Not a Widow

Bereft

The next day, the sun appeared. Syafira awoke from her sleep without seeing Keenan. Keenan was sleeping in another room. He decided to split the bed with Syafira. Syafira knew Keenan was doing this for her own good, but why it was so painful for Syafira.

Shafira got off the bed and prepared to take a shower. Shafira went into the bathroom. When Shafira enters the bathroom. The bathroom floor is very slippery because Syafira's heartless slips and falls.

Syafira fell down in terrible condition. He made her bleed out of her birth canal. Syafira was in a lot of pain, he wanted to ask Keenan for help but Keenan was not there.

"Awwww"

Syafira grimaced in pain, she could not do anything now. The more blood came out, the more his stomach started to hurt. Syafira shed her tears.

"Om Keenan"

After saying Keenan's name, Syafira was unconscious.

While Keenan, he was still silent on his bed. He felt guilty for Syafira. Keenan will go to Syafira's room to check on her condition.

He got out of the bed and put on his clothes, and walked to Shafira's room. Keenan knocked on his door but there was no answer. Keenan finally opened his door. "Not locked" Keenan said.

Keenan went into the room but he did not find Syafira. Then his eyes unintentionally looked towards the bath. Keenan looked up at Syafira who was covered in blood. He really didn't know it was going to happen like this.

Keenan approached Syafira and immediately carried her. He took her to the nearest hospital from the hotel.

"I'm sorry... I'm sorry..."

Keenan felt guilty for Syafira. He continues to blame himself for the current state of Syafira.

After arriving at the hospital, Syafira Langsug was taken to the ER by a doctor. Keenan was waiting for him from outside.

"If I had been there last night, this wouldn't have happened"

Keenan banged his head against the wall. He was so devastated by this incident. Even Keenan cried.

2 Hours later, the doctor who treated Syafira came out. Keenan immediately stood up and asked the situation of Syafira.

" Doctor, how is my wife? is she okay? (Doctor, how is my wife? is he okay?)

" Your wife is fine, but the baby in her woman cannot be saved (Your wife is okay, but the baby in her womb cannot be saved)

Keenan's world stopped at that moment. This news left him half-dead in shock. Keenan went straight into Syafira's room without caring what the doctor said.

Syafira sat down and did not speak a word. Empty views. After the doctor said that his child could not be saved Syafira yelled and blamed himself for not being able to keep the candidate for his heart

Keenan entered the room of Syafira. He approached Syafira and would embrace her. Syafira however avoided.

"Go" said Syafira.

Keenan did not budge in his place. He looked at Syafira so deeply.

"I asked om to leave in front of me, I don't want to see om anymore" Syafira said.

"Please forgive me, no matter what happens I won't leave you" Keenan said.

"Om saying that our marriage is not legal right, it's better to divorce me than to sin with me"

Keenan was surprised to hear Syafira say that. "I will never divorce you, I love you so much Syafira"

"I DON'T CARE, NOW I'VE LOST MY SON. I'VE LOST IT ALL. I'M REALLY SAD RIGHT NOW. PLUS MY HUSBAND LEFT ME ALONE IN THE ROOM AND CAUSED ALL THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME"

After being satisfied to shout Syafira shed her tears. He was really disappointed with himself.

Syafira looked towards Keenan who was as devastated as he was. Syafira immediately took off the infusion on his body and ran outside the hospital. He held the pain when running, his stomach still hurts. But Syafira ignored him. The pain in his physique was not comparable to the pain of losing his baby.

Keenan chased Syafira, but he lost quickly to Syafira. Now Syafira disappeared right in front of him.

"Argghhh" Keenan hit the wall beside him. Making everyone look at him strangely.

Syafira continued to run limping, occasionally falling over . Syafira doesn't know where she should go. When Syafira ran accidentally he hit someone.

" [mian haeyo] *I'm sorry*

Then Syafira left. The one who was hit by Syafira was Lee min ho. He went to the hospital to check on his health.

" [sonyeoga gongyeong-e cheohan geos gatseubnida]

*It looks like the girl is in trouble* inner Lee min ho.

