Not the First Love Ruksah

The Bitter Honesty

As they were talking, Ruksah's face was already visible in front of the computer room door. It was a sign that he was done to complete his computer practice.

Earlier when in the computer room his mind was upset because he was afraid to hurt Devan . But it is better to be honest than to give false hope to him.

With a hesitant step, Ruksah approached her three best friends. He's determined to end the problem even if it hurts Devan . It was better than having to cheat and spread more lies to him.

Ruksah came and greeted them

Then he took Devan to the back cafeteria.

Ruksah :" Heyyyy, how much fun, what the hell is it?"

Smile:" Who else is Lo talking to?"

Ruksah : "Ohhh yeah... What's wrong with me?"

Smile:" Gak ahhh was just kidding."

Ruksah was indeed her son famous plain so when hearing about it from Smile herself just haha hoho aja.

Ruksah :" Ohhhh, Van. I want to talk to you, but only four eyes, not eight eyes!"

Smile and Angga have understood but they deliberately want to tease Ruksah with Devan .

Angga :" Relax, we are not the eyes of a real person."

Ruksah :"Tau I'm also you guys but... This is my business same Devan time you guys want to do the cintilin anyway?"

Smile and Angga are again compotes.

Angga :" It is we should know about Kakata friend aka best friend forever. Yeah, Van?"

Devan :" Yes Lo on my friend, but please this time do not need to be intilin so we can freely talk."

Smile:" Yes, Van, we joke around with Lo who sewot. Though our target is Ruksah".

Ruksah :" I'm a Solehah so I can't make it to me kidding lohhh but it's the same temenlohhh that sensinya.'

Though usually Ruksah is often sensitive but either because she is kasmaran and happy, so she is not inedible to joke them.

Devan:" Dude, I was there first."

Angga :" Yes.iya yes to me."

Devan:" I promise not to yawww."

They passed by and went to the back of the school. There Ruksah ordered two sweet iced teas on mbak Ijah.

Ruksah:" iced tea ma'am two yes."

mbak Ijah:" Yes."

Ruksah then confused where to start with Devan. He also assured himself that he was not wrong to fall in love.

Then Devan finally opened the conversation because he saw Ruksah as doubtful and also worried.

Devan:" Do you want to say what I do Ruksah ?"

Ruksah :" I was confused where to talk ."

Devan:" Speak truthfully, inshallah I will listen to it."

Devan who is confident even smiles because he is sure to be accepted by Ruksah. Ruksahpun answered Devan's statement . He knew that Devan's speech had a point in letting him be honest even though bitter.

Ruksah:" Devan.. Yesterday you shot me to be your boyfriend."

Devan:" Terusss, you have the answer, right?"

Seen once in the face of Devan who was hoping his statement to Ruksah will be accepted. Not necessarily also. Ruksah could not bear Devan at that time. He was going to accept Devan . But it's not Ruksah's name if she's a gamang. Ruksah is a strict person even if it concerns her.

Ruksah :" Yeah, I have the answer."

Devan:" So what's your answer to me?"

Ruksah:" Sorry."

Devan was heartbroken, his bright face so grim. He then asked in more detail why his heart rejected him as well.

Devan:" Why? didn't you say yesterday you started liking me?"

Ruksah :" Yes, but I've made it with someone else."

Devan is shocked by Ruksah's words, he also wants to know who is the man who has ruined his hopes.

Devan:" Who?"

Ruksah :" She was Reza my first love whom I had long hoped to be my lover. He also made it hard for me to move on."

Devan:" So he's your lover now? How can? aren't you far away? When?"

Ruksah :" How many questions?"

Devan:" I was surprised, because it's not the school far away. When's meet?"

Ruksah told Devan everything . Devan feels heartbroken and also his hope is extinct to become Ruksah's lover.

Ruksah:" She was with me yesterday, Van."

Devan:" Ohhhh."

Ruksah:" She found me yesterday at school through Fery . That's why Fery came to see me yesterday because Reza came and wanted to see me."

Devan :" Then....."

Ruksah :" We vented both our hearts . It turns out that he has loved me for a long time. It's only fitting that I have a hard time moving on with him because he and I have been in love all this time."

Devan feels heartbroken wanting to cry but he is a guy. So he just looked at the sky. Fortunately, his friend had given him a warning so he had a little mental strength during this heartbreak.

Devan then spoke back after his heart calmed down.

Devan:" I'm glad Lo has become the same lover of pujaan loh, May it last."

Ruksah :" I'm sorry, because I can't repay love."

Devan:" It's okay, I accept the decision ."

Ruksah :" Do we remain in office?"

Devan:" Why ask that?"

Ruksah :" It's because on TV if a broken hearted man continues to not want more peace."

Devan:" Looo can, will not Ruksah we remain friends really."

Ruksah :" You're not heartbroken?"

Devan:" Oh, I'm broken, not in time?"

Ruksah :"Thank you for understanding me. You're a good guy and a calm. I like the same you know, I was going to love youhhh but. because Reza came, so I weigh my heart choose who."

Devan:" I don't accept the decision"."

Ruksah: "Yes, thank you Van."

They finally returned to meet their friends. But the look on Devan's face was very mesem. Seen on his face was sadness. Angga and Smile have guessed the answer Ruksah from Devan's bent face. Ruksah also said goodbye to them to re-enter his class.

Ruksah :" Smile, Angga, and Devan I was classy first."

Smile:" Please ...."

Ruksah finally passed her class. While Smile and Angga start asking questions to Devan .