoyance. Mama must have felt all this. Mother's heart bond with her son must be very strong.

“Satisfied, You! Mama's in the hospital! Mama drop, Mas!” I said with full anger.

“Ma—mama drop? Then now?” ask Mas Azril to panic.

“You're his only son, Mom! But, why are you like this? Why are you lying to him! Tega you!” I'm getting annoyed with Mas Azril. “Mama must have felt what was happening to us, Mas! She is a mother, mother is very sensitive to her son, let alone the boy she is proud of!”

“By heading here, to this hospital,” I replied.

Mas Azril sat down with his face cupped. I heard him crying, I knew he must be sorry for what he had done. Now, I don't know what to do, do I stick to my stance to file for divorce? Mumpung I haven't touched Mas Azril again after yesterday just finished coming the moon. So, I'm sure I'm not pregnant right now, because Mas Azril hasn't touched her yet. But, hearing the news of Mama dropping again, I thought of another thousand times to file a divorce lawsuit against Mas Azril. If not, can I live with a husband who does not love me? She loves the woman, even they are happy to have a baby, even though they are only married siri. Should I share a husband? My husband does not love me? Is this fair to me?

If it is fair, Mas Azril must love and love his two wives. But, in reality he doesn't love me, he told me himself that he doesn't love me? If he can't be fair to love, can it be fair to others? Obviously it will be one-sided, he just loves Farah, of course he will side more with Farah. Moreover, he had married Farah first with Farah, already had a baby as well, even though only married her in series.

Mas Azril said he went out first with Farah, because he had received news from Papa that he had reached the Hospital. I walked by Mas Azril's side, we kept quiet, there hasn't been a word.

“We go through the door there, let Papa yearya we just arrived,” invite Mas Azril.

I didn't answer him, I just followed him. Azril moved his feet faster. I know he's so scared and freaked out when he heard his mom drop again.

“Papa!” Mas Azril immediately hugged Papa who was waiting in front of the IGD. “How is Mama doing?” ask Mas Azril.

“While handled by Doctor,” replied Papa.

“Don't know why, Mama can suddenly drop like this, Zril. Even though the mama was okay, still fine, dinner also ate a healthy meal, nothing. I could still watch TV, but suddenly Papa came out of the bathroom, Your mom dropped,” Papa said sobbing.

“Pa who is patient, Mama must be fine, Mama strong woman, Pa,” said Mas Azril.

“Yes, Very strong female mother. Papa is just afraid, very afraid if Mama leaves Papa,” said Papa with a blank look that implies pain. “If Mama doesn't exist who will accompany Papa? Who did you tell, take a walk, and do what made you happy? Who else, Zril. Papa is not ready to lose the very person Papa loves,” his stuffing with pain.

My mother-in-law is the luckiest woman in the world. Her husband had that love for her. Until aging together still love each other, still sharing laughter with affection. I saw Papa like half his soul was lost when Mama was in this state.

“You know, Zril? Papa's life is like hanging in half, almost disappearing, Papa does not know anymore, Mama is half life papa,” said Papa sobbing.

I sit next to Papa, I hold Papa's hand, I strengthen Papa. I know Papa is so scared, because it's critical tonight.

“Papa scared, Mal,” isak Papa.

“Pa's patient, huh? Papa prayed, surely Mama will be fine,” my words calm Papa.

If only I had a husband like Papa, who loves me so much, maybe I would feel happy like Mama. I just realized, it turned out to be true, Mas Azril did not love me, the proof when I miscarried just yesterday Mas Azril was ordinary, not so worried, was it so? It turns out that I was just hallucinating, that my husband was in love with me.