Shafira stopped on a road that she did not know where it was. He decided to sit down and rest. Syafira recalled the moment when she chatted with her fetus, as she bought clothes for her baby-to-be. And many other memories.

Now, the fetus is no more. Syafira really regretted all this. "God, why did all this have to happen to me"

Syafira kept crying. He didn't care about Keenan continuing to look for him right now. A car stopped right in front of him. And a man got out of that car. Syafira looked up and saw a tall man wearing a mask and sunglasses.

That man is Lee min ho. " ?" [analya euseyo?]

*Are you okay, miss?"

Syafira wiped away her tears and replied " ⁇ , ⁇ [ne, jal jinaeyo]

*yes I am okay*

Lee min ho opened his mask and glasses in front of Syafira. It made Syafira surprised. It turned out that the person he hit was Lee min ho.

"Lee min ho" she wrote.

Lee min ho smiled seeing the girl know who she was.

. ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ [nae cha-e ta. najung-e manh-eun salamdeul-i dangangkwa hamkke bolkka dulyeobseubnida.]

*get in my car. I'm afraid there will be many people who see me with you later.*

Syafira got into Lee min ho's car. Then Lee min ho followed and sat down beside him.

"? (wae uneungeoya?)

*Why are you crying?*

Lee min ho changed your word to you.

Syafira was silent for a moment. He doesn't know who to tell the same. Maybe he should tell his idol.

⁇ ⁇ ⁇ (naneun bang-geum nae agileul ilh-eossda)

*I just lost my baby*

Lee min ho scrunched his forehead hearing the word baby.  "?" (Are you married?)

Syafira. He is so sad because his marriage can be tenuous in an instant.even the age of his marriage is still three days.

" . ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ " (ije gwihaui munjee daehae jasehi solmyeonghaebosibsio. naega neoleul doul su iss-euljido molla)

*now try to tell me about your problem in detail. I may be able to help you*

Syafira told Lee min ho everything.

" . . . . ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ (nampyeon-i han il-eun jalmos-i anibnida. geuneun danji dangrangwa hamkke joeleul jisgo sipji anhseubnida. gyeolhon sangtaega ajig wuheonhi yuhyohaji anhgi ttaemun-ibnida. geuleona geuneun ttohan dangsin-eul naebeolyeo dun geos-e daehae jalmosdoeeossseubnida. naneun dangsin-ui jong-gyoleul ihaehaji moshajiman dangsin-ui gyeolhon-eul ihaehabnida)

*what your husband did is not wrong. he just does not want to sin with you. But he was also wrong for leaving you alone.I don't understand your religion, but I understand your marriage*

" ? (geulaeseo naega mueos - eulhaeyahani?)

*then what should I do?*

*come back to your husband, I'm sure he's currently looking for and worrying about you*

"What he said was true, right now om Keenan is also as devastated as I am. I shouldn't have said that"

Looking at the thinking Syafira, Lee min ho smiled.

"남편 사진 가지고 있니? 매니저가 그를 찾아서 여기로 데려 오도록 할게요"

(nampyeon sajin gajigo issni? maenijeoga geuleul chaj -aseo yeogilo delyeo odolog halgeyo)

*do you have a picture of your husband? I'll have my manager search and bring him here)

Syafira gives a photo of Keenan to Lee min ho. Then Lee min-ho told his manager to look for Keenan around the hospital where he met Syafira earlier.

While waiting, Lee min-ho tries to comfort Syafira with his jokes. "

(gamsahabnida) *Thank you*

"Nee" (yes)

Moments later, manager Lee min-ho arrives with Keenan by his side. Keenan was surprised to see Syafira with lee min ho in his car.

" 먼저 들어가서 얘기 할게요

meonjeo deul - eogaseo yaegi halgeyo

*you should go in first, then we talk* said Lee min ho.

Keenan got into Lee min ho's car. Then looked at Syafira who was currently shifting her eyes.

Keenan stared at lee min ho, who answered a nod by Lee min ho.

