Not a Choice

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...-In the end, it is all about supposing, for time can no longer be repeated...

...Kalingga Byakta's...

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After talking to Runi, Runa went back to Khan's room to see the condition of her son. He misses the little angel who is still lying weak. He also could not leave Khan without his supervision.

When he arrived at Khan's room, it was seen that the tiny Khan was still unconscious, while his parents were still in a seat not far from Khan's bed. Runa sat next to Khan. He gently rubbed his son's kapala. "Khan baby, you hear me, son? Mother is here waiting for you, dear. Don't miss mom, yeah! Hang on for mom. You are the source of your strength. Trust your mother, you will soon find a donor for you. Hold on, honey!" Runa was still sobbing at Khan's condition. He took Khan's hand to touch his cheek, occasionally wiping the tiny hand, hoping that Khan would hear his voice.

There was nothing Runa could do but pray that the doctor would soon find the right donor for her child. He was unable to see Khan who usually spoke a lot, now just silent and not moving. If it can be replaced, let it lie there, not Khan. He was too small to feel this kind of pain.

Lina approached Runa. "Run, eat first!" lina Pinta.

"Yes Ma. Runa will eat."

"Run, you have to fill your stomach first so there is energy. Now let mama, dad, and Runi take care of Khan. Since Khan's in the hospital, you've been eating irregularly, son."

"Runa just doesn't want to leave Khan, Ma. Later if he realizes there is no Runa, how?" lamented Runa.

Runa did not want to miss a single development of Khan. He did not want to leave Khan's room. If he went out of the room just to see the condition of Sandy who was in the same hospital. He should be the first to know about Khan's health development.

Seeing her brother who did not immediately move, Runi also intended to buy Runa food. Runi knew, it would be useless to ask Runa to leave Khan in the condition of Khan like this. "Let's buy it first, Ma."

When about to open the door, for a moment Runi stopped her steps when she saw Ata who was just standing in front of the door. "But why don't you come in?" ask Runi to Ata.

"Yes, Run. Later I come in, I don't have the heart to disturb your brother. I was afraid that my existence would worsen the atmosphere and make her sad even more" replied Ata sungkan.

"Good, Mas. Runi came out first, wanted to buy food for Runa's mother."

Lukman and Lina who saw how devastated Runa was, made them not have the heart to leave Runa alone waiting for Khan. As for Ata, he could only peek at Runa from the gap of the room door. Ata who could not bear to see Runa who continued to cry over the state of Khan could only wait all night outside the room, although occasionally he would go into Khan's room to see the condition of his son.

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This morning, Runa woke up tired and limp. How not, his sleep was only two hours and in a state of sitting beside Khan's bed. The food that Runi bought did not enter his mouth much.

While Ata, early in the morning Ata was already in the room, enveloped Khan when Runa was still asleep. Now, the man sat down and spoke to Lukman.

"Good morning" said the doctor who entered Khan's room with the nurse behind him.

"Morning, Doc."

"Well, Doc," Runa replied as she shifted, giving the doctor more room to examine her child.

"The old man from Khan?" ask the doctor as soon as he finishes the examination.

"I, Doc," replied Ata and Runa together. They immediately stood up and approached the doctor.

"How's Khan doing, Doc?" asked Runa enthusiastically.

"Thank God, there's good news for Khan. We have found the right heart donor. So, I hope Mom and Dad can see me for file signatures and to the administration to take care of his letters, so that they can be treated immediately," explained the doctor.

How happy Runa was when she heard what the doctor said. He did not want to give thanks for the happy news. Runa immediately hugged Khan's body and kissed him. He was so happy, because soon Khan would grow up to be another normal child. He will not feel pain anymore.

Just like Runa, Ata also grasped the tiny hand of Khan. "Defend, yes, the son of a strong father. I'm sure Khan will be cured. I promise you, if Khan recovers, I'll make Khan happy. Whatever Khan asks you to do. Whatever it is, kid! I promise!" ata said seriously. He was so serious about what he said. It was as if Khan's happiness was everything to him, even though they had not met for long.

After the doctor left the room, Runa immediately prepared to see a doctor to prepare everything needed.

"Ma, Dad, Runa took Khan first. Runa had to prepare the necessities for Khan's operation,"

"Yes, Honey. You asked Ata to accompany you, didn't you?" pinta Lukman's. Runa Runa glanced at Ata for a moment, then confirmed it.

Before taking care of the letter, Runa first walked towards Sandy's ward, she wanted to see the man's condition. "Where are you going, Run?" ask Ata who saw the direction of Runa's steps opposite to the doctor's room and the administration.

"I want to see how Mas Sandy is doing."

"I'm with you, Run."

From outside the room, Mira and Sekar accompany Sandy. Runa's intention of wanting to enter was finally undone. He didn't want to make a scene there. He knows, Sekar has not been able to accept it, let alone see the condition of Sandy like this, making Sekar even more hate him. Now, Khan's got a donor heart, and what about Sandy? Has his condition improved?

There was not a hint of guilt that he felt at this moment. Remembering because Sandy caught up with him to cause an accident. But how else? It's all been happening. Runa is eager to see Sandy.

Ata observes the way Runa sees Sandy. Implied a feeling he could not say. The taste he once had, but now he no longer got. If he had not left Runa, he would have been with Runa and Khan. To be a happy family.

But in the end it was all about the ifs. Time can no longer be repeated. Regret will not change his past. Ata really wanted to see Runa have happiness. It was enough for Runa to suffer after her disappearance which she unknowingly left a heavy burden for Runa. If the happiness of Runa and Khan is not in him, he must learn to sincerely accept it. Maybe this was the reply he had to receive.

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...To be continued...

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