"Syafira, I'm really asking you. I know, I am indeed the best man*** in front of you right now. You can punish me with anything but no word of divorce"

Syafira's tears fell again. Then without a second thought, Syafira slammed into Keenan's arms. He hid his face in Keenan's chest. "I'm also sorry om, I shouldn't have said that to om"

"No, you're not wrong. It's all I'm wrong. If I hadn't left you this wouldn't have happened"

Keenan kissed Syafira's forehead many times.

Then his eyes shifted to Lee min ho who was watching him at this moment.

" thank you for helping my wife and helping me find her"

*thank you for helping my wife and helping me find her*

Lee min ho replied in English. "You're welcome"

Lee min ho glanced at his watch, the clock already showing at 10 noon. Soon he will have to film.

" 총을 쏠 게요, 집에 데려다 줄까요?

chong-eul ssol geyo, jib-e delyeoda julkkayo?

*i'm going to shoot, do you want me to take you home?* said Lee min ho.

Syafira shakes " ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ ⁇

pil-yo eobs-eo byeong-won-eulo dol-agal

*no need, we will return to the hospital*

So Syafira took Keenan out of the car. After the two went down.

" 오빠, 내가 슬픈시기가 아니었다면 오빠 랑 사진 찍어달라고했을 텐데

naega seulpeunsigiga anieossdamyeon lang sajin jjig - eodallagohaess - eul tende

*if I am not in a sad time, I will ask to take a picture with you

Lee min ho smiled at Syafira. "

seulpeo hajima da-eum-e mannayo *Not to be sad next time we can meet again*

* 좋아 그럼 내가 먼저 갈게 나중에 봐

joh - a geuleom naega meonjeo galge najung - e

*good then I go first, see you later*

After that Lee min ho went with his manager. "

maelyeogjeog-in sonyeo *Interesting girl*inner Lee min ho.

Syafira looked at Keenan "Then, we return to the hospital. I want to bury my fetus in Korea, because it is impossible to bring it to Indonesia" Syafira said.

"All right, let's do it"

Syafira and Keenan returned to the hospital. They asked the hospital to help her bury her. The hospital agreed that they buried the foetus of Syafira in a special cemetery of Muslims in Korea.

After that the hospital returned, and Syafira and Keenan stayed. Syafira came back crying. He was expecting the presence of his heart.

"The doctor said that if my daughter was a girl, I would give her the name Keysa sahara ayuna. I'll call her Keysa which means favorite daughter"

Syafira kisses Keysa's headstone. Then he picked up the flowers he had bought on the street. Syafira sprinkled it over Keysa's headstone.

"Sorry mother dear.sorry, because your careless mother can not be born into the world. Sorry mother"

Keenan's heart was filled to see Syafira loved her late daughter so much. Keenan felt very guilty for Syafira.

Keenan hugged her to give strength to Syafira.

"Delay promises, until whenever mother will always love keysa. And keysa is always in your heart"

Syafira continued to speak to her daughter's headstone. He ceases to speak. Syafira spent two hours talking with her daughter's headstone.

"Darling, we go home first. It's noon already. When will we be here again"

"No, I'd like to be here with Keysa. If I go home who will accompany Keysa"

Keenan sighed heavily. He still cannot forgive himself. Due to her negligence, Syafira had to lose her fetus.

Keenan tried to persuade Syafira to return home, because Syafira had not eaten since this morning. "Let's go home and eat. You haven't eaten this morning. I'm sure keysa will be sad if the mother doesn't want to eat"

"I'm sure Keysa is now in the best place, heaven" Keenan continued.

"Mother go home first baby, next time you will come again"

Cuppy

Syafira kisses Syafira's headstone. It was hard to leave Keysa's grave.

Keenan embraced Syafira and walked home.  Keenan decided to bring Syafira back to Indonesia today. He will tell his parents and his in-laws know this.

"Keysa sahara ayuna, thank you for accompanying Mother's day. Mother loves you very much. May you be calm and happy in nature. Mother will always pray for you from here. You will always miss you, son. Forgive me for not being able to take care of you" inner Syafira.

"Keysa sahara ayuna, forgive me for failing to protect you. Even if you're not my biological daughter but I love you so much" Keenan said.